My Poem Collection

"Promise"

温もりが冷めた私の手に
春を握り返してくれた
希望の光を失った目に
眩しい命を吹き込んだ
枯れ果てた地の果てで迷っていると
どこからかあなたが救いの手をくれた

いつも傍に居るよだから何も恐くないから
どんなに遠くに離れても僕の愛は君の物
愛する君のためならば海を越えて飛んで行く
だから笑顔を絶やさないで
明日を信じて欲しい

闇に犯されたこの体
あなたの愛が媚薬のように
深く埋もれていた感情が
鳥のように羽ばたき始める
天罰に囚われてた自由を
あなたの鍵が開放してくれた

いつも傍に居るよだから君は一人じゃない
どんな寒い風の中も僕の愛が君を守る
愛する君に会えるのなら砂漠を越えて走り続ける
だから涙を恐れないで
明日を信じて欲しい

いつも傍に居るよだから何も恐くないから
どんなに遠くに離れても僕の愛は君の物
愛する君のためならば海を越えて飛んで行く
だから笑顔を絶やさないで
明日を信じて欲しい

"Blessed"

when I come home where I rest my soul
the sky clears out at the morning shore
when the sun sets to a proud horizon
end of the day as my mind's undone

the moment my voice reaches its height
when I fall but brush my knees and I'm aight
to know in my heart that you are the one
to know in my heart that I am your one

hearing the voice of my mother and father
like they're next door when infact they're further
my friends who I treasure more than life itself
to recognize that this means more than wealth

I am truly indeed blessed I am
to live a life of abundance
of happiness and peace

I am truly indeed blessed I am
to see another day filled
with love and positivity

I am truly indeed blessed I am
to be born to a family that cherishes my life
and to find a man who will continue to

"Don't fall"

stand young man
let me help you up
I'll grab your hand
if you reach it out
every road you take
life is always about
choices that you make
and consequences found
at times you're dealt
with the worst of hands
impossibilty's felt
negating all your plans
those are the times
you've just got to be
just swallow your pride
you've got goals to meet
if you wait and see
this too will pass
as any wave in the sea
things just don't last
don't stop here
you have higher places to go
so hold my hand if you fear
cause I'm not gonna let you fall.

"The Most Precious Moment"

is when you check the locks on the door before you lay beside me...
is when we lay like spoons and you reach out your arms to hold me...
is when you kiss the back of me neck...
is when you grab my hands on the streets...
is when you leave the last bite for me to take...
is when I remember how we met...
is when you ask me if I'm okay...
is when you go down on me...
is when you share your ice cream with me...
is when you tell me that I am sexy...
is when you kiss me every morning before you leave...
is when you make me a glass of ice tea...
is when we share laughters together...
is when you finally think I'm funny...

"the way you are"

life can only promise changes
so lets just love who we are
not the skin that you are under
just love you the way you are
your face may begin to crumble
your body may soon fall apart
your limbs may start to stiffen
your steps may lose its kick
but your shining spirit will still glow
in Spring your flower will still bloom
your smile still dance your favorite tune
cause that is just the way you are

"there will always be light"

a day might come to an end
but by night the stars will shine
the rain might fall today
but the sun will seize the sky

"Snow on Flatbush"

petals of the frosted sky
fell all through last night
brightening today
more than yesterday
silenced the cries
of sorrows beneath
its Winter Wonderland
in Prospect Park
as folks trot the sidewalk
equally struggling not to fall
the snow had put on shackles
on the ankles of every passerbys

"things you tell me"

i love you
i love you cause you're sweet
you're too sweet not to love
thats why i love you

come here
sit here for a minute
i never get to see you enough
during the week

"This Morning"

while you were changing,
I was still half asleep,
you kissed me and told me
you loved me as I lay
in the sunlight gleaming
from the window my eyes closed
but my heart wide open
you kissed me again
and I had never felt so high
in life and love that I had found
laying in comfort of happiness
and warmth you cover me
with your morning love
as you get ready to go to work
I'm still passed out on the bed
with funky morning breath
and some sleep still in my eyes
but you still see me and adore me
and I see you and I miss you already
and I don't want you to leave
but I fall back in to my sleep
smelling you still on my sheets
as you walk out and lock the keys

