Title: Not So Bad
Author: Joolz
Feedback: If you like J [email protected]
Category: Slash, First Time, Angst, Hurt/Comfort,
Action/Adventure
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Clark/Lex
Season 2, Spoilers
for: Pilot, Cool, Stray, Lineage, Ryan,
Prodigal, Fever
Summary: It’s a difficult time to be Lex Luthor, but
it’s not all bad.
Notes: Goes AU after
Fever. My first Smallville fic! Many thanks to Lady Ra and Peach for the
valuable beta work!
Warnings: m/m sex, though not a lot; discussion of
child abuse, drugs and violence; implied incest
Disclaimer: Not my lovely characters, just playing with
them.
~~*~~
Not So Bad
When Lex became aware of
Clark standing in the doorway, he folded the cloth back over the top of the
bundle on his desk.
“Clark,” he acknowledged
without looking up.
The boy moved through the
room toward him, as usual seeming to take up more space than he actually
did. It always felt to Lex as though
Clark brought sunlight into a room with him, knocking the foundation out from
under whatever shadowy mental edifice he was calling home at the moment. He wished that his friend hadn’t chosen to
stop by on this particular evening, because he had settled into the darkness
quite comfortably.
The resplendent Clark
Kent, in his ubiquitous red and blue Kansas casual plumage, pulled a metal and
leather chair over and sat down next to Lex at the desk.
“Hey, Lex. What’re you doing?”
“Just quietly
contemplating the meaning of life at the end of a full and successful day.”
“You don’t look so
good. Did something happen?”
Lex snorted softly. “Oh, no.
The rebel offspring has achieved another victory over the venerable
patriarch on the battlefield of modern commerce.”
“You beat your dad at
something.”
“Hail to the vanquishing
hero.”
Clark’s handsome face
scrunched in confusion. “Then why don’t
you look happy? You’re usually in the
mood to celebrate when things go your way.”
Lex leaned back in his
chair, keeping his eyes on the glass desktop in front of him.
“Allow me to explain. The shipping firm that has been transporting
fertilizer from my plant to market is a subsidiary of LuthorCorp. Since it would be a very bad idea to allow my
father to control the distribution of my primary product, or potential lack
thereof, I’ve been in negotiations to acquire a freight company of my own. My father, never willing to release any of
the strings binding me to him without a fight, not only tried to block the
acquisition, but took the opportunity to once again attempt a hostile takeover
of LexCorp while my assets were stretched.
I’ve spent the last three days in a good, old-fashioned swashbuckling
swordfight to the death. And guess
what? I won.”
Clark waited for him to
continue, watching him with those big, green, intense eyes. Those enormous, gorgeous, serious, green
eyes.
“Why, then, am I not flying my colors in
triumph, you might ask? I got what I
wanted.” He finally turned to look
directly at Clark. “Yes, I got what I
wanted. And people got hurt. Innocent people who happened to be caught
between my father and myself got hurt.
Collateral damage in the battle of the titans.”
“What happened?”
He went on tiredly, “I
started looking at two different companies, one in Edge City and one in
Grandville, even though I only ever intended to purchase one of them. My father didn’t know which I was serious
about, so he went after both. Dad and I
marshaled supporters in both companies’ board rooms and unions. We set them against each other, and under the
cover of their internal struggles I completed my deal with one and cut the
other loose. As you may be aware,
Teamsters aren’t known for their subtlety and tact. Four men are in the hospital tonight. Several more, I’m not even sure how many,
have lost their livelihoods. But I got
what I wanted, so all’s well that ends well, right?” Bitterness choked his throat as he spoke.
“But Lex, you didn’t mean
for anyone to get hurt, did you?”
“No, it wasn’t my
intention, but I let it happen. I took
advantage of violence that my machinations had fostered in order to further my
own ends. As my father taught me, I kept
my eye on the goal and didn’t get distracted by peripheral turbulence. In his own way, Dad is probably very proud of
me tonight. I get more like him every
day.”
Clark insisted, “You’re
not like him.”
“Oh? How can you assert that when the results of
my actions speak for themselves?
Furthermore, it wouldn’t be accurate to say that I enjoy engaging in
this kind of battle with my father. It
would be more correct to say that I relish it. I get high on adrenalin like any good warrior
and feel the ecstasy of the kill, even though I know the victory is only
temporary. Tomorrow we’ll be back at
each other’s throats, round and round, never shall it end.”
“Well, one way you aren’t
like your father is that I doubt he’s sitting in the dark feeling guilty about
the way it happened. You care about
people, Lex, even if you can’t always protect them. It sounds like some of the people who got
hurt maybe weren’t so innocent. They got
involved for their own reasons. And why
do I suspect that you’re covering hospital bills and making sure families are
taken care of?”
“That’s beside the point.”
“I don’t think so. But Lex, if you don’t want to end up like
your father, then don’t do it. Don’t
play his game. Find another way.”
