We ended the relationship. It was sad and I wanted to go back out with him again, but this was best for both of us. He started going out with someone a couple of weeks later which hurt a lot. I knew after that that I wasn't going to be able to kiss him anymore or wake up next to him or hear him say I love you. It was such a big change considering that I spent most of my free time with him. The fact that he wasn't going to be my boyfriend anymore hurt so much that I just didn't want to be around him for a while. Although I wanted to stay in touch, it was just too hard. It took me a while to get over the whole relationship. It took a long time but I got through it. There were some good things that came out of the break up, one of them was staying friends with some of his friends. Brendan is such an awesome guy. He still invited me to go over his house eventhough Owen and I broke up. Owen and I are good friends now, he's an awesome friend and so is his boyfriend.
During the whole getting over the relationship, I did a lot of things that I've always wanted to do but never got a chance to. It might make me look bad but I don't really care. There was period in my life where all I did was meet new guys and go clubbing. I thought it was fun for a while and it was a big ego-boost I guess. I later realized that it was just a stupid thing to do. Only one person can make you feel better about yourself and that's you.
I met a lot of people after that whole thing. I realized who my real friends were, who was there for me after the break up, even though I wasn't really around for anyone. Mark and Greg were the two people that was there for me the whole time, listening to me bitch about guys and life itself. I also started to spend more time at home with the family. I wanted to fully get over the break up and Owen before I went into another relationship. I went into one of the most disfunctional relationships after that ........... :p