| Chapter 27 |
| Lance woke up with a smile on his face as he had Josh pressed into him holding him tightly, he loves holding Josh in his arms but he also loves to be held by Josh and feel his heart-beat underneath him. Lance remembered the first time he held Josh while he slept and unconsciously pulled him tighter against him, that was one of the most horrible moments in his life; walking in on JC trying to kill himself. That had scared Lance more than he'd like to admit, from that day on he always kept a close eye on him, to make sure nothing like that ever happened again, his life would not be worth living if Josh wasn't in it. [[Enough with the morbid thoughts Lance Bass]] Lance scolded himself, [[Think about what happened last night, you and Josh made love]] Well in Lance's mind it was making love not physically but emotionally. Lance couldn't help grinning he and Josh we're connected now, they've shared something with eachother that they have never shared with anybody else. Lance looked down at Josh and the breath caught in his throat as he found two of those most beautiful blue eyes looking at him, he decided right then and there that Josh was an Angel because he looked more heavenly then you have ever seen him. "Hey Beautiful, whatcha thinking about?" Josh asked. [[Even his voice sounds heavenly]] Lance thought happily, "About you, my love." Lance answered with a smile. Josh smiled back, "I was thinking about you, and about last night, I will never forget that as long as I live. I love you Lance and I promise you that I will never do anything to make you doubt my love." Lance smiled faltered wth JC's words [[Again!]] his mind screamed. [[He thinks I don't believe he loves me. You Lance Bass are a shit how can you think this man does not love you?]] Lance thought, he took a deep breath, "Josh I am sorry that I ever doubted your love, it's just your so amazing, your beautiful, talented, you've got the voice of an Angel and you are a great songwriter. And look at me, I am no-where near as talented as all of y'all, and I guess I am insecure about us. I don't know what you see in me when you could have anyone you wanted, you could have..." Lance trailed off, but JC knew what he meant. "Justin." Jc finished for Lance. "Yes." It was barely above a whisper but Jc could hear it, "I have a fear of losing you Josh, especially to Justin." Lance feared he said too much when Josh said nothing, when Lance was about to apoligize Josh spoke. "Lance you are the most amazing person in my life, you changed me for the better. Before I met you all I cared about was music but when we met I knew we would be huge and on a deeper level I knew we would be together eventually. You we're so shy and a real gentleman that I couldn't help but fall in love with you. These years have been filled with joy, heartache and pain, but I wouldn't change any of it because I experienced it with you and we're together now just like I knew we would. I would never leave you Lance and definetely not for Justin, I love both of you but in two different ways. I will always love you, your the one I want to spend the rest of my life with." JC said to Lance hoping to show Lance how much he means to him. "I love you Joshua Scott Chasez." Lance said before framing Josh's face with his hands and passionately kissing him hoping to show Josh how much he means to him. Josh got the message and vowed to himself that Lance will have no reason to doubt his love again. Lance reluctently pulled away from Josh and got out of the bunk he looked at Josh with a shy smile, "We better get ready for today, I am going to shower, care to join me." Josh grinned at Lance, "Okay." They showered, dressed, did some interviews, did soundcheck and then they had the concert, during 'This I Promise You' Josh turned to Lance and winked at him as he sang, "'Till the day my life is through, this I promise you." Lance had never wanted to kiss Josh or say 'I love you' more then he did at that moment but the thousands of screaming girls might not like that too much, so Lance said 'I love you' with his eyes. [[I can't wait for tomorrow, I am gonna make Josh so happy when he see's his surprise]] Lance thought grinning as he sang along with the rest of the guy's. |