Anger welled up through
Lex’s body, pushing aside the exhaustion that had settled on him earlier. He snapped at Clark, “That’s simplistic. I can’t get away. Not now, not ever. I talk like I’m an equal in this battle, but
I’m not. I’m a prisoner, trapped with
the sword in my hand for all eternity. I
set myself on this road and now I have to live with it.”
Clark was confused
again. “I don’t understand.”
“Clark, do you know what
will happen the day I surrender or try to leave the field of battle? My father’s first action will be to close the
plant, just on principle. Just because
he can. Just because he knows I
care. Clark, I have 2,500 people relying
on me for jobs in this one plant alone, not to mention the economy of the
entire county. The more seriously I take
that obligation, like trying to make sure LuthorCorp can’t blackmail us with
trucking strikes, the more people become my responsibility. The harder I have to work to protect
them. The more lines my father will push
me over in order to do it. The more I’ll
become what he wants; like him.
“Maybe I should
just cut my losses and walk away now.
I’m barely twenty-two years old.
I could find another life for myself.
At least the damage would be limited to Smallville. The longer I wait, the greater the potential
destruction if I slip up.” Lex sighed
and faced the truth. “But I can’t walk
away, Clark. This is who I am. The only real protection is to become more
powerful than my father. Do you see the
conflict? Do you see why there’s no way
out? Why it’s so…”
Clark grimaced and offered
a word. “Hopeless?”
Lex’s anger deflated and
he slumped in his chair. “Yes. Hopeless.”
The boy shifted closer. “Is that why you’re thinking
about…that?” He motioned to the small
package on the desk. “Because you think
it’s hopeless?”
Lex reached out and
casually drew the cloth back to reveal a syringe, a spoon, a lighter, and a
small packet of white powder.
He answered sadly, “Horse
makes you feel good, Clark, really good.
Like there are no problems that need to be taken seriously. Like you can do or be anything you want. I just want to not feel like myself
tonight. I don’t want to be me, just for
a little while.”
Clark thought for a minute
before replying. Lex was curious to know
how the farm boy would react to having hard drugs right under his nose. It was certainly something his young friend
had no exposure to except for being taught it was wrong, wrong, wrong. Then again, sometimes Clark could surprise
him. He was one of the few people who
could.
Eventually, Clark spoke,
not addressing the drugs at all, “Lex, you know I don’t understand a lot of
what happens between you and your father, or business in general, but I can’t
see that there’s really anything wrong with being you. I know that these business things hurt you
and sometimes I want to throw your dad through those stained-glass windows, but
you’re so much more than that. You’re
better than that. You just won’t let
yourself see it.”
“You’re right, I don’t see
it. Enlighten me.”
“That you care enough
about the people of this town to fight for them is a good thing, especially
when you get nothing back but abuse from people who can’t see beyond your
name. And you do a lot of things that
have nothing to do with corporate responsibilities. Your father may hurt people just because he
can, but you help people just because you can.
It may sound corny, but you really are my hero, Lex.”
“You must be confused,
Clark. There’s only one hero in this
room and it isn’t me. Ask anyone.”
“I can’t because hardly
anyone is really paying attention. Like
for example, you stopped the doctors from taking Ryan back to Summerholt when I
couldn’t do anything about it. People
made a big deal about how I was able to catch Dr. Burton at the airport when
his plane was delayed, and bring him back to treat Ryan, but Lex, you were the
one who found the doctor in the first place so that I could go after him. You didn’t have to do that. And then when I wanted to take Ryan up in a
hot air balloon.… I wouldn’t have known
how to begin to arrange something like that, but you just asked when and where,
and made it happen. You have no idea how
much that meant to me, to both of us.
You didn’t ask for any thanks, or for anything in return. You do the same for pretty much anyone who
comes to you. If that isn’t being a
hero, I don’t know what is.”
Clark’s earnest face was
entrancing. It made Lex want to
believe. “Your friendship is more than
enough reward for anything I can do to help out. Lifting a phone to my ear doesn’t really
compare to tackling a woman with an axe who’s about to split my head open.”
A blinding smile flashed
on the younger man’s face. “I guess
we’re just good at different things. I
don’t know what the answer is about your business, but I do believe that you
can find a way to do what you need to without becoming your father. That’s why we’re friends. Can you honestly imagine me being friends
with Lionel Luthor?”
The thought boggled Lex’s
mind. In fact, the mere idea of Clark
and his father being in the same room together gave him the heeby-geebies. He had to smile back. “No, I can’t see that.”
“Well, there you go! My friend Lex must be a pretty okay guy. It must not be so bad to be him.”
Lex’s smile faded. “You’re willfully ignoring the rest of
it. The times I do whatever I want
regardless of the effects on other people, just because of intellectual
curiosity or my own desire for power.
But all right. You win for now.”
He re-wrapped the
paraphernalia and stood to take the bundle to a wall safe. Placing it inside, he closed the door and
twisted the combination lock.
Leaning against the
bookshelf, he asked, “So what brings you here, other than to practice amateur
psychology?”
The pleased expression on
Clark’s face transformed into a full-fledged smile.
“It’s a full moon tonight,
and clear, so it’s almost like daylight out.