"Changing Seasons"

秋が来たらすり抜ける　
心の迷いと隙間風
あなたの愛は変わらない
でも揺れ動くカーテンが
静かに私を崩してく
真っ青の空の下で
季節と共に変わる自分
あなたの愛に甘えて
私は外をふらついた。

"when you kiss"

your love blankets me
like a down on a cold morning
easing my body and mind
like a late Saturday afternoon
kissing my face and behind my neck
I sigh, a breath of immeasurable joy

Girlfriend

Girlfriend, I wanna say I'm sorry
before I begin cause I may hurt you
now and then but here again
I say this cause I love you so just
please listen to what I wanna tell you
cause you're my best friend
and there's no reason that you and I
start now to pretend that we don't commit
sins but we choose not to repent
Girlfriend, I know that you have been living in
so much pain and I am sure that there is
some days you regret, of saying yes and
promising 'til the end,' as he sat in front of you
with his knees bent, I pray that peace will be
unto you sooner then, tomorrow girl I will
stand by you until when, your heart will rise,
your soul will surely liberate, and though
you won't forget, it was a choice that you had
made and I don't resent that choice you made
and the path you went and represent that you
will always be yourself and never fret to make
the right decision that only you can make.

Girlfriend, keep your head up.

"clouds apart"
where are they going?
moving across the sky
hand in hand they go
swimming across my eye
trying to leave in haste
they rush to the exit
no time to say good bye
where are they trying to get
I look up for an answer
but light peaks only at a time
and I take hide in their shadows
counting whats left thats mine
as they clear out the way
the world seems closer
and the night comes fast
and I drift a little further

"yell-a-black"
your fingers look like Twix
my thighs thick like Twinkies
your legs look like twigs
my eyes they so chinky
but we together see
a love thats so easy,
and if I may say simply
its plain good n' pleasing
in his eyes I see the truth
in my heart I feel it too
we had lost it in our youth
came back tho for me-n-you
so lets just be bumble bees
Twix and Twinkies holding hands
buzzing Afro-Asiatically
one day they will understand

"could've been"
waiting for you to come home
with the kitchen going full blast
water running here and there
got the salad tossed and dressed
fresh baked biscuits ready to serve
your favorite sauce brewing away
cleaned the shower, swiffered and all
brought out new towels and drawers
lit the candle light and made the table
rented some flicks to watch when we eat
burned a new cd to hear when we freak
paid all the bills, filled up the fridge
got a frosty 40 ounce if you wanna sip
I could've been home tonight with you
waiting to greet you and kiss you tonight
helping you take a load off after work
I could've been lying next to you tonight
looking up at the ceiling in your arms
how much I miss your warmth
your sweet smell on the sheets
I could've been with you
I could've been with you

