"Yo te buscaba en los azules
y me enfrentaba a tempestades
y ahora no s� si t� exististe
o eres s�lo un sue�o que yo tuve
pero es que hay gente que no consigues olvidar jam�s
no importa el tiempo que eso dure.."
I had the most wonderful dream I've ever had last night. The most vivid.
I was waiting for you in the frontier. I don't know if it was Tijuana or El paso but I was in Mexico. I was not alone. Nanci was there with me, and some guys from my old job: Flor, el Gringo and other people I don't remember.
I was excited and waiting for your bus, I think. I remember I told Nan "she won't come" and she said "she will".
There were a lot of women there and I said "remember, she is the tallest one.." :) (silly me, blind and crazy)
It was getting late and I was losing hope, and then there you were..walking towards me, with the same beautiful smile of the pictures..and I was dying with love. You were different from what I imagined, but it was you and your smell and your hug..and I held you tight for a long time. And there were kisses too, and emotion.
People were all staring at us, like a huge showcase: my dad, some of my friends..but I was so happy that I didn't even care about it.
Then we went to a mall. It was weird but you wanted to buy something (I think it was a necklace). You talked to me..some spanish and I was trying to make sense with my english. Then you put your glasses on to read something and I said "oww..exactly the way I imagined you" and we both laughed at that...and I hugged you...and you whispered something sweet...and I was so happy..
It was so real.
The frontier, my friends, my excitement, my fears, all my doubts, Nanci and her words, your smile, the kisses. The love.
There is a second..a very exact second between the dream and waking up..
a second that is not fantasy but not yet reality...a second when everything is possible...even us, until the heart breaks again.
"Ya no te busco en los azules
ni me enfrento a tempestades
ya no me importa si t� exististe
porque en mis sue�os yo te tuve
pero es que hay gente que no consigues olvidar jam�s
no importa el tiempo que eso dure..."
August 29