It’s gorgeous and I wanted to see if you felt like going for a run with
me?”
Lex was tired and achy and
his first thought was, ‘Not on your life.’
But the fatigue was mostly stress induced, and exercise would really be
the best remedy. He surveyed Clark’s
blue sweat pants and red T-shirt.
“All right. Sounds like a good idea. I’ll go change. Why don’t you let Mrs. Gibson know and the
staff can have snacks ready for us when we get back.”
It took so little to make
Clark’s face light up. The promise of
food usually did it. If only everyone
were so easy to please.
Clark bounced happily out
of the room as Lex trudged up the stairs.
Minutes later the pair were stepping out a set of glass doors into the
back garden.
The instigator of the
jaunt pointed up the hill at the back edge of the property. “How about that way?”
After stretching a bit
they headed into Lex’s estate, following a gravel path that led to the
woods. They took a lap around the pond
as a warm-up. Under the brilliant moonlight
the permanently frozen surface looked enchanting rather than its usual
unnatural creepiness.
Following a rough track
through the forest, they jogged side by side up the gentle incline. It was indeed almost as bright as daylight,
but the moon’s glow cast deep shadows, making Lex feel like he was passing
through a surreal, magical landscape.
With the aid of endorphins, beauty and the presence of his friend by his
side, he began to relax, letting his worries drift away like gossamer on the
wind.
As he moved, arms and legs
pumping steadily, crisp air filling his lungs, Lex marveled that Clark had
suggested the perfect thing to lift him out of his darkness. He suspected that his friend was holding back
his pace out of consideration for the poor businessman, but that was okay. This wasn’t a competition, and Lex felt great
using his body the way a man of his age should.
He was strong, and it was good to stretch his muscles after days of
sitting behind a desk.
The only way it could have
been any better was if Clark showed some sign of effort. A bead of sweat or a gulped breath. But no, the teenager seemed to float beside
him, his good natured face shining in the moonlight.
They ran in silence,
letting the night sounds of the forest surround them. At the edge of Lex’s estate they continued on
into the bordering state park. The
gradient increased as they headed up one of the few hills in the county, toward
the river gorge. When they reached a
plateau Lex had to pause for a minute to catch his breath while Clark jogged in
place annoyingly.
Nodding further into the
forest, the boy asked, “You want to go to the river?”
Lex grinned and took off
without bothering to answer. Crossing an
access road, they followed the trail up the last slope to the rim of the
gorge. From there they dropped down a
series of switchbacks, Lex in the lead.
The trail ended at the river’s edge, where boulders jutted out to break
the flow of water, creating a series of small cascades.
Lex climbed onto a large,
flat stone and sat, leaning back on his elbows.
Clark arranged himself with unconscious grace at his side. It seemed that the only time the kid became
awkward and clumsy was when he had to control his body rather than inhabit it,
like when he was trying to blend in with his unremarkable peers. Tonight he was like a agile feline.
Turning to him, Lex
groused, “You aren’t the slightest bit winded.”
Clark just smirked and
stretched back, pillowing his head on his arms.
“That’s what clean, country living will do for you.”
“Prick.” His voice held enough affection to soften the
word.
Laying back on the rock,
Lex looked up at the sky, a swath of moon and starlight bracketed by the dark
canyon walls. It never would have
occurred to him to come here at night, and now he knew what he’d been
missing. It was like they were far, far
from Smallville. Almost like another
planet entirely. A planet occupied by
only the two of them.
In this setting Lex felt
his mental barriers drop one after another.
He peeked at Clark out of the corners of his eyes and let himself
appreciate the view without self-remonstration.
Clark was beyond gorgeous. An
artist couldn’t have designed a more beautiful face. The pose and the mist-dampened T-shirt showed
off the musculature of the young man’s arms and chest. That same T-shirt had ridden up to expose a
flat belly, the navel a tempting shadow.
Lex had noticed Clark’s
attractiveness from the moment he awoke on that other fateful river bank with
the angelic form hovering over him.
Normally he quashed inappropriately admiring thoughts, but he indulged
himself this one time. The moonlight
seemed to allow him to see the duality of Clark’s nature more clearly. He looked ethereal, like a spiritual being
too good for mundane human existence, and physical, grounded with raw
sensuality, both at the same time. An
intriguing mystery to be solved and a valued friend. Moral to a fault and a habitual, if poor,
liar. The most important person in Lex’s
life.
Of course, the inner Clark
was as remarkable as the outer Clark. At
that moment, for example, Lex could practically see the teenager’s mind working
itself up to say something. Probably
something solemn and weighty. He closed
his eyes and waited.
Sure enough, after several
minutes Clark broke the silence tentatively.
“Lex?”
“Hmm.”
“Would you do something
for me?”
Not what he was
anticipating. Lex really didn’t want to
ruin the moment by having to grant yet more favors, and his heart sank. He answered as expected, however.
“Of course, Clark. What do you need?”
He felt the boy shift onto
his side to look directly at him.
