only to give everything and be left with nothing
so sad, so weary
all i saw in my life was the love around me be destroyed or fraud
people say they love, but abuse and manipulate me
what am i supposed to do?
i only could protect myself and now i'm here lost
still letting all affect me
it's all his fault i never did anything
why are you saying this? i'm sorry
i know my words are fleeting but i hope i mean that
because that's what i want
and i waited all day for you
oh how i hated anyone who wasn't you
and i ruined everything and i blew it
it's not what i want or what i believe i want
who am i to know myself anymore?
i miss you and i miss me
i miss everyone and everything
those summer days walking on the road
no worries, no care, i was just a little kid
now i'm too old already; too much everything
never a balance, no moderation
i have no feeling anymore
i just walk and talk and hope for hope
i desire to desire and i search for love
i dream of all i cannot be
i don't live, i am hate
i both love and hate everything as i both love and hate myself
never satisfied; i had it all but i let it slip away
i gave it all away it's too late-- always too late
never appreciate when the time is now
you can't; you say you can, you wish you do
but in your heart uncertainty forever lies
what heart? what mind? this forsaken thing
you must be thinking of someone long ago
i died last year
the person you know isn't me because i am already dead
but i once knew what was true
i once knew what was right
i once lived, I once loved
thank you for missing me
too sweet for me, too kind for this barren heart
i wish i loved you
