| Chapter 3 |
| Josh walked in a daze back to Lance's room and sat on the bed, [[Lance. Love. Me. Lance in love. with me]] Josh couldn't wrap his mind around the fact that Lance loved him so he got dressed and just as he finished the door opened and Lance came in smiling. "Hey Josh how you doing?" Lance asked looking at Josh with caring eyes. Josh couldn't meet Lance's eyes so he stared at anything but Lance, "I'm fine. Thanks for letting me stay I'm gonna go now." Lance looked at Josh worried, "Josh were are you going? You know your welcome to stay here for as long as you want." Josh met Lance's eyes and he swore he saw love there, "Thank you," He kissed Lance's cheek and whispered, "But I need to be alone right now. I need to think." Lance looked at Josh worried but he just smiled, "Ok. Call me, let me know if you need anything." Josh smiled, "Sure." Josh hugged Lance tightly, "Bye Lance." Lance hugged back confused, "See you later Josh." Josh let go and walked downstairs and smiled at Joey, "Hey dude." Joey smiled at Josh, "Hey J, how are you?" Josh licked his lips stalling, "I'm fine...I just got a lot to think about." Joey looked closer at Josh and saw something in his eyes, "Josh, La-" "Bye Joey." Josh said then almost ran out of the house, he knew what Joey was about to say when he got outside he realized his Jeep was still at the house so he began to walk and think about Lance. Lance came downstairs with a confused look on his face, "Joe did Josh just leave?" Joey looked at Lance a worried look on his face, he couldn't tell Lance that he thinks Josh heard them, it would kill Lance. "Joey whats wrong?" Lance asked seeing the fearful look on his face. Joey took a deep breath, "Nothing, nothing. I'm gonna go.." He had to go and find Josh. "Joey, why? What's wrong? Is it Josh? What is it?" Lance asked kinda panicked. Joey shook his head, "It's nothing like that, look I really have to go but I'll be by later." Lance frowned, "Ok. Bye Joey." "Bye Lance." Joey yelled before running out the door and into his car, hopefully he will find Josh. Josh walked up the drive to his best friends house and knocked on the door. Justin opened the door smiling when he saw Josh, "Hey C, what you doing here why aren't you with Nick? Or Lance?" Josh bit his lip as he felt tears come to his eyes, "J can I come in? I-I-I need you." Justin's eyes widened when he saw tears in the beautiful eyes of his best friend and when he heard those three magic words he opened his arms. Seconds after opening his arms Josh was in them crying and clinging on to him, Justin led Josh inside and sat on his couch cradling Josh to him, "C what's wrong?" Josh looked up at Justin and simply said, "Me and Nick are over." Justin bit his lip, he didn't know whether to say I'm sorry because he wasn't he didn't think Nick was right for the amazing man in front of him and he was right, so he just said, "Why?" "He was cheating on me. With Kevin." Justin eyes were on fire, "That son of a bitch!" Justin jumped up and began pacing, "That fat bastard! I knew he didn't deserve you. How could he fucking do this to someone as amazing as you? I'm gonna kill that smug talentless Backstreet Boy fucker!" Josh jumped at the outburst, "J, please don't do anything. He's not worth it." Justin sighed, "Fine! I won't do anything..today." Josh shifted nervously and looked down at his hands, "J? There's another thing." "What is it?" Justin asked concerned as Josh wouldn't look at him, he leaned forward and placed his palm on Josh's thigh, "Jace what is it?" Josh swallowed hard and finally looked into the concerned baby blues of his friend, "Justin is it true that Lance is in love with me?" Justin's eyes widened, "Shit!" He swallowed and said, "Let me call the guys." Josh's eyes closed, "It's true then?" "Jace..." Justin started, he really didn't wanna have this conversation without Joey or at least Chris. "Are you gonna call Lance?" "No. Just let me call Joe and Chris." Josh nodded and laid his head back ::How could I not know that my best friend is in love with me?:: Justin called Chris and told him to get over as quickly as possible, he was about to call Joey when there was a knock on the door. Justin walked to the door and opened it, "Who is- Joey!" Joey smiled, "Hey dude, have you seen C? 'Cause I been looking everywhere for him. I think he knows about..." "He does." Justin interrupted. Joey's eyes widened, "How did you know what I was gonna..." He trailed off realizing, "He's here isn't he?" Justin nodded, whenever JC was upset or didn't know what to do or in a crisis he always came to Justin his best and most treasured friend. "Fuck!" Joey exclaimed, "What did he say?" "He just came right out and said it, 'Is it true Lance is in love with me?'