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Nightmare
wondering what
to do after the worst day,
asking God 'why did I mention it in the first place'?
now that I know the truth, I don't
look at her the same,
I could close my eyes forever, but the memories will still remain,
never in my life have I given
so much away,
never have I wanted someone so much, I'd pray,
they say its better to have 'loved
and lost than not at all',
I would rather have lost it all than watched love fall,
gradually I saw her, beginning
to lose interest,
how do you fall out of love? mustn't have been in it,
now I lay in my bed, thinking
of shattered hope,
'who will 'really' love me'? maybe I'll never know,
reminiscing about the early days,
when emotion was strong,
things moving too quickly, but we still had a bond,
closing my eyes and hearing her
sweet sigh,
she leans a little closer and I kiss her good bye,
as she fades into the darkness
I wonder why she was here,
where is 'here' anyway? ignorance is fear.
I raise up off the grass and begin
walking,
not one person around, but I wish they would stop talking.
Voices........voices....laughing....and
crying,
representing the words she told, every time she was lying,
over there I see a rose. But what's
the meanin?
as I draw near, it turns out to be a demon,
while I'm escaping I realize the
wise is the patient,
this must be what love had disguised as. Infatuation.
Its hot now, I never ran so fast
in my life,
I sit down by the river of lost souls and I cry,
unexpectedly the ground is beginning
to shake,
I watch as the river transforms to a lake,
the souls rise up, their cries
will never be forgotten,
to be loved and accepted is all they ever wanted,
Voices........voices....laughing....crying,
sweat beading down, I'm awake and its silent,
seemed like forever, into the
darkness I stare,
not far from reality, 'it was a nightmare'
- J Speezy
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