Release for the Pain
Kyo slid the blade across his skin, watching as blood flowed out of the cut and
ran over the tracery of scars on his arm. He had been doing this only for a
couple of months. It had started as a release for his pain, but he found out
that his pain kept coming back stronger and he would have to cut deeper and
more often to control the pain. He had always been depressed, but no one ever
noticed. It had finally gotten too much when, a few months ago, he realized
that he was in love with Die. Possibly the straightest man in the world.
*ding-dong*
The doorbell interrupted Kyo's thoughts. //Fuck...// He slipped of a long-
sleeved white shirt, not bothering to button it up. When he opened the door he
was surprised to see Die standing there grinning like an idiot (like usual).
"Ohayo, Kyo."
"Ohayo."
"You don't mind me coming over? It's just that we haven't really hung out in a
while and..."
"It's ok. Come in."
Die grinned at Kyo and walked in, plopping down on the couch. Kyo sat down in
the chair next to the couch. Die looked at Kyo then looked even closer.
"Die, what are you looking at?"
"Why are you bleeding?"
Kyo looked down and noticed that his cut had bleed through the white
shirt. "K'so."
Die jumped up from the couch and pulled up Kyo's sleeve before Kyo could stop
him. "Gods..."
Kyo looked away in embarrassment, he had never wanted Die to see his scars.
Die touched the scars lightly. "Why did you do this to yourself?"
"It's none of your business."
"It is my business 'cause I'm your friend and I care about you!"
Kyo ripped his arm from Die's grasp. "You don't care! If you did, do you think
I would be doing this?! You don't care... not the way I want you to..." With
this Kyo ran into the bathroom and locked himself in.
Die sat in shock. //Not the way he wants me to? He... loves me?// Die ran to
the bathroom door and banged on it. "Kyo?! Open up!!"
"GO AWAY!!!"
"Not until you tell me why you are doing this to yourself!"
"..."
"Kyo?"
"..."
"Kyo? What are you doing?" Die had a sudden flash of Kyo lying in a pool of
blood. "KYO!! OPEN UP THE FUCKING DOOR!" Die started kicking the door trying
to get it open. He gave one last kick and the door flew open causing Kyo to
look up in alarm from where he sat against the wall. Kyo already had one wrist
done and was working on cutting the other. Die grabbed a towel from the sink
and kneeled down next to Kyo pressing it to both of his wrists. "Kyo, why did
you do this? Why?"
"You want to know why?! You really want to know?! Huh?!?! Ai shiteru, Die.
Ai. Shite. Ru. You think I'm sick now don't you? Yeah, I'm sick. I'm a
freak. I'm in love with one of my best friends so much that it hurts. It
hurts so much that I have to cut myself to control the pain." Kyo heard a
light sob and looked at Die in shock. Was Die crying? It couldn't be... why
would he be crying? Kyo tilted Die's face up forcing Die to look him in the
eyes. Die's face was streaked with tears and his eyes were full of pain.
"Kyo..." Die let out another light sob then he leaned forward pressing his lips
against Kyo's.
Kyo's brown eyes widened in surprise and he savoured the kiss before he pushed
Die back muttering, "It's not nice to tease someone like this."
"Who says I'm teasing? Kyo, I love you too. I never knew how much I loved you
until I thought that I would lose you." Die wrapped his arms around Kyo
tightly. "Don't do this again."
"I can't promise anything..."
"Kyo, please... stop hurting yourself. For me... please..."
"Demo... I can't do it alone..."
"You don't have to. I'll be here. Forever." Die pulled away slightly from
the hug and kissed Kyo again. This time Kyo didn't pull away but kissed back
softly. Die slid his tongue into Kyo's mouth, exploring gently. Kyo threaded
his hands in Die's hair and turned the innocent, chaste kiss into a hard,
passionate one. Die pulled away making Kyo whimper in loss. "Don't you think
we should do this somewhere more comfortable?"
