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I shrugged my shoulders. I didn't know what he wanted. But i knew. He was screaming again. The sound was deafening. I dropped to my knees, covering my ears. Neither mattered. It was unstoppable... & Mercy had no hold here. If i could answer him, i would have. I've read the Bible before... i knew where he was coming from. Unfortunately, it mattered not. He was definitely in charge. It passed. Other things came to the front. A feminine jeer. A masculine grunt. Did it really matter? Her hatred. His indecision. Why wait? I'm fucking naked here! This passed as well. My 'feel' swelled as the orbits seemed to fly. I misunderstood. I thought she was saying, "Good luck," but she was saying, "Goodbye." Why would this happen? But there it was. A young man standing on a mountain top. He yelled to me, but i couldn't understand what he was saying. I heard every word, but none of it made sense. "I brought you into this world, you son-of-a-bitch! You owe me!" Who was i talking to? I stood & looked out into the open space in front of me. Was i really here? Was he? Was she? Was i alone... did the love i had given register? I wanted to feel alone, if only for a minute. These contingencies are not ours to play with... we have no choices. Things happen & the world turns & we are helpless. Or are we? The gods we trust play silly games, but they are human just like us... |