“If sometime you do decide
to do it, take drugs I mean, would you call me first?”
He turned towards Clark
with eyes narrowed. “What?” The question sounded sharp in the soft air.
“Hey, I know you don’t
need my permission to do anything you want, but I’m asking anyway. Because if I knew, I could come over and make
sure you were all right. Otherwise I would
be afraid that something could happen to you and I wouldn’t know about it. If I’m sure you’ll call and tell me, I won’t
worry. Would you do that for me?”
Lex stared at his friend
in astonishment. He was having a hard
time wrapping his mind around this. No
one had ever said anything like that to him before. Since he’d lost his mother, no one had ever
shown concern for his safety unless they were paid to do so. His father only wanted him to not get caught.
His first instinct was to
scoff and wonder what the real agenda was, but Clark’s face was so open. He could read the sincerity of his
intentions, along with some apprehension that Lex would be angry with him for
asking. Clark didn’t want a favor for
himself, but for Lex, because he…cared.
In the end it really
wasn’t that hard to know how to answer.
“Okay.”
Clark’s eyes widened. “Really?
You promise?”
“Sure. I promise.
Thank you for suggesting it, it means a lot.”
Giving Lex one of his
broadest smiles, Clark beamed, “Wow!
Thanks. That’s cool.”
“No problem.”
Turning his face back to
the sky and closing his eyes once more, Lex tried to bring his emotions under
control. If this small-town farm boy
didn’t have his entire heart in the palm of his hand before, he did now. It was getting harder to deny that the
overwhelming pressure in his chest that was threatening to come out through his
tear ducts was anything less than love.
At that moment he didn’t
think it was really all that bad to be Lex Luthor. In fact, he thought he might actually be one
lucky son-of-a-bitch.
**~~**
Two days later Jonathan
Kent entered the farmhouse kitchen, slamming the screen door behind him. He paused a few steps into the room, turned,
and proceeded to slam the door three more times for good measure. He didn’t think he’d ever been so angry in
his life. And disgusted, worried and
sick. Heartsick. Everything he’d said
had been proven right, but what a way for it to happen!
Sometime during the night
manila envelopes full of photographs had been left at selected homes and
businesses around Smallville, and news travels fast. Jonathan suspected that he was one of the
last to see them, and Gordy Johnson at the feed store had taken snide pleasure
in being the one to clue him in, full of false sympathy and advice. Everyone knew that the subject of the photos
had recently spent several days as part of the Kent household.
Jonathan leaned against
the wooden pillar between the kitchen and living room, briskly rubbing his
hands over his face. He was afraid he
was never going to get those images out of his mind: Lex Luthor engaged in sex acts of various
kinds. Lex Luthor doing drugs. A bruised and battered Lex Luthor menacing a
man with a knife. Lex Luthor holding a
little girl down and….
He felt nauseous. There were also photos of Lex Luthor with
Clark and Ryan. If he didn’t find
something to hit or destroy very soon he thought he might explode. Clark would probably make excuses for Luthor,
would want to forgive him, but not Jonathan, despite the fact that he had been
coming to accept the young man. If he
never saw that perverted criminal again it would be too soon.
Mid inner-tirade, the
phone rang. Wondering if it was another
neighbor calling to gloat, he grabbed the handset.
“What!”
“Dad?”
“Clark, son, where are
you? Come home right now, we need to
talk.”
“Um, Dad, is Mom
there?” His voice sounded shaky.
“She’s at the Food Pantry
today. God, what she must be going
through.” He tried to calm down enough
to not scare Clark any more than he must already be. “Just come on home and we can talk about
everything.”
“I can’t. I need some help and I hoped Mom would be
there.”
“You know I’m always here
for you too, Clark. Do you need me to
come and get you?”
“You won’t want to. Not here.
It isn’t me. I just don’t know
what to do…”
Clark’s voice trailed off
desperately. Jonathan knew that his son
could get worked up and lose his common sense.
The main thing was to keep Clark talking.
“Tell me what’s
wrong. Where are you?”
The boy on the other end
of the phone sighed. “I’m at Lex’s”
Jonathan’s blood pressure
shot through the roof. “WHAT?”
Clark started right
in. “See! I knew you wouldn’t help. I’ll call Mom at the Food Pantry.”
Really, really not wanting
Clark to hang up, Jonathan forced his voice to steady.
“You know Lex Luthor’s
house is the last place I want you to be right now, but I will help you. What’s happened? Are you all right, son?”
“I’m fine, Dad. It’s Lex.
He’s…. He’s…. There’s something wrong with him and I don’t
know what to do. Don’t bother telling me
to leave because I won’t. He needs me
and I’m staying with him.”
Typical Clark. Loyal to his friends no matter what. Loyal to his slimy, despicable Luthor
friends, even.
“What’s wrong with him?”
Clark paused for a moment
as if deciding whether to answer or not, but then gave in with a rush of
words.
“He’s just staring into
space. I can’t get him to talk or even
acknowledge that I’m here. It’s really
scaring me and I don’t know whether to take him to the hospital or not. I don’t want to, especially not now. I don’t know how people would react to him.”