Kyo grinned and stood up, pulling Die with him. He led Die into his bedroom,
where Die immediately pushed Kyo on the bed, straddled his hips and started
nipping and sucking on Kyo's neck. Kyo had taken off his shirt while he was in
the bathroom and Die ran his hands up and down Kyo's torso, watching his friend
writhe in pleasure as Die brushed over his nipples.
"Kirei..." Die breathed before leaning down and taking one of Kyo's nipples in
his mouth, sucking and biting.
Kyo gasped and arched up as he felt Die's teeth sink into his nipple. He felt
Die's hands brush over his cloth-covered erection. "Gods... Die..." Kyo tugged
on Die's shirt. "You're wearing too many clothes." Die pulled his lips away
from Kyo's body long enough to slip out of his shirt.
Die kissed and licked down Kyo's torso as his hands undid Kyo's pants. He
paused at Kyo's bellybutton pressing his tongue inside, drawing another gasp
from the smaller man. Die finished undoing Kyo's pants and pulled them off
Kyo, noting with a small smile that Kyo wasn't wearing any underwear. Die
quickly leaned down and licked the tip of Kyo's erection, causing the young man
to moan deeply. Die brought his hand up to carress and fondle Kyo's balls as
he nibbled up and down Kyo's arousal. "Die... don't tease me... please..."
Die smiled and took in Kyo's hard-on in one fluid motion, sucking hard. Kyo
arched up again and placed his hands at the back of Die's head holding him
there. "DIE!" Die moved one of his hand from where it rested on Kyo's hip to
Kyo's lips. Kyo, getting the hint, took Die's fingers in his mouth sucking and
biting softly on them. After a few minutes of this Die took his fingers from
Kyo's mouth and pressed them against Kyo's entrance. Die slid one finger in
and felt Kyo tense then relax. He slid another finger in and started searching
for the place that would cause Kyo even more pleasure. He knew he found it
when Kyo moaned loudly and started pushing back on his fingers. Die added one
more finger and hit Kyo's pleasure point in rapid succession. Die felt Kyo
start to tremble and pulled his mouth and fingers away. Kyo whimpered at the
loss of contact, but groaned as he saw Die removing his pants and boxers,
exposing his hard arousal. Die covered Kyo's body with his own and both of
them moaned as they felt their erections rubbing against each other. Kyo bit
Die's ear then whispered, "Fuck me... now..."
Die kissed Kyo then lifted up Kyo's hips and slid in. Kyo threw his head back
and closed his eyes as he felt an intense pain radiate from his lower body.
Die stayed still and caressed Kyo's face waiting for him to adjust. Finally
Kyo opened his eyes and nodded for Die to go on. Die thrusted into Kyo slowly
savouring the tightness.
After some time of slow hard strokes Kyo wanted something... wilder. "Die,
FUCK. ME. Fuck me hard. Make me scream your name..." Kyo's words went
straight to Die's groin and pulled almost all the way out then slammed in
quickly. He repeated this motion each time slamming in harder and going
deeper. Kyo was trashing his head from side to side and moaning loud enough to
wake the entire apartment building. Die could feel himself approaching orgasm
and reached in between them to stroke Kyo's arousal. Die's hand on him was it,
Kyo arched his back and screamed Die's name as he came.
Feeling Kyo tighten around him drove Die to the edge and he let out a
strangled "Ai shiteru..." as he also came, spurting his essence deep inside
Kyo's body. Die collapsed on Kyo, both of them panting and trembling in the
aftermath.
Kyo looked up at Die with big eyes. "Die... did you mean it when you said-"
"That I loved you? Hai. Do you want me to say it again? Ai shiteru, Kyo."
"I love you, too. Demo... I thought you were straight?"
"Well, you thought wrong, didn't you?" Die pulled out and laid down next to
Kyo, wrapping his arms around his lover.
"Apparently..." Kyo cuddled closer to Die, if that was even possible. "Sleep
now?"
Die laughed. //Kyo's never gonna change, ne?// "Ok... sleep. Oyasumi, koibito."
"Oyasumi."
*~OWARI~*