Letters ~愛の言葉~

彼からのお誕生日レター
6-16-03
Well, obviously this is not a card (b-day card) cause the cards I saw pretty much sucked to me. They need to establish cards for brothas to help explain how we feel. Its ten o'clock at night and I've washed my ass, made my food for lunch and I'm ready for bed when I get tired.
Okay now how should I start this (my writing sucks by the way). First Happy Birthday!!!!!! with my late punk ass. I feel fortunate to be aloowed to know that you've made it through another year sound and safe. Today when we talked you were sick and had an ear infection. But in the back of my mind I was still at ease. I knew this was a sickness you could overcome. It wasn't like threatening or something that could impair your sight, touch or taste. Okay where am I going with this... As a child on our birthdays we were raised to thank god to see another year, thank god that we were healthy, that we had 10 fingers and 10 toes and not crippled like some other kids may have to be for the rest of there lives. Maybe I added a little too much with the crippled part. But its true ***, I thanked God that you were alive and well to see one Quarter of a century. It may sound corny to you but its something I hold dear to my heart. Life is real and if we don't take the time to look back and just appreciate breathing we are taking it for granted. I am happy that you and I breath together. You bring so much warmth to my heart and soul. You made a believer out of me that I can be loved unconditionally. And I want to give that back to you the same. Now I know I'm hard headed at times with my mouth, my emotions, etc. I will work on that, it doesn't happen in one day you know. I can't be perfect and I don't think anyone can. But I can promise that I will establish a relationship that is trustworthy with bonds that can not be broken. And as we encounter on each new years resolution, we can think of ways to improve our relationship. Whether its the way we communicate amongst each other, the way we make love, or the way we should raise our children. Woman I love you and I want to make sure you know this in your gut. No woman can compare to the way you make me feel. I am completely attracted ro you physically and emotionally and I don't have a problem reminding you of this from time to time. Damn I wish I had the millions to give you everything you ever wanted, I guess I'm still working on it. Anyways girlfriend I'm going to stop for now. I miss you so much, where is my teleportation device. I think I left it in *********(hometown). That joke might have been corny too, but I get that from my father's side so it ain't my fault. I hope this card didn't suck too bad it almost seems like a letter with words I just wanted to get off my chest. I hope I was not being selfish.
I love you boo, happy birthday, *****

私から送ったメール　＜その1＞
6/22/03
its like....sometimes, I'm okay
working, and being around my family...I can kinda spend the day without feeling too out of place.
but there are times when I just feel like I'm falling...and there's no stopping
I feel like I can't even stand on my two legs, I feel my world crumbling and I can't fight back.
thats what it feels like to miss you.
to feel groundless, to feel out-of-place, to feel like an outsider even when you are at the house you grew up in...I sometimes can't fight the tears from just breathing...thinking about you and how much I yearn your touch, your love, your everything.
I know as a human being, we all have to learn how to stand on our own.
people always die alone at the end of their life, and that is the truth, the one unavoidable reality.
but when you find that one person you can be with...and just be at ease with...
that one person you can just totally be yourself, and love yourself as much as that person loves you...that is when I know that I have found love...and that is what I found in you.
to be honest I couldn't have imagined that we'd come this far...since the day we met, the days we spent, and the years that tore us apart...but after all that was said and done, we are together, now stronger than ever and its miraculous almost...just simply divine.
I sometimes get scared about how powerful this relationship has grown in to, and I fear that some day that I will have to learn to live without. I guess I am kinda experiencing that with you right now...being apart...living the distance...it has been a real challenge. I just hope that we can be together for a long time...don't want ot jinx anything or try to defy change in this impermanent world...but if I can just have one thing in my life...it would be you.
for me, this is more than just a love thang...you are my best friend, you are my inspiration, and you love me...I feel so special and honored.
***

私から送ったメール　＜その2＞
dear *****
i pray for the day our worries justevaporate
about abother bill to pay or a friend's birthday
i hope some day we can just travel where ever
and we can walk in to a store and buy up a storm
but for me all this sounds like a dream come true
but I can't imagine living a dream without you
I miss you every morning when I get up alone
I miss you when I am talking to you on the phone
I miss you as I watch the sun set on the ground
I miss you when I forget that you are not around
I will always choose you over anything that may come about
but one thing I know is that you'll never let me give up
and so I will fight through something that I began
cause you were supportive right from the start
and though at times i feel our fun is interfered
by life's dull realities, inequities and turmoil
I will always be a proud by-stander or partner
to your challenges and my challenges
and most of all for our tomorrow
peace be with you tonight my love.
***

"Heavy Tears"
愛される事が
重荷になるなんて
思いもしなかった
愛される事が
辛いことだなんて
思いもしなかった
泣かれて私は少しビビって
少し私は引いてしまった
自分に向けられたあなたの涙が
去る私の背を牙のように突き刺さった
嬉しいはずの事をそんな風に思った時
冷めた女だって私は自分を恐れた
でも数時間後飛行機に乗って
更に数時間後雲の上で
私はあなたの眼を思い出しては
一人で涙をポロポロ流していた。

