What now?

So, what do I do now?
You say I need to get out of this mood.
How?
I can't stop my emotions.
I can't stop this feeling that while on the exterior
I'm happy and everything is wonderful.
but on the inside the story is much different.
Too much gone bad too close together.

I hide myself within a world
That crumbles around my feet with every step.
The tombstones fall on my forgotten graves,
While my dreams so strong once they seemed
continue to fade to a sickly forlorn grey.
I can't make my life seem right...
Can you?

I would love to feel some happiness,
but how is that possible?
One thing goes right, the next falls apart.
These failures seem to pile up
even if most of them aren't my fault.

You tell me to be happy
like it's turning on a switch.
It's not that simple - you should know
I've listened to your lamentations for hours on end.
I think it's kinda funny that you think it's that simple.
I've saved you once, you've saved me twice,
but yet the reaper returns again.