Title: Jyou no Yume (Jyou's Dream)
Rating: G
Author: Lavender Ana
Email: Lavender713@aol.com

~By the way, this story is already posted at fanfiction.net, but I would like
it to get more exposure ^_^   I hope you enjoy my story. If you are not
interested in using it, that's okay. I just wanted to help out, because you
said you needed Jyou fanfics. Well, thank you for taking the time to read my
letter and my story. Please email me back if you decide you want to use the
fic. Later!

~~Lavender Ana

PS: I really like Tomoe Hotaru, too. She is one of my favorite anime
characters!

~Author's Notes: I do not own Digimon or any of its related characters. They are
copyrighted by Toei, Fox Kids and many others. This story is in Jyou's POV. He
is pondering about what he wants out of life. Beware, there is some Mimou. Hope
you enjoy it! ~Lavender Ana





	There are times where I just want to lie flat on my bed and stare thoughtlessly
at the ceiling. Those are the times when all my stresses catch up with me and
relief is needed. To be honest, I don't know how I go on living the life I live.
Everyday I wake up at sunrise to catch the train to get to school. Then, after a
long day of school, I go to juku for even more studying. (I do have my high
school entrance exams to worry about.) After cram school, I return home late in
the afternoon and eat a light supper. (If I eat too much, I'll get indigestion.)
When my short meal is over, I have to do even more schoolwork and studying, and
I work into the later hours of the evening. Now is it clear why I like to rest
every once and a while?

	This evening, I find myself lying down on my bed. Tomorrow is Saturday, so
there's no school. I will just have to spend the day studying at the library. I
take a deep sigh. The things I do for my father, I think to myself. I'm still
not even sure if I want to be a doctor, but I'm less hesitant to be one now than
I was when I was younger. However, working in the medical profession was never a
real passion of mine. It is my father's dream that I am trying to fulfill. And
who am I to shatter my father's dream? 

	Maybe I'm just saying that, because I have never had any true dreams of my own.
No, I take that back. I have had a couple of dreams. I have always dreamed of
being a stronger person with good friends and a purpose in life. That dream has
already come true. I have my experiences in the Digital World to thank for that. 

	So what is my dream now? Not to be a doctor, since that is my father's dream
for me. What is Kido Jyou's dream? All my friends have their own dreams: Taichi
wants to be a champion soccer player; Yamato wants to be a famous musician;
Sora: a great tennis player; Koushiro: a computer programmer; Hikari: a
photographer; Takeru: a basketball player; Mimi: a fashion model or designer.
Can't I have my own dream, too? Why am I the only one without my own dream? 

	I suppose, if I really think about it, I do have my own aspirations. First of
all, I want to be successful, and I do not mean financially. I want to be a
success as a human being. I want to help people, especially my friends. I want
to continue to protect the Digital World. I want to be a good role model for
Iori. I also want to be with Mimi, for whom I care for deeply. (But that is sort
of a secret.) It seems as though my dream is just to be happy with whom I am,
and yet never cease improving upon myself. Yeah, that's it. I do have my own
dreams. I will not let myself get lost in my worries. I must learn how to cope
with my stresses in order to stay strong. If I just stay focused on my goals, I
know I will be able to achieve what I want in life, and that is happiness. 

	I sigh once again, but it is not like the exasperated one I gave earlier. This
is a sigh of relief from finding out for myself that I am more than just a
studious nerd. I can have dreams, after all, just like everyone else.

	All of a sudden, I feel as though my spirits have been lifted a trifle. I am no
longer satisfied with lying on my bed. However, I am still too tired to clearly
concentrate on my studies, so I decide to go on the Internet. It is a rather
relaxing activity that requires little thought. (Unless I am doing research for
school.)

	When I go to check my email, I notice one piece of mail in particular. It is
mail from TokyoRose8- Tachikawa Mimi. My heart almost jumps out of my chest. It
is not as though I have never received mail from Mimi before today. Ever since
Mimi has moved to America, it has been common for us to correspond through
email. (It's easier and cheaper to communicate this way, rather than by phone.)
So what is so special about this letter from Mimi? I am not exactly sure, but
something in my gut tells me the message in this email is special. So I do the
logical thing and open it. 