Probably with due
repugnance, Jonathan thought.
“Is he injured in any
way?”
“No, I checked. No broken bones or bleeding, but why is he
like this? None of the nice staff are
around, only the creepy security guys.
What should I do?”
Jonathan took a deep
breath. “Look, I’ll be right there. Don’t do anything.”
The relief in Clark’s
voice was palpable. “Thanks, Dad. Hurry.
Come around the back of the house by the rose bed.”
On the short drive to the
mansion, Jonathan gave himself a lecture.
He was doing this for Clark, not Luthor. Anything that scared Clark must be dealt
with, no matter how distasteful. What
mattered was to get through whatever the current crisis was and then get Clark
away from that man as quickly as possible.
Snapping and shouting would not help; he vowed to concentrate on being
reasonable and fatherly.
The guard at the gate
recognized him and let him through with no more than a glower. He felt sympathy for the man, reflecting that
no money in the world could convince him to work for someone like Lex
Luthor. It took several minutes to walk
around the outside of the house until he spotted Clark on his knees next to
some bushes.
Hurrying over he called,
“Clark!”
His son stood and looked
at him with relief. “Thank god you’re
here, Dad.”
Jonathan went up to Clark
and clapped him on the shoulder. Then he
looked down and saw what was upsetting the boy.
Luthor was sitting with his back to a stone retaining wall, knees pulled
up to his chest. His cheek was resting
against the outside of one knee, his eyes staring vaguely in the direction of
the ground, unseeing.
Kent didn’t want to feel
sorry for a Luthor, but he looked so broken.
It was probably deserved, but a hard thing to see anyhow.
They both knelt on the
grass and Jonathan peered at Lex critically.
“Come on, Luthor. Snap out of
it. You’re scaring Clark!”
“Dad!” Clark
exclaimed. “Stop it. He needs help.”
Reasonable and
fatherly. Right.
“How long has he been like
this?”
“I don’t know. As soon as I…heard…I left school and came
over here. That was about an hour
ago. I had to look, you know, to
find him out here.”
Lex wasn’t reacting to anything
they said. It was as though he wasn’t
even there.
“And he hasn’t said
anything?”
“No, I told you. What should we do?”
Observing the unresponsive
figure, Jonathon reviewed the possibilities.
Clark had more or less ruled out injury.
Most likely it was something psychological. Or maybe chemical.
“Clark, do you know if Lex
has been taking drugs?”
Without evasion the boy
answered, “I don’t think so. I know he
has some in the mansion, but he promised me he wouldn’t take them.”
That was just great. He was exposing Clark to drugs. Jonathan was opening his mouth to point out
the value of a Luthor’s word when the bald head lifted.
Both Kents leaned forward
to catch the mumbled words.
“And I didn’t.”
Clark placed his hands on
Lex’s shoulders.
“Lex!”
Finally focusing his eyes
on Clark, Lex continued, “I promised I wouldn’t take them so I didn’t. Wouldn’t break a promise to you, Clark.”
Clark rubbed up and down
his arms.
“Lex, are you all right?”
The young man chuckled,
sounding a little hysterical. “All
right? Why, no, Clark. I’m not all right. How could I be? My life is over.”
Well, that was
dramatic. Apparently they were in for
some Luthor whining. Of course his son
leapt to disagree.
“No it isn’t. I guess you heard about…the pictures. It’s bad, but it’s going to be okay.”
Lex shook his head in
exaggerated sadness. “Clark, Clark,
Clark. No it isn’t. I’m going to lose my company, everything I
own, my home, you. I’ll probably end up
going to jail.”
Jonathan couldn’t help but
suggest, “Maybe you should.”
Lex looked at him, eyes
filling with tears that didn’t quite fall, and damn but he looked young all of
a sudden; no longer a boy yet barely old enough to be called a man.
“No doubt you’re right, Mr.
Kent. It’s abundantly clear that I am a
horrible and worthless person, not fit for human society. It would be better for everyone if I didn’t
exist.”
With a surprisingly stern
expression, Clark scolded, “Don’t say that, Lex. I know what was in those pictures wasn’t
true. You aren’t like that.”
Lex answered, sounding
defeated. “It is true.”
“Lex, look at me and tell
me you did those things. Look at me.”
Luthor obeyed the
command. The two boys’ eyes met and
really connected.
“It is true, Clark. Most of it.
I had some wild times. Did some
things. Did it all. But I would never hurt you or Ryan. And I didn’t.
Would never.” He seemed to be
having trouble breathing. “I would never
hurt a child. I would never…rape…a
child!” He spit the word out like it
tasted foul. “That picture is a fake.”
Against his will Jonathan
found his conviction shaken. Lex really
did sound sincere. What he heard next
shocked him some more.
With wry bitterness, Lex
continued, “I have to hand it to my father.
He mixed the lie in with enough truth and innuendo that no one will even
question it. It won’t matter that there
isn’t any real proof. At the very least
I’ll be convicted in the court of public opinion. After all, everyone knows that I’m the scum
of the Earth. Just a dirty Luthor. This will confirm that they were right all
along.”
