Title - Take This Heart
Author - Psy ([email protected])
Genre - Romance
Rating - R
Band - Dir en grey
Pairing - Kaoru & Toshiya
Comments - Dedicated to the wonderful Tsmrhara, who said such lovely things about the previous parts of this story. I can't tell you how happy it makes me when people like what I do. And just for her I spiced things up a bit in this, the final act. Thanks to everyone who e-mailed me with their suggestions. And, finally, to Spring: you got the ending you wanted after all. I hope it makes up for that confusing Kaoru/Toshiya pairing that made your head hurt! ^___^
Take This Heart
by Psy
PART FOUR
Toshiya sat motionless on the hotel bed. Beside him sat an equally motionless and infinitely more embarassed Kaoru. His face for the last minute or so had turned almost the same shade of pink his hair had been not too terribly long ago. Finally, Kaoru couldn't take the silence any longer. He stood and walked toward the door.
"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I should go."
"Wait!" Toshiya bolted off the bed and grabbed Kaoru's arm. "You can't just go."
Kaoru reluctantly looked into Toshiya's eyes. They were confused, concerned, and oddly devoid of any flirtatious whimsy. "Why not?" Kaoru demanded.
"Well, geez! You can't just come into my hotel room at two in the morning, blurt out that you're in love with me, and then leave just like that! I'm pretty sure that's not how things like this work." Toshiya folded an arm around Kaoru's and led him back to the bed. He firmly pushed the guitarist onto the bed and then knelt in front of him with a little smile on his face. "Besides, don't you want a response from me?" When Kaoru didn't say anything, Toshiya frowned and sat back on his heels. "Well?"
"I don't know," Kaoru replied quietly, shifting his eyes away from Toshiya's.
Toshiya nodded and stood up. Kaoru watched him pace the same stretch of floor he himself had been wearing a rut in earlier. Quite suddenly Toshiya stopped and walked over to him. "Kaoru, how long have you felt like this?"
Not sure where the younger man was going with that, he shrugged. "A while, I guess. Not really sure when or how it happened, it just...Look, Toshiya, I'm really not comfortable talking to you about this when...when I...don't know..." he trailed off, blushing and feeling like a fool.
The bassist sat beside him and threw his arms around his neck. "Kaoru! You silly, silly boy." And then Kaoru felt warm lips press down on his passionately. He instinctively moved his own lips against Toshiya's, a delighted moan escaping from deep in his throat. Toshiya's tongue flicked along his bottom lip briefly before Toshiya backed away, smiling. "Do you have any idea how long I've been waiting for you to say what you just said?"
"Huh?" Kaoru was dumbfounded.
Toshiya giggled. "Did you really think I was going to reject you?"
"I wasn't sure," the guitarist admitted.
"Well why not? Was I not flirting enough?!" Toshiya's playful smile widened as did his eyes.
Kaoru couldn't help but smile. "No, you were flirting plenty. Believe me!" He frowned suddenly. "I wasn't sure because...well, you flirt with everybody, Totchi. How was I supposed to know that I was special or different or...whatever?"
"Because," Toshiya began, his face serious, his eyes locking onto Kaoru's. "In case you hadn't noticed, I haven't flirted with anybody but you for the last two months. I didn't want to flirt with anybody but you. I thought you'd notice and then I wouldn't have to say anything." He shrugged and smiled again. "I guess it worked out anyway. I still didn't have to say anything!"
"Oh yes you do!" Kaoru lunged forward and tackled the younger man. Toshiya squealed and began laughing as they rolled right off the bed onto the floor. Kaoru's deft fingers were working under Toshiya's rib cage, tickling him mercilessly. When tears fell down his cheeks, Toshiya finally cried "uncle".
"Okay! Okay! I give!" He cried. Kaoru stopped tickling him and smiled down as he straddled his torso, waiting for Toshiya to catch his breath. Toshiya looked up and took Kaoru's face in his hands, once again nothing but serious. "I love you, Kaoru."
Kaoru's heart soared when he heard those words. And when he looked into Toshiya's eyes, he saw nothing but that love and a passion that was surely mirrored in his own eyes. He leaned down and captured Toshiya's mouth in a slow kiss. Toshiya's arms slipped down to twine around his neck and press him closer, drawing him deeper into the kiss. They melted into each other and Kaoru slid down until he was no longer straddling the other man, but lying on top of him, holding himself up with hands placed on either side of Toshiya's head.
Toshiya pulled back after a few blissful moments. "Kaoru, have you ever done this before? I mean, with another guy?"
A slight blush colored the guitarist's face and he shook his head. "No."
"That's okay." Toshiya smiled. "I guess I get to be Leader-san in this area!" He gently pushed Kaoru off of him and stood up. Kaoru watched, spellbound, as Toshiya slowly peeled off his nightshirt, his eyes never leaving Kaoru's. Watching the tall, lithe body become revealed inch by inch was the single most erotic thing Kaoru had ever witnessed. His body responded in a way he'd never experienced as his gaze roamed over Toshiya's form, from his smooth, lightly muscled torso to his already erect penis. Kaoru's own arousal was almost painful.
