| Chapter 8 |
| "You fucking bastard!" Lance thundered and almost lunged at Eminem but Justin held him back gripping his shirt, "What! Justin get the fuck off me!" Justin wrapped his arms around Lance waist and whispered in his ear, "Look at him, he's not awake yet." Lance looked at JC and his face softened as he looked at him, he moved forward, "Josh..." "Lance how could you? I'm so sorry I don't love you but how could you hurt me like that? After what HE did to me, and how could you let him do it to me again." JC said tears streaming down his face. "Oh my God!" Lance whispered tears filling his eyes, he turned to Justin, "He dreamt, he dreamt we raped him!" Justin bit his lip to keep from crying, "I know." Justin walked slowly towards JC, "Joshua it's okay, you were dreaming." JC looked at them all scared and then he looked around the room it wasn't that hotel room, it was his room at Justin's, he looked at Eminem the man he loved and broke down. "Marshall I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry." JC repeated over and over as he cried and clung onto Justin as his arms wrapped around him. "It's okay Josh, everythings going to be alright." Justin soothed as he rocked him. Eminem walked out of the room and Lance followed him, "Where are you going?" Eminem stopped, "For some air." Then he kept walking. "Are you really gonna leave him when he needs you most, I thought you loved him." Lance said. Eminem whirled around angry, "I love him more then you'll ever know, but did you hear what he said? He thinks I raped him!" Lance now understands why he wants to leave, "He dreamed that we all raped him and what I can gather is it was you and me who hurt him most in the dream. He has been through a trauma and I really think he should see a therapist." "A therapist? Why?" Eminem asks, not as angry as he was before. "He needs to talk to someone who can help him through his rape, he never talked about it he just tried to get on with his life," Lance looked straight into Eminem's eyes, "Can you imagine what it must of been like to have to see the man who raped you everyday for 3 years?" "No." Eminem said quietly. "Neither can I. We, yes we, both have to try and get him to go, I will go with him if need be as I can never forget that night." Eminem nodded, "Okay, can I go? I promise I won't leave I just have to try and forget the look on his face as he said that." Lance bit his lip, "Want some company?" Eminem raised his eyebrows, "I need to forget what he said too." Eminem looked at Lance for a while then nodded, "Okay, you can come." And they both left. Back in JC's room Justin, Joey and Chris were trying to comfort him. "Josh it's okay we understand." Justin said then winced at his words. "How could you undertand J? I dreamt that Joey and Chris held me down why you raped me then you switched until Lance came and soothed me then began to make love to me until he changed and," JC's voice caught on a sob, "And he started to fuck me and hit me because I could never love him and then I see Marshall and I begged him, pleaded with him not to hurt me but he ignored me and forcefully entered me tearing me apart then I woke up. So tell me J how could you possibly understand how that feels like?" Justin's lip was trembling and his eyes were filled with tears, "I-I can't, I'm so sorry Josh." And he burst into tears. JC felt horrible and wrapped his arms around Justin, "I'm sorry Ju, I know you were just trying to help, I'm so sorry." Justin sniffled, "It's okay, it was my fault for being so stupid." "Stop it. You're not stupid you just didn't know what to say." JC said as he stroked Justin's jaw and then he looked around and asked, "Where's Lance and Marshall?" Chris looks around, "I don't know." JC looked up teary eyed, "Do they hate me now?" "How could we ever hate you Joshua, we love you." Lance said as he walked in with Marshall. |