Jonathan cringed
inwardly. It was too true. No amount of denial would make any
difference.
He frowned. “Lex.
Are you saying that your father distributed those pictures? That he made them up?”
“He didn’t have to make
them all up. Some of them were
real. And nobody had access to them but
him. He has an extensive collection of
documentation on every mistake I’ve ever made, every time I’ve screwed up,
every bit of ugliness in my life.” He
pulled his knees tighter to his chest.
“I must admit, I never expected him to do something like this. Unbelievable.
After all this time I can still underestimate his hatred of me.”
Clark asked, “Why,
Lex? Why would he do this?”
“He wants to destroy
me. He sees me as competition that he can
not lose to. It sets a bad example
when his own son can outmaneuver him on something as simple as a freight
issue. Or maybe he sees me as an
extension of himself that isn’t up to standard and so must be excised. Cut off your hand if it offends you, and I
think he’s finally found a blade sharp enough to do it. I’ve tried so hard to be good enough, to be
someone he can respect if not be proud of, but I lost.” He reached out and touched Clark’s face with
his fingertips. “I thought for a while
that you might be able to save me. I
guess some things are beyond even you.”
Clark wouldn’t accept
it. “Don’t say that! You haven’t lost, not yet. You still have the person you really are
inside, and you still have me. You’re
strong, Lex. You can overcome this like
you’ve overcome everything else. Don’t
give up! Don’t let that bastard
win. You have to fight this!”
The young man rested his
forehead on his knees. “I’m just so
tired.”
Jonathan noticed how pale
Lex was, and that he was shaking. He
broke in, “Let’s take this discussion inside, shall we? Can you stand?”
Lex lifted his head and
looked at Jonathan in bewilderment, like he’d forgotten what standing was. Jonathan leaned in and pried his hands away
from his shins and straightened the bent legs.
Then he stood and leaned down to hook his elbows under Lex’s armpits,
lifting the other man to his feet with one great heave.
Clark objected, “Dad! Let me do that.”
“It’s all right. I’ve got him.
We’re okay, aren’t we?” he asked the man he was supporting.
Lex swayed on his feet,
one hand locked into the back of Jonathan’s shirt, but nodded.
“Fine. I’m fine.”
With Clark fussing, the
three of them shuffled slowly back to the house and up a set of steps to glass
doors. Once inside Lex pushed away to
walk on his own and led them into the library/office.
Lex walked to the front of
his desk and stood looking down, soon joined by Clark. When Jonathan approached he could see the
infamous photographs scattered over the desktop, along with a computer printed
list entitled, ‘Distribution Points’.
This must have been how Lex had found out about the whole thing.
The photos still shocked
the older man. He could see one that
showed a naked Lex sitting on the lap of a large black man, his back to the
other’s chest, legs open. The man had
one hand around Lex’s cock and the other splayed in the center of his
chest. It was obvious that it wasn’t
actually the man’s lap that Lex was sitting on.
The pale head was thrown back against his partner’s dark shoulder, face
lit up with pleasure.
Although this kind of sex
was nothing Jonathan was the least bit interested in, that picture didn’t
bother him too much. It looked
consensual, like both parties were enjoying it.
It made a great contrast with the picture lying next to it, in which two
men were using Luthor at the same time, one at each end. That one looked rough and unpleasant. He couldn’t understand why anyone would want
to do something like that with people he probably barely knew.
Lex was saying, “Most of
these I wouldn’t have wanted shown in public, but they are things that I did
for one reason or another. While I’d
rather the past stay in the past, I will take responsibility for my actions. Everybody already assumes that I’m warped, so
not that much damage is done.”
Lex was shuffling though
the photos, trying to keep his emotions off his face. He lay two on top so that the three could see
them. They were the ones that had Ryan
and Clark in them. He pointed to the
photo of himself and the younger boy.
They were leaning on the stone banister of the patio that overlooks the
back garden. Lex was gazing mildly out
at the distance, but Ryan was looking away, uneasiness and discomfort clear on
his face. In the context of the other
photos, the implication was that Lex had abused the boy.
Luthor said, “Ryan really
hated me, didn’t he? I tried to be nice to him, but he wasn’t fooled. I can hardly blame him. If he could read my mind then he would have
known the truth about me.”
Jonathan looked at him
sharply. Lex had known that Ryan had
psychic ability and hadn’t said anything to anyone? Hadn’t spirited him off to a private
laboratory?
Clark responded, “No, Ryan
didn’t hate you, Lex. He was worried
about you, though. He made me promise to
look out for you, which he wouldn’t have done if he thought you were bad.”
Lex looked at Clark with
surprise. “He said that?” He seemed hopeful for a moment and then shook
his head. “No, he was probably being
generous because you’re my friend and he worshiped you.”
Clark was obviously trying
to think of something to say to that, but the young man continued speaking,
somewhat distractedly.
“You know, this is one of
the ironies of the situation. I have an
absolute ‘thing’ about child abuse.
