IN GOD I TRUST
I went to bed Monday night, taking my life for granted. I have always felt safe and comfortable in my own little world. I gave no thought that in a few hours my whole life was going to change. Why should I, everything was as always.
How much I learned on the 11th day of September. There are no words to say how much my heart hurt, how much I felt so helpless. My country was under attack! This wasn't possible, my country was not that kind of place, things like this happens only in far off places.
My eyes were glued to the T.V. for three solid days, I watched over and over as those planes were rammed into the twin towers of the World Trade Center. I listened and saw those magnificent buildings tumble. My heart sank as I heard that they had also attacked the Pentagon. What was happening to my country?
I cried and I wailed, "Lord why did those poor souls have to suffer so?"
I have never had anything tug at my soul like this. The pain that I felt was terrific, but I know that my pain is nothing compared to the family and friends who had loved ones in those buildings.
I've gone for three days trying to sort through this terror. I've cried, I've prayed and I have hurt. I've stayed away from writing, because I didn't feel like I could say anything that would make a difference. Maybe what I write tonight won't make a big dent on anyone, but I know that I have to say what the Lord has shown me.
I know that the Lord is just as sad as we are. I'm sure that he watches in horror as his children treat each other with such hate. I know that he teaches us to love our enemies, but I also know that we are such a failure to him, because I don't know of any American who can really and truly say that we love those men that reeked all this sadness on our country.
I want to go and get on my hands and knees and dig in that rubble, and get those people out of there, I want to hold them and tell everyone of them that I love them and I'm so sorry.
I would like to tell all of the firemen, policemen, and every volunteer that all of them are heroes. They see it as just doing their job, I see it as doing their job above and beyond any call of duty. I pray for every one of them, as I know many American�s are doing.
As I sat at my dinning room table tonight, I teared up again, and I started to talk to God. I said the Pledge of Allegiance, I thought of our coins that have "In God we trust". I was really deep in pity and sorrow when I realized what I had just said. "In God We Trust". What in the world was my problem, of course I trust in God! Why am I running around blindly and forgetting who is my Leader!
My heart calmed down, my tears stopped and a peace came over me. I know that I am on the right track. In God I trust!
Now every time I hear something on the T.V. that upsets me or wounds my heart, I just whisper to myself �in God I trust�.
I am so darned proud to live in a country where our president is not afraid to let the world know that he gets his guidance from God All Almighty! What a comfort to know that our leader believes in what our country was founded on!
Judy Kiser 9/13/01 