| So Close, Yet So Far |
| Justin was nervous. Not because he was going to get married tomorrow, but because Lance was coming over in a few minutes. Lance. Justin sighed as he thought of him. So sweet, so caring, so damn hot in bed. Justin had been sneaking around with Lance for as long as he could remember. But it would all end tomorrow. Because Lance refused to sneak around with a married man. Justin had postponed his wedding three times already, not wanting his time with Lance to end. But he knew that if he did it again, JC, his fianc�, would leave him forever. He knew that this night with Lance would be his last. That made him sad, but so did the thought of losing JC. So he lost either way. **** Lance was looking forward to the night, but he was also dreading it. His eyes filled with tears as he thought of never being with Justin again. At the beginning of their �more then friends� relationship, which pretty much just turned into sex, Lance hadn�t had any feelings toward Justin, besides thinking that he was hot. But as the relationship progressed, and they continued to have sex, Lance began developing feelings for Justin. And now those feelings were stronger than ever. His heart felt like it was going to explode. He knew that tonight was his last chance. And he was going to make his move. He prayed to God that Justin would respond in a positive way. **** Justin�s heart lept into his throat as he heard a knock on his door. Joey was the one who suggested that JC and Justin spend the night before the wedding apart, like most couples-to-be-married do. Chris had agreed too. Justin could tell that Lance had been very happy with the arrangement. Justin actually was too. His last night with Lance. For a moment he felt guilty. He was cheating on JC with the best man in their wedding. But Justin was sure that JC was somewhere with Joey, doing the same thing he was about to do with Lance. He almost felt jealous, but then scolded himself. He needed to focus on Lance. He let Lance into the room with a smile on his face. Lance looked gorgeous. His hair was all spiked, and his green eyes sparkled. He looked so damn hot. Justin could get his eyes off of him. Lance smiled when he saw Justin staring. Maybe the two hours he�d spent preparing for tonight had actually paid off. Justin closed the space between them quickly, crushing his lips to Lance�s. And Lance responded, shoving his tongue in Justin�s mouth and fisting his hands into Justin�s short curls. Lance was glad that Justin had finally grown back some of his curls. There had been nothing to hold on to when Justin had shaved his head. They pulled away, both breathing heavily. �Hi,� Lance said, speaking for the first time since he�d arrived. Justin smiled and said, �hey.� �Um, I was wondering if we could, you know, talk before we, um�� Lance stuttered. �Fuck?� Justin said simply. �Uh, yeah. So can we talk?� Lance asked, really nervous. He couldn�t figure out why he was so nervous. He�d been with Justin so many ties. But they usually didn�t talk much. �I guess, but not too along. I�m horny already Lance, I want you,� Justin replied, his voice filled with lust. Lance almost shoved Justin against the wall to take him there, but he stopped himself. They needed to talk. �So what are we going to talk about?� Justin asked after a moment of silence. Lance could hear the impatience in his voice. He walked to the couch in Justin�s living room, Justin following him. �Um, stuff,� was the best answer Lance could come up with. But he knew Justin wouldn�t wait too much longer. Justin watched Lance fidget and felt himself get hard. He knew he�d have to get Lance to talk before they could move on to other� things. Lance soon found his voice again and he said, �there are some� things that I want to tell you, but I don�t want you to say a word until I finish, ok?� �Ok,� Justin agreed, wondering what Lance was going to say to him. �Ok. Um, where do I start?� Lance wondered aloud. �The beginning?� Justin suggested, smiling. Lance smiled back and said, �good idea. When we first started�.� �Having sex?� Justin offered. �Yeah, when we first started, that we all it was. But as time went on, I started to feel differently. Especially lately.� ** This is my last dance with you, this is my only chance to do all I can do ** �What are you saying, Lance?� Justin asked. �Well, I�m letting you know that you are special to me. When I look at you, I see such an amazing person, Justin. And I wish I were like you. I wish you were mine. And�� Lance paused. �And what, Lance?� Justin said, pushing Lance to continue. ** To let you know that what I feel for you is real ** �And� I love you,� Lance told Justin. �You� really?� Justin asked, surprised. �I know you�re getting married tomorrow,� Lance started. �Great,� he thought �remind him about it now.� After a paused, he continued, �but I wanted you to know that I�m in love with you.� Justin sighed. He hadn�t realized that Lance felt this way, and he felt really bad. �I am getting married. I love JC, Lance,� Justin responded, not knowing what else to say. ** This is my last chance to make you mine ** �But, I was thinking. Maybe we could run away somewhere,� Lance suggested. �I � we can�t. Lance, how long have you felt this way?� Justin asked. ** I kept my feelings so deep. I kept dreams of you and me somewhere inside. Although I prayed that you�d see it in my eyes. ** �Um, about a year, I think,� Lance answered, his head down. He was embarrassed. �Wow,� was all Justin could stay. �I always dreamed that somehow, someday, we�d get married. Even when you started seeing JC,� Lance admitted, �I was so stupid.� His eyes filled with tears. �Oh, Lance,� Justin whispered, pulling Lance into his arms, �you aren�t stupid, you were just� blinded by love.� ** But this is my last chance to say what�s in my heart before you stay out of my life. And then you�ll understand the way I feel inside. So hold me close cause it feels so right. ** �I - I�ve been waiting for you my whole life, Justin. You are my soulmate, even if I�m not yours,� Lance cried, burrying his face into Justin�s neck. �I�m so sorry Lance. It�s ok, you�ll find the right person for you, I promise,� Justin said soothingly. �Are you sure?� Lance sniffled. �Very sure,� Justin said, smiling and pulling away a little to wipe the tears from Lance�s face. Lance sniffled a few more times and blew his nose before saying, �um, Justin?� �Yeah?� Justin answered. �Can I, uh, can I make love to you?� Lance asked cautiously. And Justin knew he couldn�t say �no� to Lance�s pleading face. �Yes,� Justin answered, leaning in to kiss Lance�s lips and then moving down to his neck. ** Make it last all night ** **** Lance sighed happily as he came down from his high. He felt ok now, because he was in Justin�s arms. ** So close and yet so far away ** He felt so safe in Justin�s arms, but he knew that they would be forbidden forever in a few hours. He saddened when he thought of that. His emotions were totally messed up where Justin was concerned. ** This is the moment that I just cannot let end ** Justin didn�t want the night to end either. But it was obviously inevitable. It would end, and he would never be with Lance, really be with him, again. ** Don�t let go ** Lance held Justin tighter and tried to fall asleep. But he said one more thing before he drifted into dreamland, �I love you Justin.� Justin heard him, and his heart clenched. He would never have this chance again. He had to do it. ** This is my last chance to say what�s in my heart before you stay out of my life ** �I love you too Lance,� he said quietly. Lance heard him, and knew that everything would be ok; tomorrow, the next day, and forever. THE END Song used: �Lance Chance� by Allure |
| Note: This story is dedicated to Kipley because it was her idea and I wrote it for her. Hope you like it Kipley! Happy late birthday! Lol. |