Are we experiencing the world through, again, these mysterious impulses and living by our connection to what we believe to be real? Are we not living inside our heads? How is one footstep of mine or one thought of a trillion ideas relative to existence itself?
So emaciated have I become after such effort toward the indifferent road of sectioning myself from the rest of social standards. How common, as people, have we tried to make ourselves feel so special, so important in the turning of the world and lapse of time. I tell you not one grain of these thoughts is held so high in respects to the history of time, space, and the universe. Everything is everything as all things flow into the same infinity of a destiny. How can we have control over out fate when whatever choice we make, that was already decided so long ago?
Even if refuted, how can it be determined that what choices made now have any reflection on the future? Do not the results of actions now determine the future? If that is so, then how can not that future already be decided, either by the enforcer of such actions that would lead to results, or by some other force governing all?
Who am I to question my own motives when not even I know their reasoning? If I act on impulse, then what is deciding the purpose behind that impulse? Are chemicals in my body my governing force as well as a sovereign power over all beings that roam the earth? Have such small reactions within a body dictated the outcomes of all history? Is the aftermath of such governing forces the remnants of simple interactions of thoughts or is there something higher to make such fantastic resolutions of time?
Perhaps people don't rely as strongly on their impulsive thoughts, but use prior knowledge to gained in their decisions. Surely there is more to peoples' reasoning behind their individual effort that, in attempt to gain full profit from their ability to react, they recall some past experience whereupon they evaluate possible outcomes that ultimately affect the result of a certain situation. But why are these past experiences so familiar to people that they gravitate toward them in times of trouble and need?
Why do people cling to the past in order to make decisions now? Maybe the instinct to survive eclipses all other thought and insists upon being reflective in determination. The thoughts of long ago must be imbedded in close memory to provide some sort of comfort to those who need aid in their definition of what is best for themselves. People hope for the best in their times of need and their own faith and devotion guides them to a brighter place.
