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A few weeks have past. JC starting to hang out with Justin every once and awhile. JC still got a little tense when Justin got to close, but they were rebuilding their friendship and Justin was very happy about
that. While Joey and JC where getting closer. As always they were in
some nameless city in some nameless hotel. Chris had a room to himself while Justin and Lance shared on and Joey and JC shared the other.

"I love it when we have nights off." Joey said as he exited the bathroom.

"Ya me too. Want to order a movie or just channel surf?"

"Ummm...channel surf. I'm kinda tired."

"Ok. I'm going to take a shower." JC picked up a few things from his suit case and headed to the bathroom.

'Its getting harder...I have to tell him...I mean he is getting over
Justin so why can't I tell him...but he probably does not love me....but he could...what am I going to do?'

JC walked out of the bathroom and laid down on his bed.

"So what are you watching?" Joey just stayed quiet, he was lost in his own thoughts to even notice that JC came out of his shower.

"Joey?"

"Huh....O I'm sorry JC I must have zoned out there. What did you say?"

"I asked what you were watching but I guess you don't know either."
They just sat there watching music videos on MTV. After what seemed like hours Joey spoke up.

"JC can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"Do you think you would be able to love someone else?"

JC looked at Joey with sad eyes "I really hope so Joe I really do. I
don't want to love Justin like this anymore because it hurts to know
that he can never love me back. I want to get over him and move on with my life but I'm really scared!"

"Why are you scared? Are you scared to love again?"

"I believe so. I really sad really but after all that happened I scared
and I don't want to get hurt like this again because I know that I won't be able to handle it. I want to open my heart to love again but I'm scared that I will be broken again!"

"I will be ok Josh I promise!"

"Thanks Joey. I think I'm going to go to sleep ok. Good night."

"Alright, I'm just going to take a walk"

Joey left the hotel and walked for about 45 minutes until he reached a park.

'I'm going to hurt Justin. He hurt JC so bad that now he will never love me! I can't believe this I was hoping praying that JC will be able to love me but after what he said tonight I don't believe so anymore! But maybe if I tell him that I love him then he will see that someone
already loves him and he will want to love me back? But I doubt that I mean who would want to love me? I'm not built like Justin I mean look at him his is practically perfect! Its no wonder that JC fell in love with that asshole!'

Joey just wanted to crawl in a corner and cry. He love what he had with JC now but he wanted more he needed more! Joey wanted to hold JC at night and whisper sweet nothings into his ear. Joey wanted to hold JC's hand and take JC to his parents house for Thanksgiving. Most of all he wanted to feel those soft lips on his and wanted to spend the whole night making love. Joey wanted to spend the rest of his life with the one person that he knew could make him happy. But, that person was getting over a broken heart and did not know if he could ever love again. And that hurt Joey the most because he knows that JC has lots of love to give but because of one stupid mistake caused by Justin JC has to hide that love. Hide it from the world to see.

Joey sighed 'I guess I should be heading back...its getting late and we
have to get up early...damn tour I wish I was a home that way I could sort out all of my problems and not have to worry about the others.'

Joey walked back to the hotel slowly. When he walk into his room he
noticed something on his pillow. It was a letter addressed to him. Joey recognized it was JC's hand writing. He opened the letter and started reading...

Dear Joey,

When you left I thought about what you asked me. I really want to love again I really do!! I don't want to spend my life alone Joe. All my life I prayed that I don't spend my life alone and I fear that it will
happened. My parents disowned me and *NSync won't last forever as much as we all wish it would we know it won't. And when that day comes we will all go our separate ways, you guys to your girlfriends (in you case maybe boyfriend) and I will be alone! And I really don't want that!! I want someone to come home to, I want someone to tell me that they love me and only me!! But that the hours pass I fell my chance for love fading and as stupid as that sounds I feel it is true! I know your probably thinking to yourself how stupid I am for thinking that I won't find love when I'm only 25 but Joe I can feel it and I'm scared!!

But before I go to bed I wanted to thank you! Thank you for everything that you've done for me these couple of weeks!! You're a great friend and I'm so lucky to have you!! One day Joey you will make someone really happy and that person is very happy to have you!! Thanks once again for everything Joe it means the world to me!!

Love,

Josh

Joey just sat on the bed staring that the piece of paper in front of
him. 'I can't believe he wrote that...HIM I want to make him happy...I want to be his love I want to be the one he comes home to...'

Joey was laying in bed trying to fall asleep but could not. He keep
thinking about the letter JC wrote to him.

'I have to tell him know...I don't want him to live his life alone or
with anyone else but me for that matter...but how do I tell him? That's the big question...do I just come out and say it? Or do I write it in a letter? However I tell him I know it has to be in a way that won't scare him and leaves him the option of saying "no"...I don't want him to say no to my love but if he feels that he can't love me the way I love him or that he is not ready I have to respect that. And I believe that will be hard to except because I want him to love me. But, if he can't I can't make him'

After what seemed like hours Joey finally fell asleep. All his dreams
were about JC and how their lives would be together.