	This letter looks like something Mimi usually sends. It is written in pink.
However, its message is not as lighthearted as Mimi's usually are. This is what
the email says:


Hi Jyou
 
	How's everything in Tokyo? I hope you are doing well. How is your studying
coming along? I'm glad that we don't have to take those high school entrance
exams here in America.

	Well, even if I don't have to take those exams, I still have a few stresses of
my own. I really don't feel like talking to my friends here about it, since I
haven't known them for very long. I don't think I could talk to any of our
friends about it either, not even Sora. But I feel as though I can talk to you,
since I always feel comfortable when I speak to you. 

	Well, here's the dilemma. You know how it has been my dream to be a fashion
model? Well, now I'm not so sure if it is anymore. You see, I went to a modeling
audition last week, and I didn't even make the final cut. They told me I was
cute, but I just was not what they were looking for. They also mentioned that
they were not really looking for too many Asian models. That's when I noticed
all the girls that made the final cut. Each one was incredibly tall, slim, and
blonde. I was crying for hours after that audition. I didn't tell my parents
what happened, since I did not want to make them upset, too. 

	That's when I started thinking about giving up my dream of being a model. There
is just so much pressure to be perfectly perfect. I don't think I could handle
the stress. But if I give up my dream, what will I have left? I'll be a no one.
Besides my good looks what do I have? Okay, I have to admit, I do have a knack
for coordinating fabulous outfits. Still, I don't think that's enough for me
anymore.

	You've always been a practical guy, Jyou. You probably think I should give up
this lofty dream and start focusing on other things. Well, what do you think I
should do, Jyou? Please, I'd really appreciate it if you could give me some
advice. I don't mind admitting this, but out of all the friends I left in Japan,
I think I miss you the most. You are such a sweet, nice guy with such a good
heart. I also admire the way you have your whole life planned out in such a
practical way. Sometimes, I wish I could see you more often. Please write back
as soon as you are able to. I know how busy you must be. Thanks. 

				Love: Mimi 


	I cannot help but smile at the "Love: Mimi". And yet, I cannot help but feel
badly for my dear friend. I can relate to her; how she feels about doubting her
dreams. She thinks I am so together? Ha. If only she had seen me a little while
ago. 

	I am smiling again. She says she misses me more than anyone else. I know she
means it, since Mimi has never been insincere. I must say, I feel rather
flattered. I decide to send Mimi a reply:

Dear Mimi:

	I am doing well. So are all of our friends. We are all pretty busy though, so
we do not see each other as often as we would like to. Studying is kind of a
drag, but I get through it. 

	Okay, I should be getting to the point right about now. No, Mimi, I do not
think you should give up your "lofty" dream. You should not let a few obstacles
set you back. If you feel passionate enough about a dream, you should pursue it.
This may not be the most practical answer, but it is important for you to be
happy. Just because this modeling agency did not take you, it does not mean
others will not. Do not give up so easily. Never forget, you are a very
beautiful girl. Not only that, never lose your sweet and cheerful spirit. That
is one of the qualities I like best about your personality.

	I am sorry I could not give you more helpful advice, Mimi. I just do not want
to see you give up so readily. I hope I could at least be a little helpful in
raising your spirits. You say that I am such a "together" guy. Truth is, a
little while ago, I was feeling a little unsure about myself, too. I was not
sure where my life was going. Then I realized that I have t stay strong in order
to fulfill what I want in life. You have to try to do the same, Mimi. I only
wish that I could be with you in person, so I could reassure you better. I miss
you a lot, too, Mimi. I wish we could see each other more often. Maybe we could
meet up in the Digital World sometime. That would be nice, right? Anyway, if you
need me for anything else, just let me know. I am here for you. Talk to you
soon.

								From: Jyou