| 03.February.01 Well, my audition is a week from today, and I'm terrified. Not because I'm afraid to go to Iowa, but because I'm afraid that the first of my dreams won't be realized. "It's a dog eat dog world, and I'm wearing milkbone underwear." I want to thank everyone who has told me that I'll get in... it's helped me a lot. Seriously, if it weren't for them, I would be not only nervous, but crying all the time believing that I wouldn't get in. Especially Steve, that boy has believed in me since 10th grade. Which is astounding considering how much he and I have been through. He's the one person who hasn't given up on me. I think my mom's about to... but I'm guessing that because she hears all my whining. Paul's getting there, but he can't entirely... he got screwed with accompanying me... the poor wretch!! lol I guess the main reason I'm worried is because this week, I did not practice all that much. I've played. Not to mention that I didn't pick up my violin for more than 20 mins yesterday... instead I brought my music to lunch and marked dynamics. Stupid Stupid me. but I think it will help me. I need to be able to show the jury that I can be contrasting. granted I'll be playing all of them mezzo scared. Oh good lord what am I doing?!?! I should just go to Drake... I got in... then again I have to pass the audition there too. This is an open offer to anyone.... whoever can get me a ticket to the Bahamas any time with in the next two months, i swear to god I will love you till the end of time. and I'll let you come with me... I seriously need a break. Preferably I would like to go with someone I know. But right now I'm not going to be picky.... well laters Aimee |