"805 to 212"
I listen to STILL RAY...I think of you and your West Coast style
your laid back, comfortable, sunny Cali culture
and I realize that I took so much of that for granted
now that I am half lost in a maze of real life situations
in a web of emotions torn between independence and blood
I hear the trombone and remember your sweet smile
my pure bred, Chucks and creased denim wearing nigga
always craving In-N-Out and Sourdough from Jack-In-the-Box
quoting Tupac's like second nature, throwing up Dubs like what
strolling around town with that gangsta lean, you OG
reppin' the hood to the fullest always screaming at the Lakers
you swallow down Ol' E 40s three in a row like its just water
pulling up your socks as high as it goes when you wear your shorts
and damn I've never heard a brotha talk so much like a surfer
saying dude this and dude that you got me feeling Clueless
sporting your Dodgers jacket up and down Harlem like nothing
you and your style, your smile all grown far from the West Side

"Remembering and Missing"
when the night falls, and the rain settles on the ground
as the light turns red and the flow of traffic stops
like a passing cloud over a Sunday spent at the beach
going to the icecream shop to find your favorite flavor's sold out
I miss you like a merry-go-round missing a carriage cart
like a flawless new acrylic tip seconds after cracking it
finally getting the urge to have cereal, finding that there's no more milk
I miss you like a fridge misses being filled with food
like a walkman in your hand finding there's no tape inside
thats what I feel when I hear the sound of rain against speeding tires
this is what I feel when I realize I won't be touched tonight
the way you touch me last week when you held me like a child
when you let me cry on your shoulders after I watched E.T.
the sweet scent of your body, fresh and tropical
like coco butter and mango and Oil of Olay soap we use

"Its time to say goodbye"
I'll leave you alone
if you tell me so
pack my clothes
and I'll gladly go
I'm not trying to hold
a man who don't wanna be held
and I'm not trying to love
a man who don't know how to be loved
I'll let you go
if thats what you need me to do
I'll set you free
if thats where you need to be
but hold up wait a minute
come to think of it
this is my place you're in
and I pay rent and shit
so if you wanna go
lemme show you the door

"Morning Walk"
寒い朝イーストリバー沿いを
歩いて私は思った。
一度しかない人生を
どう生きるかって選ぶ瞬間が
さっきの私
今の私
後での私に
幾度となく問いかける
選択の余地がない様で
実はその瞬間ごとに私は
何もしない事を選んでる。
何を恐れているんだろう。
何が私を止めるのだろう。

ヨーク・アベニューを歩いて
私は知らぬ間に
通り越すゴミを眺めながら
知らぬ間に私は
何かをゴミの山から探してた
前を歩く女性のバッグを見て
私は何かを盗もうとしていた
通りすがりの車を見て
私は飛び乗ろうとしていた
そんな寒い朝を空腹で過ごし
私は少しだけ犯罪者の気持ち
彼らの犯罪の動機ってモノを
理解したように思えた。

レキシントンに着いて
家の鍵をポケットから取り出し
ヒーターの掛かった部屋の中
私は次の瞬間を待ち、
それが過ぎるの悔やみ
時間を過ごす。
疲れた足を休み
体に暖かいスープを
誰だって暖かいスープ
飲みたい時ってあるよね。
時間を気にせず
落ち着きたい。

"making the Headlines..."
your child was found in the basement Miss
he starved to death in a pool of his piss
curled up in a plastic drawer of horror
his innonence tainted forever and more

ladies and gentlemen thanks to your votes
we will now be sending your sons on a boat
to fight for a cause so questionable in intent
we gon' ignore the Germans and the French

sorry your daughter never came home last night
she's getting freaked by a rap legend tonight
served up on a special groupie hootchie platter
daddy's little girl, you've seen her ass get fatter

never thought that a man can be shot for carrying his wallet
if that ain't racial injustice than God tell me what to call it
41 shots rang loud that one quiet night in ninety-nine
they thought it was a gun but they got him 19 times

