** Veronica opened the door to where JC was sitting on the couch. His eyes were tired and red. He glanced up at her. She walked over to him and wrapped her arms around him holding him tightly as he sobbed into her shoulder. The two hugged for a little while but eventually pulled away and Veronica sat next to JC. �How are you?� He asked. �I�m still in shock- it hasn�t hit me yet, you know?� Veronica told JC. �Yeah, and when it hits it�s going to be hard�� JC finished her sentence. �Exactly.� Veronica said reaching into her pocket for a piece of gum, while she was reaching for her stick of gum the envelope that Amber gave her earlier fell out of her pocket. �What�s this?� JC said picking up the envelope that said �To the Guys� on the cover. �Oh, this girl at school told me to give it to you guys, I wasn�t going to but if you want to read it feel free.� Veronica said. JC opened the letter and began to read. Tears began to weld up in his eyes and he put the letter down slowly, �Who is this girl?� �Why, what does it say?� Veronica asked impatiently. �Nothing, find out this girls address, and number.� JC demanded. �Alright.� Veronica said still confused. �You�ll do that for me right?� JC questioned. �Yeah.� She promised. ** I walked into my room and my mom was sitting on my bed. Tears consumed the creases of her old tired face. She looked different, you know, like at peace with something. I watched her as I placed my stuff down and walked to sit next to her. �What are you doing in here mom?� I asked her. �Amber, I�m worried about you.� My mom said. I rolled my eyes and let out a sigh, �Why are you worried mom?� �Because I read your journal today�� My mom tried to finish but fury consumed my emotions. �WHAT!?� I screamed shooting my body upwards. �Amber please don�t be mad at me, it�s just we never talk anymore and I feel like there�s no relationship between you and I.� My mom said wiping the tear off of her cheek. I could feel anger covering my features, �THAT�S BECAUSE WE DON�T MOM!!!� �Amber..� She tried to interuppt. �AND ANOTHER THING MOM, YOU MADE IT THAT WAY, YOU DID!!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!� I screamed. I was so upset, how could she go through my things then act like it�s my fault she�s expressed no love to me. �Amber,� A hurt look covered her face, �This Justin guy, is, dead, you know that right?� �Yes mom, I know.� I said calming my voice. �You aren�t going to hurt yourself right?� My mom questioned. �What do you care?� I asked beginning to clean my room, something I did when I became upset. �Amber, if you hurt yourself�� She began. �You�d what mom, be devastated, that I killed your perfect reputation, that I made you the worlds worst mom because your little princess couldn�t rough it?� I felt my voice getting louder and more intense with anger. �Amber, please stop it.� The phone stopped her; both of our eyes met the ringing phone, �Hello?� My mom finally answered, �Yes she is, hold on.� I snatched the phone out of my mom�s hands, �Hello?� �Hello, is this Amber?� A voice questioned on the other line. �Yes, who is this?� I asked. Before I could finish my mom hung up the phone and pulled it out of the wall, �What the fuck are you doing?� �Amber, we need to go away.� She said. �WHAT? I�m not going anywhere.� I yelled throwing down the phone. �You�re upset, you need some help.� She said walking out of the room and shutting the door behind her. I picked up my books and threw them at the closed door. ** �She said that you had to go away?� Celeste asked. �Yeah.� I spoke into the payphone. �For how long?� Celeste asked. �I don�t know, but I�m not fucking going anywhere with that bitch.� I said moving my stray brown hair behind my ears. �Well if you want there is always a place for you to stay in my house.� Celeste said. �I know, thank you Celeste, but I need to go home now before my mom has a cow and sends out a neighbor hood search.� I said rolling my eyes at how fucked up she was in the head. �Alright bye Ambs.� I heard Celeste practically sing on the other end. �Bye.� ** �What happened?� Nina said, her hand clasped in Lance�s. �She asked who I was then �click� and she was gone, I tried calling but the phone was off the hook.� JC shook his head. �I need to talk to this girl.� JC said, �Maybe we could help her, before she does something stupid.� �JC, I, I miss Justin.� Tears began to weld into Lance�s eyes. �Lance, we all do.� Nina ruffled her fingers through his blond locks. �I need a break.� JC said walking out onto the porch. �Why did you do this Justin? Why couldn�t I just help you?� ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Justin, why are you crying?� JC asked placing his hand on his weeping friend�s back. �Anjel told me that we couldn�t be together any longer.� Justin cried to his older friend. �Justin, she just needs a break, I can guarantee she�ll be back, and your guy�s relationship will be better than before.� JC advised. �Are you sure?� Justin asked wiping his uncontrolled tears from his face. �Yeah, of course.� JC smiled leaning back into his chair. �Thanks man.� Justin said. �No pro bro, hey wanna go get some prostitutes?� JC�s smile grew larger as well as Justin�s. �Yeah, I need a good blow job.� Justin laughed standing up. �Hey, you�re a pop idol, I don�t think you can say blow job.� JC followed Justin�s way back into the hotel room. �Can I say oral sex?� Justin asked. �I don�t think you can say anything that pertains to sex.� JC�s eyebrows grew. �Oh, well, oh well.� Justin laughed. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- �If come back you can say blow job.� JC whispered shoving his hands back into his face and began to sob. ***
