First Kiss:
© / Toshiya-Kyo
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I’ve just used a band I love and my odd imagination to create something I hope is beautiful. Please don’t sue me, I have no money and the only thing I have of value is this computer which will make you laugh when you see it
"Come out for drinks Shinchan, we’re not going to bite you."
Such easy words for him to say, he didn’t know how I felt. My secret hopes and dreams. No one did, I confided in no one.
So I went with them, nursing my one drink while they all got drunk and found ways to enjoy themselves. I was left at the booth, alone, like all the times before.
Someone, the bartender most likely, put on some music and everyone broke into pairs and threesomes.
My bandmates being one of those threesomes. That left two of us out, my crush and I.
He was no where to be seen. Forever Love, one of my favorite songs, from one of my favorite bands.
Mentally I sighed while watching three of my bandmates. They looked so happy together, I wish I could find something close to that.
I felt a tap on my shoulder and looked up to see him. He’s smiling, he’s drunk, but he’s offering a hand, for me to dance. How can I refuse? I take his hand and he leads me to the dance floor.
We face each other, and I’m suddenly shy. I’ve never danced like this before. But he pulls me close and guides me.
I feel like I’m in heaven, nothing has ever felt so right.
The song ends too soon and we have to part. He’s smiling at me and I lower my head. He can’t know how I feel.
But he lifts my face, still smiling.
His face gets closer and I close my eyes. Thinking this had to be a dream, but his lips are on mine! He’s kissing me!
He tastes of cigarettes and expensive alcohol, he tastes wonderful.
Too soon the kiss ends and he’s off looking for someone else to play with. I walk back to our booth and gather my things. There’s no reason for me to stay longer.
Tomorrow we’ll rehearse again and tomorrow he’ll come in complaining of a headache. He won’t remember tonight, but I will. Tonight will be something I’ll cherish in my heart.
My love was drunk, but he gave me the most precious gift of all…
He gave me my first kiss.
Owari
Last Kiss:
It wasn’t supposed to be like this. We were supposed to live happily ever after, we were supposed to be happy…
How did it all go so wrong?
There’s so much pain, it hurts so much and I can’t move. Why can’t I move? Why can’t anyone hear us?
He’s screaming, he’s screaming my name, but I can’t answer him. I want to answer him, but my voice won’t work.
I want to tell him I love him, I’ve loved him since I first met, but the words won’t come. They won’t come when I need to say them the most.
Suddenly he’s standing over me; I can see his eyes, wide with shock. There’s blood on his face; he’s been hurt. My love’s been hurt. Why is he just standing over me?
He bends down and takes me in his arms. The pain increases then leaves. I’m left without any feeling at all. I know I’m in his arms but I can’t feel. He whispers everything is going to be all right, someone would come for us shortly and everything would be okay. I just had to hold on a little bit longer.
Hold on to what? I’m confused by his words, what should I be holding onto?
As if in answer he pulls me closer to him, he’s crying. Why is he crying? What would my love cry so much? He’s trying to say something else, but it’s hard to hear suddenly. I’m so tired. I just want to sleep. Everything would be okay if I just slept. I close my eyes.
Only to be shaken. "Don’t go to sleep on me! You can’t sleep right now!"
Such anger in his voice, or is it fear? I don’t understand…I’m tired I really want to sleep.
"Please Shin-chan, you have to stay awake, I can’t lose you. I love you too much…" He breaks down in tears again.
He loves me…he loves me! My heart races and feels like its going to break. I have to let him know I hear him, that I understand.
Using what I feel is the last of my strength; I raise my hand to his face, stroking his cheek. I can’t do anymore…my arm falls beside me again, useless.
But he understands…He lifts me up, cradling my head in one of his hands and he kisses me.
I don’t want to go… I want to stay. Please if there’s a God, let him answer my prayer and let me live!
But he doesn’t answer…my breath hitches, becoming a gasp. And he lowers me down. I want to tell him, I need to tell him. I don’t want it to end like this. But its too late…everything’s growing darker. It’s getting hard to see.
Daisuke! Please Daisuke, don’t leave me here. Stay with me, stay with me always…don’t let me leave! Don’t let me go…You’ve given me everything I’ve wanted.
My first kiss.
And my last.
Owari