"America's Funniest Home Politics"
how do you make peace by starting a war?
how can your conviction be so wrong?
you must clean windows
with a dirty old rag
you must wash all your whites
with a brand new red sock
you must do your dishes
and rinse in a puddle of mud
you must wash your face
and wipe with a day old pizza
you must brush your teeth
and floss with a clove of garlic
quite frankly Mr. President,
you must have very bad breath
and your face must be full of acne
you probably eat more dirt than eggs
and worst of all I saw you play tennis
in your bright pink polo shirt
welcome to the land of the lame
and the home of the money hungry
United States of Hypocrisies
we take pride in taking others' freedom

"Made in California"
your sunshine California smile
that knows no winter or cold
brightens up any London afternoon
warms up any Northeastern night
your sunshine California style
that knows no rush hour or hurry
helps me breathe in a New York subway
lets me see when I do my Tokyo walk

「2人だけの夜。」
私の足の間に
あなたの頭が生えた。
私の足の間に
あなたの目が2つ見えた。
ろうそくの様に
暖かいあなたの唇が
わたあめのような
私を溶かしていく。
私の腕の中で
あなたと私が一つになった。
私の腕の中で
あなたと私が変わった。

My 9-11 Tribute poems...(from 9.11.02)

"The Greatest Question"
beneath the rubles and dust of modernity,
civilization mourns sacrifices made thus far
as the day breaks in to a solemn silence
whaling sounds of bag pipes invite all tears
life, love, respect, charity, and peace
martyred like fallen soldiers of war
now lay pedestaled deep in the grounds
where are we to travel from here on?
blinded by security, greed, and fortune
deaf to hungry cries from faraway lands
numbed by ignorance and selfishness
who are we to make judgements at all?
boasting power and patriotism on other's land
casually criticizing historical foundations
insensitive use of monetary fists and shakes
no reasons for anyone to suffer such tyranny
hypocrites are quick to point fingers around
when problems lie right in our own back yard
children of ghettoes and projects denied
of rights our own soldiers fight to claim
where is the justice to such injustices?
where is the equality to such inequality?
where is the sense to such nonsense?
how much more sacrifices can we possibliy make?

"Declaration of Dependence"
give me your hand...
I can not promise you comfort
but feel free to take my heart
lay your soul on me...
I can not promise your tears away
but feel free to use my shoulders
I can not promise for brighter days
or no more pain
or no more insanity
but feel free to use my entirety
my own person and pure existence
if it makes you feel just an ounce better
if I can make you smile just for a moment
if its gonna let you get back up on your feet
don't hesitate to ask me, call me, or cry
don't hesitate to scream, shout or bite
let me be that one pillar of hope
let me be the one that shares your grief
let me be the one who stands tall and strong
for you my love I will go the distance
for you my love I will jump all the hurdles
for you my love I will make possible the impossibles
for you my love...
all that you need me to be...
all that you ask for...
all that I can be.

"Do you love me?"
you don't have to tell me
you love me everyday
but still I ask you all the time
if you love me more today
its not that I feel insecure
its not cause I am needy
but when you say "love"
and my name together
your lips curl and pucker
making my stomache tingle
so I ask you every morning
I ask you every night
to tell me how much you love me
and I always ask you why.