Toshiya held out a hand and, taking it, Kaoru stood. The bassist pulled him into a loose embrace, running his hands over Kaoru's shoulders, down his back, and cupping his buttocks. Kaoru shuddered and pressed himself closer to Toshiya. Their erections rubbed against each other through the material of Kaoru's jeans. Bringing his hands back up, Toshiya quickly divested Kaoru of his shirt and bent slightly at the knees as he licked down Kaoru's throat, pausing to suck gently on his Adam's apple before continuing down his chest to lick at his nipples. Kaoru sucked in a breath and a light moan escaped his lips. Toshiya slipped to his knees and unzipped Kaoru's jeans with his teeth, pulling them down the older man's shapely legs slowly as if he wanted to savor the sight of every inch of skin. He maneuvered Kaoru back to the bed and sent him tumbling backwards as he yanked at his underwear and pulled them off. He let out a sigh of excitement as Kaoru's erection sprang free.
"Oh Kaoru!" Toshiya breathed. He crawled onto the bed, trailing his fingers up one leg until he and Kaoru were face to face. He smiled and his tongue darted out to lick Kaoru's bottom lip. "You're beautiful!"
"You're not too bad yourself." Kaoru replied with a light chuckle. He reached up and cupped Toshiya's cheek with his hand, running his thumb gently just under his bottom lip. "What now?"
The younger man sat up and wiggled his butt against Kaoru's crotch, smiling seductively. "Do you want me?"
Kaoru groaned in an exquisite agony as Toshiya ground himself down against his erection. "More than I've ever wanted anyone!" He barely pushed the words past his lips. His breathing was heavy already and his heart was pounding. His hand moved to burrow into Toshiya's hair and he pulled the bassist's head down until their faces were just inches apart. Passion thickened his voice. "I need you, Toshiya. Tell me what to do!"
With an excited moan, Toshiya's mouth covered Kaoru's in a hot, searing kiss. He then rolled off him and fumbled for a small bag on the chair next to the bed. Kaoru watched that small, tight butt move back and forth ever so slightly as Toshiya rummaged around in the bag.
"Ah! Here it is." A mischeviously seductive smile split Toshiya's face as he held up a small bottle of lubricant.
"You just carry that stuff around with you?" Kaoru raised an eyebrow.
Toshiya shrugged and moved back over to him, tossing a long leg over one of Kaoru's. "Never know when I might need it. Now," he once again straddled the older man, sitting on his legs. "Let me put some of this on for you."
Before Kaoru could say anything, Toshiya had the bottle open, a dollop of lube on his hand, and was slicking it over Kaoru's aching erection. Kaoru threw his head back and moaned, his hips pushing up to meet the warm hand wrapped around him. Toshiya's hand began to move faster and Kaoru's pelvis jerked wildly. Just when he felt like he couldn't take any more of the sweet pleasure washing over him, the hand disappeared. Kaoru whimpered and lifted his head.
"Kaoru, I can't wait any longer." Toshiya had flipped around and was on all fours, his back dipped, prominently displaying himself to Kaoru.
Kaoru knelt up and moved behind the younger man. He seemed a bit unsure what to do. Toshiya reached back and, taking Kaoru's hands, placed them on his hips. He reached back a second time to take hold of Kaoru's slick penis and guiding it to his opening.
"Now!" he begged, placing both his hands in front of him.
Unable to wait any longer himself, Kaoru pressed into Toshiya's body. The back dipped lower and Toshiya moaned, moving back against the welcome invader. Kaoru's eyes closed and he let out a long shuddering moan as Toshiya closed around him, hot and incredibly tight. He began moving in and out with long, slow strokes. Toshiya moaned his pleasure beneath him, pushing back against him in an effort to match his rhythm.
"Kaoru!" Toshiya gasped. "Faster! Onegai!"
Kaoru needed little encouragement. He began pistoning into Toshiya's body. Soon the only sounds that filled the room were the slapping of flesh against flesh and their heavy, breathless moans. Toshiya reached around and took one of Kaoru's hands off his hip and brought it to his pulsating erection. The older man caught the hint and began stroking the hard, silky flesh in time with the pumping of his hips. It didn't take long before he felt Toshiya tighten around his penis and cry out as he came onto Kaoru's hand. Kaoru followed suit moments later, collapsing onto Toshiya's back. They lay there for several minutes, trying to catch their breath and just enjoying the feel of their bare flesh against each other. Kaoru slid up and dropped a kiss on Toshiya's shoulder.
"I love you."
It took a bit of maneuvering, but Toshiya managed to roll over until he was on his back and Kaoru was still lying on top of him. He looked up at Kaoru with that crooked grin of his. "I love you, too."
Neither said a word after that. It was an unspoken understanding that Kaoru was going to stay right where he was for the night, and for the rest of his life, wrapped up in Toshiya's arms.
~owari~
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That would be the it, folks. Hope you enjoyed it! Buuuut...if you need more info., if you crave more of the story that was started in "Any Way You Can" and carried over into this one, then never fear! I have a third story in the works, which would make this a trilogy. I'm not gonna give it all away, but it's called "Shadows of Doubt" and focuses on the only member of Dir en grey left all by his lonesome, our beloved Die. Yes, he too, is in love with someone. And, yes, it's another member of Dir en grey. Oh, but they're all taken, you say? Yes, they are. And that would pose a problem, now wouldn't it?! If you want to find out who Die's in love with and the consequences of that love, then please read "Shadows of Doubt" when it shows up in this here archive! Until then! Ja ne!