November's Journals

November 15, 1999
Well, like I said yesterday, I had no work today so I had to fight the urge to snack all afternoon.  I lost!  I am seeing some sort of a pattern starting to mmerge here, a good week and then a horrible week!!  I am pretty sure that I haven't lost anything this week, and it is entirely possible that I gained a bit!  Well, I don't work again tomorrow, ah.  I will try my hardest to resist, but my will power isn't very strong!!!

November 14, 1999
Hello again!  Well, I didn't have a good day today!  And i don't even feel bad about it acually!  Oh well, not like I want to feel guilty about what I do!  I ate junk food and chocolate, but not in large amounts.  So, another day down with no improvment.  That's not good, but I do have three whole days left till weigh in, maybe I can make a little bit of headway then!  Tomorrow I don't work, so I have to fight the urge to snack all afternoon!

November 13, 1999
I'm back!  So, I had a lot of fun!!  One problem, self-control, I don't think I really know how to do that, lol.  I don't even want to think about the(absolutely delicious) dinner I had yesterday!  I'll just say two words, well, maybe more than two, onion rings, chocolate!  But, it was the only time I've eatten out for like almost 3 monthes, thats good for me!  So, I have to be extra good from now till Wednesday, see if I can really lose those 4 pounds!  Ok, it's the end of the day, and I had a few prezel like things, tomato soup, a lot of dt. soda, and a few bites of peanut butter cookie today!

November 11, 1999
Shoot, just when things are going good!  I'll be going away tonight and will be gone through Saterday.  It will be fun, I know, but I will have no time to myself and I will eat what is given to me!  So, I'll just pray for self control, and I must realize that it is highly improbable that I will lose any weight this weekend.  But, I will have Sunday - Wednesday to make up for it, so I'll probably be fine.  Well, signing off, I'll come on again Saterday night or Sunday!

November 10, 1999
Well, this has to be quick, but I ate well yesterday and today, and when I went to to weigh in I am at 188.3!  This is good, I stuck to what I needed to stick to!  Anyways, like I said, gotta run, so bye bye!

November 8, 1999
Yippee, finally, I did it!  I stuck to what I wanted to do today!  I drank some water, which I normally don't do, and I stuck to what I was supposed to eat.  Down side, I'm sick!  Not so sick that I can just go to bed and sleep it off, it's a sorta headache, throatache, runny nose and just plain feeling icky but still have to go to school and work kinda thing.  Yuck  yuck.             

November 7, 1999
Ah.  I think it is safe to say I am in a major slump.  I am eatting horribly, and I wouldn't get any exercise if it wasn't for an active job.  I am not keeping any goals, it's not good.   I can't believe that most of the week is gone!  And I wanted to make such a comeback week.  Well, I will set another goal, I'm not about to give up yet!

November 5, 1999
Well, what can i say, I keep trying, (well, setting goals to try) and not following through!  And it's all might fault.  Ok, for tomorrow my goal is to drink my 8 glasses of water, and this time, this time I will follow my plan!  Be rooting for me!

November 4, 1999
Yikes, I think it is safe to say that things have not been going well!  I ate worse last week than I can ever remember, that's pretty bad!  Anyways, I gained a pound or so.  I'm back on track now, and I've also lowered my goal more realistic!  To get the ball rolling, I'd like to lose another 5 lbs this week(I know I can do that) and this time minus Halloween and the pound gain!  Seriously, if the scale had said I gained 10 lbs, I would have understood!  But, I didn't by the grace of God!  It's funny, how much fatter I felt last week, compared to the week before, with only a lb or so difference.  But, such is life!  There aren't any holiday's coming up this week(that's good in a way) so nothing should be able to keep me down!  My new goal is 175 by Christmas, and even that might be too much because I love holidays, and one of the best parts of holidays are the treats!  Today I ate good in the morning and afternoon, but later at night I didn't.  Tomorrow I will be completely on track!