Spring

Flowers bloom
Birds sing
Signs of spring are everywhere
Except in me

It�s the season of love
Yet I feel nothing but heartache
And longing
For something that might not have existed

I thought we had something
That special something that makes love last
It turns out that I had it
You were just faking

My heart breaks anew
Every time I think of it
All the pain comes flooding back
I know it will never completely go away

They say it will get better with time
Actually it only gets worse
Because everyday is one day more
Since the last I was with you

Back when I thought we were in love
Everything was perfect
Now nothing makes sense
Questions that you won't answer fill my head

Why don�t you want me anymore?
How could you fake all that?
And the biggest one:
Why do I blame myself?

I wonder if you know that
That in some ways you�re still my perfect baby
That I think this is all my fault
For not being what you want

Sometimes I wish it was me
That would mean there�s something I could change
It�d be easier than the helpless feeling I get
When I realize there�s nothing I can do

I dream that you�ll come back to me
That one day you�ll realize what you walked away from
But deep down I know that won't happen
I just don�t want to believe it�s over

I am so angry with you
For everything you�ve done
But I could never hate you
There�s too much love in my heart

It�s never going to go away either
We could stop speaking to each other completely
And if you bumped into me 30 years from now
I�d still love you

Of course I'll have moved on
But it�d still be there, I know
So it�s just something I�ll have to get used to
Just like I have to get used to life without you

All I have are memories
Of what I�m not quite sure
You say you loved me at some point
But maybe that�s just another lie

But I remember how we were
I was happy, I thought you were
I�ll never know the truth
All the questions I have will remain unanswered

So I�ll just try and enjoy the spring
And try to forget how everything reminds me of you
The flowers will bloom, the rains will come
And I�ll be here, remembering but moving on