Written By: ŠTiffany Haga
Lyrics By: Puddle Of Mudd
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Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
preoccupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scence
you know that I'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
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I walked outside to see him wrap his son into his
arms. So many times I could watch the two and know in
my heart that everything thing was right. Our family
was beginning. Tyler looked just like Justin. His
small thin blond curls were damn with salt water and
his blue eyes were large and dark and full of tears.
Justin was laughing at the sight of his son's curled
up chin. He tried desperately to calm his son down
from the confrontation with the large wave moments
ago. I walked out onto the sandy surfaced ground and
made my way to Justin and Tyler. I caressed Tyler's
cheeks as his whimpers grew short. I scooped him out
of Justin's arms and into mine. I then pressed my
pink lips into his soft white skin. The wind
furiously whipped my golden blond locks into the air.
It was going to storm, I could tell by how strong the
waves were crashing against the rocks. I looked back
at Justin who was still letting the waves crash
against him. I smiled and continued to make my way
back towards the house. Tyler's head was now resting
on my shoulder and he was on the verge of sleep. I
walked into the beach hideaway Justin had bought us
about a year ago. I placed Tyler on the couch and let
him rest. I turned to see Justin making his way back
towards the house. His eyes were dark and sadness
covered his features. I hated seeing him like that. I
knew exactly what he was thinking to. It brought
tears to my eyes thinking how Tyler can be ripped out
of our reach and taken to another place. He didn't
belong with her and him, and we both knew it.
They were the two people in the world that just
couldn't love. JC used to be our best friend. He used
to care, before he started drinking. He let the
alcohol take over his whole existence. He was someone
else when he had an empty flask in his hand. She was
also just as guilty. Someone both Justin and I deeply
trusted. Her being my best friend and his lover. How
could they do that to Justin? I wasn't really
concerned with myself I more concerned with him and
Tyler. Justin loved nothing more than his son. Tyler
was Justin's world. He was my world too. Tyler
brought normalcy to Justin's hectic life.
I pressed my lips into his softly and broke away. His
eyes were full of tears. He was never one to cry in
front on anyone though. Justin always tried to be
strong. He tried to show Tyler that he was the man.
He smiled at me softly and made his way to the
kitchen. There was no need for words because all it
would do was upset him. I followed him only steps
behind. He opened the refrigerator and pulled out a
bottle of juice. He then looked up at me. Something
was truly bothering him this time. It wasn't like all
the other times when he knew Tyler was going to be
leaving. This time was different. He closed his eyes
and let the salty hot tears stream down his face. I
ran to his side automatically thrusting my arms around
him as he sobbed into my shirt. I knew something was
wrong this time.
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Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face
Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
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I took hold of Tyler's clothes and walked out into the
living room. Justin and Tyler's eyes were glued to
the TV as the shot up and down. I got closer to see
the two playing Play Station 2. Justin was sitting on
the floor moving his body up then shooting it down and
Tyler standing up as he jumped up and down. I laughed
to myself a little. Nothing was more amusing than a
grown man getting his ass kicked by a five year old on
nintendo.
"Tyler, we have to get dressed your mommy is going to
be here soon." I said lightly.
"Aww, Briney, I don't wanna." Tyler whined to me. His
eyes got big and he thrusted his bottom lip out. I
looked over at Justin who was making the same face.
It was almost scary how alike they looked.
"Sorry sugar but your mom will be here any minute now
and you need to be ready." I said shoving the clothes
in his direction.
"I don't wanna go wit her, I wanna stay wit da da."
Tyler stomped his foot. I glanced over at Justin
again who's face now dropped. He looked down at the
floor and then back up at me.
"Come on baby." I said and grabbed Tyler's hand away
from Justin and the video game.
***
The doorbell rang and I rushed to get it. I hated
opening the door to her but it wasn't half as bad as
Justin opening it to her. I looked out of the peep
hole to see her and JC standing at the door step. Why
did she bring him? I thought to myself. I opened the
door and greeted them with a smile even though I
wanted to greet her with a fist in the face.
I will give it to her she was gorgeous. Her medium
length auburn hair framed her engaging face, her
whitish brown eyes were very intimidating, and her
attracting figure was well, attractive. She didn't
impress me though. I thought she was an evil bitch who
had no right to have Tyler in her arms night after
night, if she even did hold him at night.
"Tiffany." I said moving aside for her and JC to enter
the house.
"Britney." Tiffany rolled her eyes and walked past me.
"Britney, how are you?" JC asked. JC was an ass hole
but for some reason he was always very polite to me,
I'm assuming he's not drunk because I couldn't smell
the aroma of fresh alcohol dancing off his breath.
"I'm okay, Justin and Tyler will be right out, go
ahead and have a seat." I said nicely as I made my way
to the kitchen.
"I would like a water." Tiffany snapped.
"You know where the fridge is." I said. I didn't like
her tone of voice with me. Half the reason why Tyler
wasn't ours is because Tiffany is afraid. She's
afraid he'll call me momma, and he'll love me more
than her.
***
Justin walked over to his son who was sitting on the
bed. He placed the other shoe on Tyler's foot.
Tyler smiled at his dad. Justin then smiled back
trying desperately to hold the tears that were
stinging the edges of his eyes back. Justin finished
tying the shoe and squeezed his foot. He let on tear
fall down his cheek. Tyler noticed the tear placed on
Justin's cheek and placed his finger on it.
"Why are you sad daddy?" Tyler asked.
"Because I don't want you to go away Tyler." Justin
said running his fingers through Tyler's curly hair.
