| 25.March.02 *sighs* I picked the cheery background in hopes of making myself cheery. It's not really working. I just don't really understand it anymore. Everything has turned into an 'If" situation. I'm so tired of never knowing... I guess I got one of my if's turned into an actual answer. Not Pregnant. The test said so. Should I be relieved? A lot of people think I should be. If that's true, then why do I feel like crap? Why do I feel as bad as I did last month when I found out I wasn't? Oh well though. I'm only 18 right? Therefore I just don't know shit about life. I don't know anything. God it's almost not fucking worth it anymore. Getting out of bed, going to classes where no one really gives a shit, and then come back and go to sleep. *sighs* Why the fuck to I even bother anymore... it's not like anyone ever fucking reads this shit anyways..... |