When I hear about what some adult has done to a child I tend to become
unreasonably angry. That’s one of the
reasons I couldn’t let those doctors continue to mistreat Ryan. I traded favors that I should have held onto
for that injunction. My father knows
that and sees it as another emotional weakness.
He used it to make this hurt as much as possible.”
Clark placed a hand on
Lex’s shoulder.
“I’m sorry, Lex. You really don’t deserve this.”
Gesturing to the photo of
himself and Clark, he replied, “Neither do you.”
The photograph was taken
at The Talon. It was simply Lex standing
next to a seated Clark, the two speaking to each other. The angle, however, made it appear that
Clark’s open mouth was about an inch from Lex’s groin, as though he were moving
to press his lips there.
“I’m sorry, Clark, that
you were involved in this. Obviously,
the picture is merely suggestive, but that’s all that’s necessary under the
circumstances. I’m sorry that this will
affect you and your family.”
Clark responded earnestly,
“Don’t apologize. This wasn’t your
fault. You’re an innocent victim.”
From the doorway a voice
interrupted.
“Innocent? I hardly think that word applies to my son.”
Jonathan’s blood ran cold
as he turned to look at the unwelcome arrival.
Lionel Luther stood posed in the entry, relaxed yet lethal, like a
rattlesnake sleeping in the sun.
Lex’s whole body stiffened
and he took several steps toward his father.
When Clark moved to follow, Jonathan grabbed his arm to hold his son by
his side.
“Well if it isn’t my
loving father.” Anger colored Lex’s
every word. “Come to make sure that no
life is left in your son’s corpse?”
Lionel ignored him and
swept imperiously into the room. Looking
down his nose at the Kents he ordered dismissively, “Leave us.”
Clark responded without
hesitation, “No. We’re not leaving him
alone with you.”
Jonathan tightened his
grip on Clark’s arm, but didn’t object. This
was the man who had brought unforgivable humiliation on his own son. No one should be left to his mercy.
The businessman snorted
disparagingly. “Insolent pup. Lex, send them away, we have private matters
to discuss.”
Lex had forced himself to
appear relaxed, though it wasn’t very convincing, and stood casually with his
arms crossed.
“I prefer they stay. At this point I hardly have any secrets from
them or from anyone else. All thanks to
you, I might add.”
Apparently Lionel
preferred to pretend that Jonathan and Clark weren’t there, and addressed his
son.
“Really, Lex. Surely you aren’t going to blame this on
me. It’s your own foul behavior that has
caused your current predicament.”
“My behavior is one
thing. It was you who made sure that everyone
in Smallville had it shoved in their faces.”
The older man circled his
son with smooth menace.
“Of course I had nothing
to do with it. Perish the thought. However, I’m not above taking advantage of
the situation. You will, naturally, have
to leave this god forsaken village.
After the peasants have judged you for your sins, they will no doubt
march over here with torches to burn the monster in their midst.
“LexCorp stock has fallen
dramatically in the last few hours. It’s
quite vulnerable to a hostile takeover, and I doubt that any of the employees
you’ve been so concerned about will be sorry to see you go.
“But never fear, son. Everything will work out for the best. All you need do is forget this bucolic
dalliance and return to your rightful place at LutherCorp. Of course, you’ll have to remain in the
background for a while. Take a little
vacation, maybe. In the meantime I will
make sure there’s no evidence of your crimes to be found. I assume you don’t want to go to prison for
aggravated rape of a minor.”
Lex, understandably, was
starting to lose his cool.
“So that’s what this is
all about; you’re tired of the game and are going for the kill. You’re willing to publicly drag me through
the mud rather than see me become my own man.
Well, a prison of concrete and iron bars would be preferable to being
under your control again. Though I doubt
that will happen, since there is no evidence.
There can be no evidence since I didn’t do it. I.
Never. Raped. A. Child. It’s a
lie and you know it.”
“If you say so, Lex. However, I wouldn’t be too confident that
there is no evidence. You’d be surprised
what a good investigator can discover.”
Lex took a step toward
Lionel, his eyes now alight with rage.
“Yes, Dad. There is in fact all kinds of evidence that
could come out. For example, I notice
that you didn’t include all the pictures in your little publicity
packet. What about the ones that you
are in, Dad? The ones where you are
engaging in very illegal activities with your underage son.”
Jonathan felt like he had
been punched in the stomach. His mind
couldn’t accept what was being implied.
That any parent could hurt their child….
That Lex had been hurt that way….
He had always said that Lionel was the devil, but now he knew that the
man really was pure evil.
Beside him Clark gasped,
and Jonathan held him with both hands, both to keep Clark from committing any
violent acts and to reassure himself that his own son was safe and whole.
Lionel didn’t deny anything. He said with condescension, “Now, now,
son. I don’t think anyone would give
much credence to that type of thing.
Photos can be faked, you know. It
would merely seem a desperate attempt by a guilty man to divert attention from
himself.
“Lex, I want you to stop
these histrionics. All your life I’ve
had to protect you from your own true nature.