"Daddy, I don't wanna go eadder." Tyler whined.
"I'm going to have you all to myself one day okay?"
Justin promised.
"Otay."
Justin finished brushing through Tyler's hair and
lifted him up onto his hip. Tyler wrapped his arms
around Justin's neck and placed his head on Justin's
head. The two walked out into the living room where
Tiffany, JC, and I were sitting in silence. Tyler
hopped out of Justin's arms and ran right past Tiffany
into mine.
"Bye Briney, Imma miss you." Tyler said as he hugged
me tightly.
"Bye Boo," I said softly into his ear trying not to
let Tiffany hear me, "I love you."
"Me luba you too." He whispered in my ear, mimicking
me. He then turned to face Justin. His eyes were big
and full of tears. Justin could tell he wanted to
bawl but JC had always shot Tyler down if he cried so
he trained himself not to weep in front of JC.
"Tyler come here." Justin beckoned him.
"Imma miss you da da." Tyler whined in Justin's ear.
"I'm going to miss you Ty. I'll call you tonight
okay?" Justin said knowing full well Tiffany never
answered the phone if it was Justin.
"Otay da da, I luba you lot's and lot's." Tyler cried.
"I love you too Tyler. Now stop crying and be strong
for dad and Britney okay?" Justin said into Tyler's
ear keeping his voice very low.
"Otay." Tyler stopped his whimpers.
"I'd hate to stop the family moment but I have things
to do," Tiffany snapped, "Come on baby."
Tyler walked to his mom and let her scoop him up into
her embrace. Tiffany and JC made their way out of the
door with their son. Justin followed them out to make
sure they were okay. He watched as Tiffany placed
Tyler in the car seat that was propped up in the back.
Tyler's eyes moved to the side to see me standing
behind Justin. Tyler picked up his small hand and
moved it back and forth. Justin did the same striving
not to cry in front of Tiffany or JC. The three of
them drove away and I followed Justin back into the
house. He stopped in the middle of the living room.
I didn't understand what the hell he was doing but I
kept my distance. He then collapsed right there.
***
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You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
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"Britney, he can't be there anymore. He can't. JC
abuses him. You know what he said to me? He said
that crying is for girls, and that's what he is a
girl. Screw that, it can't happen." Justin said. He
was so upset, and he had every right to be. Tiffany
screwed him over. It was unfair of her to say she
loved him, have his baby, then tell him she wanted
Tyler to have nothing to do with him. She didn't even
give Tyler his last name.
"I know Justin but you said it yourself that your
schedule is so BUSY that even if you did take it to
court the judges would be skeptical." I said. Ever
since Justin went solo he's been even more busy than
when he was with the guys.
"Britney, if it means my son, I'll give it up." His
breath taking blue eyes were so honest yet hurt. I
could see it in his eyes that his heart was screaming
for the companionship of his son.
"Justin, whatever you want to do, I fully support
you," I pulled his face toward mine. My honey brown
eyes looked into his crystal blues, "I love you
Justin."
"I love you too Britney, thank you." Justin cried.
"You're welcome." I smiled.
***
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Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway
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Justin and I walked through the court room. Tiffany
had JC right by her side and Tyler was sitting in
Joey's lap. Justin looked back at his son and Tyler
smiled. Justin felt confident in his case. He had
the right evidence to prove JC was a drunk, Tiffany
didn't take care of Tyler, and he was threw with his
crazy life and ready to settle down with Tyler in his
reach.
"This is the custody battle of Justin Timberlake and
Tiffany Hangartner. Mr. Timberlake we've been here
before, I hope you are fully prepared for your case."
The judge said.
"I am your honor." Justin asked politely.
"Your honor, I am Marcia Smith and I am Mr.
Timberlake's representation, may I approach the bench
with certain evidence that I think is appropriate to
Mr. Timberlake's case." Marica said.
"Yes you may Ms. Smith," The judge said. Marica
walked through the fights that Tiffany and JC have
filed in police reports, she then explained how
Tiffany was not working and how she was incapable of
taking care of Tyler in the situation she was in. She
also explained to the judge that Justin planned on
getting a part time job doing telemarketing at home so
that he could take care of Tyler and, she explained
that I would do most of the money making in the house.
Tiffany's lawyer objected to a lot of what was
brought up but the judge was not hearing it, "From the
evidence that has been presented to me today in this
court room I only find it suitable that Justin
Timberlake and Britney Spears-Timberlake hold Tyler
Randall Hangartner in FULL custody. If Mr. Timberlake
decides he want to allow Tiffany and JC to see the
child he can speak with his lawyer and theirs about
signing an agreement."
***
Justin walked out onto the patio where his now sixteen
year old son was sitting. Justin sat next to him and
placed his hand on his back. Tyler looked over at
Justin and smiled. The two were still extremely close
and still were the best of friends. I walked out
along side with Justin and sat down on the other side
of Tyler.
"I was thinking about mom." Tyler broke the silence.
"Yeah?" Justin asked as he threw a rock towards the
ocean.
"Yeah, I miss her sometimes." Tyler said.
"You know you can see her whenever you want Tyler." I
said.
"I know. I will eventually. I have a mom though."
Tyler said.
"Yeah?" It brought tears to my eyes to hear him say
that. I loved that kid with all of my heart and still
do.
"Yeah, I love you momma." Tyler placed a kiss on my
cheek.
"Thank you baby." I said.
"Tyler, I don't wanna get all mushy and crap but
you're a great kid. I'm very proud of you." Justin added.