Written By: ©Tiffany Haga


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"Longing For The Past"

© Tiffany ::Illusionz Productions::

Chapter 1

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There I was. 21 years old, no boyfriend, small apartment, and a job that seemed like it was going just about nowhere. I was digging into my lasagna and looking through old album books. I flipped through the pages of memories and there he was. I tried to throw out every picture I had ever had of him out, but I missed this one. The worse part about it is it was my favorite picture of he and I. His arms wrapped around my little body, the creases of his mouth were tilted upwards into a smile, and his eyes looking into mine. My dad loved that picture. He told me it looked like we were in love at that one-day we knew we’d be married. The sad part about the whole thing is, I thought we would too. Obviously, he had other plans.

“Justin Timberlake, the cute one of N Sync.” I said in my most announcement guy voice. Then I made my tone soft again, “But I knew him when he was Justin Randall.”

I remember this day like it was yesterday. It was my 12th birthday. Justin and I had been best friends since we were 1 years old. His mom and my mom were friends since they were in 5th grade. Sadly my mom died when I was 4 years old. I remember his mom and my dad planned out this major surprise party for me. This picture was taken right after I saw what happened.

***April 2nd 1993***

“You like it?” His excited voice squeaked.
“I love it.” My eyes grew in excitement.
“Kids smile for a picture!” Lynn said holing the camera in her face.
“Momma.” Justin whined. He hated taking pictures.
“Justin Randall, now.” His moms voice got demanding.
“Alright.” Justin threw his arms around me and I placed my arms around his waist. I was always told that you could never fall in love when you were young but I did. I was in love and I knew it. Every time his skin touched mine chills would run up and down my spine. Every time he complemented me my heart jumped into my throat, “Rebecca.”
I looked up at him as his mom took the picture, “Yes?”

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My thoughts were interrupted the ring of my phone, “Hello?” I answered.
“Bee, I need you to come to the studio.” I heard my sister’s voice on the other end of the phone.
“Why?” I complained. I love my job, I really do, but it was my day off and I haven’t had a day off in such a long time.
“Because TJ wants to put you some where else.” Amiee said.
“What do you mean?” I asked placing my fork onto my empty plate.
“He wants to promote you Becca. He wants you to be Assistant manager.” Amiee’s voice grew in excitement.
“Oh my God! I’ll be there in ten minutes.” I hung up the phone and ran to get dressed.

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“She’s one of my best workers. Trust me you guys will be totally thrilled to meet her.” TJ said to the five men standing before him.
“Is that her?” Chris pointed into the direction of of where I standing.

My light brown hair lied on my shoulders leading into my white tank top that sat a little above my naval ring. My dark blue jeans lied on my hips and my dark green eyes explored the people in front of me.

“Hey!” TJ ran to my side. I didn’t say a word. I'm sure I looked like I wanted to cry, “I wanted you to come to the studio so you could meet the guys that you are co-managing.”
“Oh.” My eyes still stayed forward and unfocused.
“This is N Sync, Chris Kirkpatrick, Lance Bass, Joey Fatone, JC Chasez, and Justin Timberlake, guys this is….” TJ tried to finish his sentence.
“Rebecca Walker.” Justin finished his sentence.

***May 23rd 1995***

“Momma, I have to go say good-bye to Rebecca.” Justin whined looking out of the window of his empty house.
“Justin, she’s not home.” Lynn said grabbing the last of her boxes.
“Momma, we have to wait.” Justin said.

He desperately wanted to see his best friend before he had to leave for Orlando. He was so excited; N Sync was actually going to happen. Chris called him last night and told him to pack his stuff. He knew he couldn’t leave without telling Rebecca good-bye, giving her a kiss, and give her his new address.

“Justin, our plane leaves in two hours and as much as I love Rebecca and her family we have to go. You can write her, I don’t think she’s going anywhere.” His mom assured him.
“Are you positive momma?” Justin turned to face his mom.
“I am Justin, now get the rest of your stuff and let’s go.” Lynn said taking one last look out at Rebecca’s house.

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“Daddy, I’m going to Justin’s.” I yelled as I ran out of the door.

I ran to Justin’s with a Nintendo game I was dying for him to try. I ran to the door and went to open it but it was locked. So I knocked. After at least ten minutes of sitting there knocking I figured maybe they went out to eat but I saw the note.

Becca-
I had to move. I will write you.
Justin

I felt the tears weld up in my eyes. He was my best friend and now he’s gone. I don’t know where he went, how long he was going to be gone, or why. I just knew it would be a long time till I saw him again, and it broke my heart.

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