Watching

Look at them. They seem so happy. I want what they have. Well, any fool would want what they have. It's pure magic. Look at the way Justin looks at him. It's so raw. The hunger and passion that burns in his eyes. I wish that I could only capture a fraction of that. What makes this so hard is that I once had it.

You see Justin used to look at me that way. Yes, Justin and I were once a couple. But I ruined it all with my lack of faith. See Justin adored me I know he did. But for me it was all to good to be true. I didn't understand how such a beautiful creature could want me. And my insecurities got to be to much for him. I drove him away. And now look at him he's with Joey and he's finally happy.

Joey. Let me tell you about Joey. Joey was once where I am today, See Joey has always loved Justin. And when Justin and I would fight Joey was the one to pick up the pieces. He was the one that assured Justin that everything would be okay when I turned away from him. He was there the day I broke Justin's heart. The day I gave my world away.

So now I'm forced to sit here on the outside looking in. Wondering what I was thinking when I walked away from Justin. Wondering if we could have ever been happy. If only I wasn't so insecure and could have accepted his love. Why did I have to turn him away? Why couldn't I have just loved him? Well, I guess we will never know the answer to that now will we. So I will sit here and continue to watch and wait and hope that one day he will be mine again.

Waiting for the day that Joey slips up. Hoping that Justin will return to
me. It might not happen today or tomorrow but rest assured I will have Justin back.

THE END