Decisions, Decisions
I can�t believe that I actually went to his house and asked him that! What I find even harder to believe is the fact that he actually agreed to it! But I have to do it. For myself, Max, and the future of the world. It�s going to be so hard when Max comes to me and see me with Kyle. I can almost see the look on his face. This is by far, the hardest thing I�ll ever have to do.
Tonight, Kyle and I will look like we made love; Max will come to my window and see us. And then � one of two things will happen. One � Max will come through my window and kick the crap out of Kyle. Or two � Max will turn away, crying. That�s when I�ll start crying. No matter which happen, that�s when my tears will come. I can�t stand to hurt Max like this.
Granted, he hurt me when he kissed Tess that hurt me deeply but he apologized and told me that he still loved me. And I believed him. And now look at me. Betraying Max by pretending to sleep with Kyle. But, I�ve got to go through with this � no matter how much it kills me, or Max �
***Later That Night***
I can�t believe that I actually went through with this! After Max left, all I want to do was go into the bathroom and cry my eyes out. I felt like the dirtiest thing in the world right now!
Yet, it all happened so quickly. Kyle had made me laugh and I said that it felt really good. I can only imagine what Max thought I meant. And all Max had done was to turn around and walk away. Just like I thought he might have done. I tried my best not to cry but the tears came anyway. Kyle did keep to his promise that we weren�t going to �consummate�. That was about the only good thing that happened the entire night!
How am I going to keep this secret from Max? He always finds a way of getting things out of me. And even if I try to resist his efforts, he�ll get teary-eyed and I always give in. How am I going to continue seeing Max everyday and not tell him everything that happened?!
***Months Later***
I feel so relieved! I only wish that I had done it a lot sooner. And Max was so understanding towards me. And I didn�t even have to mention future Max! If I had known that Max would be as understanding, I would have told him the day we went to visit the Friendship League!
It�s only that he *did* sleep with Tess. I saved myself for him! But this is Max Evans � the love of my life. I�ll forgive him no matter what he does. He still loved me after I slept with Kyle. Now I have to do the same for him. But it�s going to be so hard!
***The Next Day***
I can�t believe the Max stayed for me. Tess left with his son! His son! But when he told me that he knew that he made the right decision by bringing me into his life, I knew that he still loved me � not Tess. Regardless of whether or not she carrying his son, Max loves me! Now comes the hard part � Max has to save his son. But no matter what, I�m going to be behind him 100 percent. Loving him is the easy part � supporting everything he does, now that�s another thing completely.
The End!