Dear Josephine Bethany,
Baby your birth date has arrived and I should now be celebrating your arrival into the world with family and friends who would be gathered around telling me how beautiful you are. Instead I am mourning and grieving the life that I agreed to be taken, your life to be taken from my womb before you were fully formed. You were taken away from me and never entered earth but sent straight up to the heavens to be with God. Josephine I know you are safe in Jesus arms now and experience no pain or suffering. But I want to let you know how sorry mummy is for the hurt and pain she caused you during your short life within her and for allowing you to be taken away, I wish I could change things but I can't sweetie. So on this special day that should have been I want to wish you a Happy Birthday for up in Heaven. I know God will be throwing you a huge party and as your 'adoptive Father' provides you with so much love and comfort. One day mummy will come and join you and I will hold you in my arms and cry the tears of happiness that I should be expressing today instead of tears of sadness. Josephine mummy should have been promising to watch over you for years to come but instead I ask that you watch over me until I am able to see your beautiful face in Heaven. Darling I love you more than words can say and you mean so much to me. Not a day will go by without a thought for you. Never will you leave my heart or life. Never again will I let you be taken away from me. You may not be here on earth but you are very much my daughter and always will be baby so know that I love you very much and cannot wait to be the perfect mother in heaven to you that I should have been here on earth. Take care sweetie, Forever and Always Love Mummy |