｢正直に好きと言えない日」
大好きなあなたの手に触られて
いつもは嬉しいのに何故か
今日はとっても息苦しい
狭い家のせいなのか
分からないけど少しだけ
ちょっとそっとして置いて
あなたの愛に覆われて
いつもは幸せに思うのに
今日は重荷に感じちゃう
目を避け、手を除け、背中向け
あなたと距離を置く
そんな自分が勝手過ぎて
自分が嫌いになるぐらい
あなたの愛を受け止められない
ちょっとずつあなたそうやって
傷付けている。

"His name was Lenny"
I used to cruise the block
with my man he was not
the stand up 9 to 5 brotha
but he sure was hot
he had the whip appeal
down to the very last drop
and dressed in the latest
Phat Farm and Sean John
he had it going on it seemed
but I never really seem to
understand where he worked
or what he did to make his dough
until one day I caught him
right in his act as he
hid something in his mouth
I knew it wasn't no candy

"Southern Comfort Symphony"
あなたが飲む100 Proof SoCoを
ちょっぴり味見したかった。
あなたが美味しそうに
チョビチョビ飲んでるの見て
私もチョビっと飲んでみたかった。
止めとけって言うあなたに
ニガミ面したら、
あなたは笑いながら
グラスを私に渡した。
あなたが飲んでたように
ガラスを傾けて、唇を固めた。
氷がカランって音を鳴らして
金色の蜜のようなSoCoが
私の唇に近付いた時
じっと私を見つめるあなたに
私は平気な顔をして
「蜜みたい」なんて嘘ついて
思いっきり背伸びした。

"why ME?"
淋しがり屋で嫉妬深い
そんな私がなんで好き？
口うるさくて喧嘩っ早い
そんな私の何が良い?
自分でも「嫌な女」って思う時
あなたの愛を疑ってしまう
そんな時あなたは
大きな腕を広げて
一途で素直な私
純粋で寛大な私が好き
「本当にお前はいい女」
なんて本気で言うから
信じちゃうじゃん...
そうかも私！って。
純粋じゃない、単純なだけ
そんな事も分かってない
あなたは何も分かってない。

"Remembering Summer"
Walking hand in hand
in the summer rain
my fingers crossed in your's
strolling down the lane
I peak under the umbrella
take a glance at your face
you turn and give me a look
that makes my heart race

"The taste of Hawaii"
When I kiss your soft, sweet lips, I
remember the night we met in Waikiki,
and feel the ocean breeze that caressed
my body. We stood by the water and
kissed forever...like there was no
tomorrow and we were the only two
people on this earth. Our lips ripe pink
hurt the following day, but the pleasure of
remembering the sweetest evening on
the island. Who would've imagined that
we'll be kissing each other again, after 4
long years? Everytime I kiss you, you take
me back to that special place in my heart.

「唇があつい。」
African-Americanの彼は唇が厚い。
そんな彼とのキスはとろけるほど甘い。
熱い唇に全てをまとわれる。
密着する体の距離を忘れる。
そして一人の時間を恐れる。
二人の時間に溺れる。
あまりにも幸せな気持ちに
涙することもある。
脅かすつもりじゃなかった。
ごめんねが素直に言えなかった。
キスで許される。
体が許しちゃう。
I Love Youじゃ足りない、
言葉が足りない。
好きと言う気持ちが苦しい時、
キスはため息をつかしてくれる。

「なんとも上手く言えない。」
好き。とにかく大好き。
君の事、君の全て。
指先からひざ小僧まで、
頭のてっぺんからくるぶしまで。
茶色い肌が暖かい。
裸になると私が透き通る。
ガラスのようにやさしく扱ってくれる。
君の目が、手が、体が。
一つ一つが愛しく、大切。
愛されてる事を実感する。
嬉しくて、悲しくて涙する。
永遠て言葉を信じたくなる。
消えないで欲しい炎。
細く揺れるともしび。
手で囲って、守って、育てる。
愛してるって言葉に抱かれる。
あなたの重みを感じる。
二人の人間がここにいる。
私の存在がここにある。

"When Its ON like that..."
Last night, our small apartment turned in
to a battlefield, where two intense forces
collided throughout the four corners and
the walls. The aggressor was a dark
shadow of fierce strength. The oppressor
however, displayed great agility and
flexibility as it engaged head on to its
enemies. Sweat and screams filled the air
last night. As the battle continued for 40
minutes. Both sides in complete
exhaustion of ammunition and energy
that fueled the battle, ended with a
climatic victory by the aggressor.