NotWhatHeSeems4

*Joey�s Point-Of-View*

I almost had a heart attack when Josh brought up what I did last night. I seriously thought he was going to tell Justin and Lance about Chris and I. Oh God, that would�ve been disastrous. Not only would Lance find out that I�m gay, but Justin would be crushed. I mean, he loves me and shit. I don�t want to hurt him, I just fell in love with Chris. I couldn�t help it� Chris was just so lovable.

I didn�t know what to do about Justin though. I really didn�t want to hurt him by dumping him. And he�d probably be crushed if he found out that I not only don�t love him, but I love Chris. So telling him would be bad. But him finding out from Josh would be even worse. And I just had this feeling that Josh would tell them this morning, or that he wanted to. He just looked way to happy to have found out that two of his friend were gay and sleeping together.

So I don�t know what to do. And I have to sit here uncomfortably, next to Chris of all people, and eat breakfast with the rest of the guys. It was really awkward.

�So what is everyone doing today?� I asked carefully.

�Justin and I are going to hang out today,� Lance offered, not looking at Josh.

�All day?� Josh questioned. �Because I thought maybe you and I could hang out tonight, Lance.�

�Oh, well, yeah, I guess that�d be ok, right Justin?� Lance replied.

�Yeah, sure,� Justin replied, smiling as he looked over at Lance.

�Cool,� Lance replied. �What about you, Joe, what are you up to today?�

�Actually, Justin, I was wondering if we could talk tonight,� I told Justin, deciding that I needed to tell him about Chris before Josh did.

�Ok,� Justin responded with a weak smile. I wondered briefly what was wrong with him. I didn�t worry too much because we were supposed to be talking later that night anyway.

�Hey, Joe, we should go see a movie today,� Chris suggested, hoping that they�d have a chance to be alone so they could talk.

�Yeah, that�d be cool,� I replied, giving Chris a secret smile.

�Can I come too?� Josh asked politely.

�Damn him,� I thought. He knew that we couldn�t say �no� because then Justin and Lance would be suspicious. �Sure,� I agreed, knowing I had no other choice if I wanted Josh to keep quiet.

�Great,� Josh responded with a big smile.

I just rolled my eyes. �Why did Josh have to do this?� I asked myself, annoyed. I just wanted to spend the day with Chris. I�ll have to think of a way to get back at him.

****

About half and hour later everyone went back to their rooms to change and get ready for the day. Chris and I were sharing a room, so we both stayed. We finally had a chance to be alone, if only for a few minutes. And of course he wanted to talk about what happened.

�Why weren�t we more careful?� he asked me.

�I don�t know, Chris, I don�t know,� I replied, not knowing what else to say to him.

�Josh didn�t seem to care but he was acting a little weird about it,� Chris observed.

�Yeah, I know what you mean. He kept giving us these looks. I think he wants us to be nervous that he�ll tell Justin and Lance,� I told Chris.

�Is it working?� Chris questioned.

�Yes. God, Chris, what will I do if Josh tells Justin before I get to tonight? Justin will be so crushed that I didn�t tell him first. What am I going to do?� I whined, pouting a little.

�Joey, stop. You know I hate it when you pout. I wouldn�t worry about it. I don�t know what�s up with Josh, but I don�t think he�d tell Justin and Lance purposely. And Justin, well, he�ll be ok eventually,� Chris replied, trying to make me feel better.

�Yeah, I guess so. I just wish Josh wasn�t coming with us to the movies. We could�ve caught up on our making out,� I joked, trying to change the subject.

�Yeah, I know, but we can always do that later,� Chris reminded me.

�True. I guess maybe it�s good that we�ll have a chance to talk to Josh about what happened today. We can make him promise not to tell Justin and Lance. That way I�ll be able to tell Justin before he does,� I reasoned.

�Yeah. We need to figure out what movie we�re going to,� Chris said suddenly.

�Oh yeah. I�ll call Josh and ask him if a twelve o�clock movie is good, ok?� I asked, wanting to leave a little time for Chris and I to just hang out before we left.

�Sure, that sounds good,� Chris replied, laying down on our bed and turning the TV on while I called Josh.

So I called over to Josh�s room and made plans to go to the twelve o�clock movie. When I hung up the phone, Chris patted the space beside him on the bed. I walked over and lay down beside him.

I turned my head to watch Chris watch whatever was on the TV. I smiled as his face lit up and he laughed at whatever the person on TV had said. I don�t think I could love him any more. Every little thing about him just makes me want to love him more. I love every minute that I spend with him.

He finally realized that I was watching him and turned to look at me. He smiled his goofy smile and leaned closer to brush his lips against mine. �Baby,� he said.

�Yeah?� I replied, moving a little closer so our bodies were touching.

�You know I love you, right?� Chris asked, leaning in to kiss me again.

�Yeah. I love you too, baby,� I responded, completely happy at that moment.

Suddenly, Chris rolled over on top of me, rolling me onto my back. His lips pressed to mine in a sweet kiss. I responded quickly, running my tongue over his lips and the slipping it inside when he opened them. Our tongues danced, finding a rhythm while Chris� hands roamed my body, stopping on the hardness in my pants.

He freed it quickly, and I gasped as I felt his wet mouth around me. I bucked my hips and cried out as he swirled his tongue around my length. I came moments later, never able to hold on very long. It just shows what he does to me.

I sat up once I�d recovered and went to return the favor. �No, baby, it�s ok. I just want to cuddle now, ok?� Chris told me.

�Are you sure?� I asked, completely willing to free the erection that I could see in his pants.

�Yeah, plus we don�t really have time,� he reminded me with a quick smile.

�Oh yeah, we don�t need Josh catching us again,� I replied, giggling. I was too happy then to be worried about Josh or Justin.

�Yeah,� Chris agreed, laughing along with me. I kissed him once more before settling in his arms and falling asleep.