| Alrighty, I just want to start of by saying i'm sorry for not writing yesterday. J stopped by right after i got home. It was a pleasant surprise. I think lately he might actually be trying a little harder in our relationship. It used to be he would never stop by on a friday (unless we had plans) before midnight or 1 a.m. But, for the past few weeks, he actually has come by a lot earlier. I don't know if it's because he has nothing better to do, or if he actually wants to be with me. of course, sometimes i think i worry too much about our relationship. So, anyway, he came by and all we did all night was sit around and play cards, drink, and have sex. I must say, i'm a pretty happy camper today. Speaking of today, I actually woke up on time (and considering that i didn't go to bed until 5:30am and had drank 1/2 a bottle of jim beam by myself) i was pretty psyched. I amazingly got to work on time, which in and of itself is a mircle. The day was going great until about 3:00 when all of the sudden, i kept on getting bothered by complete and total morons. I think no matter how much you try, you always will run into a few at the dogtrack. By then, i was down off of cloud nine and i actually let these people get under my skin (which i can't stand to do) I'd rather just be nice and blow it off, but i just couldn't do it today for some reason. I actually blew up at one of the customers and i didn't even feel guilty about, which isn't like me at all. now, after i've had time to reflect, i do feel sorta bad about, but there's nothing i can do now. Besides, i kinda still think he deserved it. Well, J is coming by again tonight, so i must prepare.....Bye for now, Julie |