. Shocked the shit outta me, wait!" Justin frowned, "How did you know he knew?" Joey sighed, "I was just at Lance's and he told me about what Nick did; bastard! And I said 'Are you gonna tell Josh your in love with him?' and we talked for a little bit then he went upstairs to check on Josh then he shot out of there like a bat outta hell especially when I was about to ask him if he heard something. Then I left and came looking for him." Justin rubbed his forehead, "I have been dreading this day since we realized Lance's feelings." Justin locked eyes with Joey, "I didn't know how he'd react I never did...he's not saying much Joe, I don't know what he'll do." Joey wrapped his arm around Justin and gave him a tight squeeze then they walked into Justin's house and spotting Jc Joey walked over and sat next to him, "Hey JC." JC looked at Joey eyes troubled, "Joey is it true?" Joey bit his lip and looked into his lap, "That is up to Lance to tell." A tear escaped JC's eye, "God how did I never know?" Joey brushed the tear away, "Jace how could you know? Are looking at all of us for signs that we love you? There was no way for you to know C, your with us but your not always WITH us." JC whimpered and got up, "I need to go. I need to...sort things out." Justin went over to him and held him at arms length, "C what you need is your family. What you need is us JC!" JC swallowed and locked eyes with his bestfriend, "Please Justin! Let me think it over on my own, I'll be gone a few days then I will come back and...talk to James." Justin nodded, he knew there was no arguing when Josh called them by their first/full names, "Okay Joshua, I'll let you go but you call me as soon as you get where you're going. I don't care if you're in Tunisia Jace, you call me!" Josh smiled he couldn't help it and he hugged Justin, "I will. I love you Justin." Justin hugged back tightly, "I love you too Josh." Josh let go and turned to Joey who almost ran into his arms, "You take care C and give Lance a chance dude that's all I'm saying." Josh smiled and kissed Joey's head, "I will. I love you Joseph Anthony Fatone." Tears came to Joey's eyes when Josh said I love you, when he said it with your full name you knew he meant it, "I love you too Joshua Scott Chasez." Josh wiped his eyes and left heading to his house thankful that Nick wasn't there, he booked a plane ticket and packed some clothes and took a cab to the airport. An hour later he was in the air and on his way to LA, hopefully he will figure out what to do when in his own house...with his built-in studio. Justin looked at Joey sadly, they had been sitting in silence since JC left; Chris had come and they told him what happened and he had left again not sure what to do, "Do you want to tell Lance? Or should I?" Joey swallowed, "I think we should both go over there and tell him." "Ok." Justin agreed and they left and headed over to Lance's. They walked up the drive and knocked on Lance's door, Lance greeted them with a smile which automatically left his face when he saw the looks they were giving him. "What? What's wrong?" Lance asked as he let them in. Justin and Joey sat down and shared a look, Joey saw Lance's concerned face so he started, "Lance...Josh knows...that your...in love with him...he heard us...me." Lance paled, "Your joking?" His voice shook, "Please tell me your joking!" They shook their heads, "Your not joking?" "No we're not. Josh has gone...somewhere...to think about things." Justin said, hurting as he watched Lance's heart break right in front of him. "Go." Lance whispered, "I need to be alone." Justin and Joey wanted to protest but they knew Lance and JC never broke down in front of anyone so they left it at that and said there goodbyes hoping that everything would be okay between their two friends. Who were perfect for eachother. Lance walked slowly upstairs to his bedroom and collapsed on the bed and buried his face in the sheets which still smelt like JC and cried, eventually crying himself to sleep. Hours later Jc arrived at his home and let himself in, he called Justin to let him know he was alright then he walked into his room and fell asleep, dreaming of Lance. 2 days later JC finally decided to check his messages he had spent the past 2 days thinking about Lance and he still didn't know what he wanted. [[Lance you idiot!]] His mind screamed as he turned on the machine. "You have 9 new messages." The computerised voice said. Message 1 was his mom he'd call her back, message 2 was Justin, message 3 was Joey and message 4 was Chris, Jc sighed he'd call them back later. Message 5 was Lance, the one he had been hoping and dreading for. "J-Josh? It's Lance, I know. Joey told me, I don't know what to say. I need to talk to you desperately Josh. Call me back." Josh closed his eyes praying that was it...no such luck the next 4 messages were from Lance. "Josh? It's Lance please call me back. I need to speak to you...to hear your voice," Lance choked on a sob, "Please call me JC I really need to talk to you." "JC? I need to hear your voice...I'm making myself sick worrying if your okay. I'm so sorry if what you know upsets you I never meant to hurt you...I never meant for you to know, I didn't want you to. Please call me to tell me your okay, call me to yell at me if you want," Lance's voice was unsteady as if barely containing his tears, "I need you Joshua, even if only as friend. Please call Josh, please." "Joshua?" Lance was openly sobbing from the start, "I'm sorry, please call, please let me hear your beautiful voice. God Josh..." Lance was sobbing for a few minutes unable to talk, "Come back to us JC, please come home." "Joshua?" Lance's voice was shaking, "I need you. I miss you. I love you. Come home...Please." That message broke Jc he cried, he cried like he never cried before and picked up the phone and booked the first flight back to Orlando, he needs to see Lance. |