You should be glad that I’m willing to give you another chance, even though
you’ve proven yourself to be a hopeless degenerate. You have no one else. You have nothing else. Accept that your father knows best for once
and this will all go away.”
Emotion completely broke
Lex’s control. He snarled at his father,
“I’d rather be dead than submit to you.
Is that what you want? What I don’t
understand is why you don’t just hire an assassin and have it done
cleanly. Why didn’t you pull the trigger
yourself when Lucas wanted you to? Does
it give you that much pleasure to torture me?”
The elder Luthor again
ignored what Lex had said. “You’re
making another bad decision. If I walk
out of here without you, you’ll be completely on your own to face the
consequences of your immorality. You’re
too weak to overcome this current debacle without my help. Do you think these farmers,” motioning toward the Kents, “or anyone else
will stand by you? Where’s you lovely
companion, Helen is it? She may have
been on the verge of moving into the mansion, but I understand that her change
of heart took mere moments when confronted with the truth about you. You’ll be alone, Lex. All alone. Do you understand?”
The younger Luthor could
hardly speak.
“Get. Out!”
Lionel affected a sad
expression. “If that’s truly how you
feel. It’s such a shame. You could have been a great man, Lex. Instead you prefer to be a failure. Where did I go wrong?” He sighed exaggeratedly. “Well if you’re sure, then I’ll be on my
way. You know where to find me when you
change your mind. Goodbye, Lex.”
The man swirled his long
coat as he strode dramatically out of the room, leaving the other three staring
after him. They remained a frozen
tableau for a moment, then as Jonathan released Clark’s arm, his son moved
toward his friend.
“Lex! Lex, are you all right?”
Lex turned and brushed
past Clark as though he weren’t there.
He moved to the far end of the room behind the desk and began to pace
agitatedly.
Jonathan really did feel
like he was in over his head. He didn’t
know of anything he or Clark could do or say to help the distraught young
man. He felt he should try though. He began, “Lex.”
He froze in shock as Lex
suddenly turned and smashed his right fist through the glass of a display
case. Jonathan’s alarm increased when he
pulled his arm back, digging long gashes from elbow to wrist by pressing it to
the jagged edges of the broken glass.
Despite his disbelief, he lunged forward as he saw the fist positioned
to slam through another unbroken pane.
Clark beat him to it,
however. He stopped Lex’s closed fist
with the palm of his hand and physically dragged his friend away from the
scattered shards. About the time they
reached the edge of the seating area Lex’s legs gave out and the two of them
sank to the ground, Clark holding Lex to his chest from behind.
Clark moaned, “Oh, god,
Lex. Oh, god. Why did you do that?”
Jonathan knelt and
inspected the damage. Blood flowed
freely from the wounds in the young man’s forearm.
“We’d better get him to
the hospital.”
Without speaking, Lex
shook his head in negation.
Thankfully, the clear voice
of his lovely wife Martha flowed over them.
“I heard glass
break.” As she knelt beside the two boys
she said to Jonathan, “I got your note.
What happened?”
He confirmed, “You’ve seen the pictures?”
She nodded.
“Lex was pretty upset,”
Jonathan understated, “but he was getting a hold of himself. Then Lionel had to stop by for a
visit. He’s behind the whole thing,
Martha. He practically admitted that he
made up the worst picture. I guess Lex kind
of lost it.”
The young man in question
started to laugh, not a pleasant sound.
“Yeah, you could say I
kind of lost it. Well put, Mr.
Kent. Very descriptive.”
Martha had taken over
surveying the injury. She ignored the
outburst and asked, “Lex, do you have a first aid kit?”
Focusing his eyes on her
face, he answered, “Kitchen.”
Martha ordered, “Clark, go
get it.”
The boy slipped out from
behind his friend and was back within seconds, handing his mother the box
before resuming his place. No one
mentioned that that wasn’t possible.
“Mom, is he going to be
all right?”
She spoke to Lex as she
cleaned his arm with a disinfectant wipe, “I think you’re going to need some
stitches. We should go to the hospital.”
Lex shook his head
again. “No, Mrs. Kent, that won’t be
necessary. It’s a little enhancement I
received in the infamous meteor shower.
I have a particularly robust constitution.” He giggled horrifically. “I can take a lot of damage. Just bandage it.”
Jonathan and his wife shot
each other a quick look at the mention of meteors.
She said, “Robust or not,
you’re lucky you didn’t cut a major artery.”
Lex lay his head back on
Clark’s shoulder. “Yeah. Lucky.”
Clark wrapped his arms
around the older boy and scolded, “Lex, please don’t hurt yourself. It isn’t worth it. Your father isn’t worth it.”
“Whatever you say.” Then Lex seemed to make the effort to pull
himself together. “I’m sorry, Mr. Kent,
Mrs. Kent. I’m behaving like a real head
case. You shouldn’t have to deal with
all this.”
Jonathan spoke
automatically, “That’s all right, son.
I’m glad we can help.”
As she applied butterfly
bandages to hold the raw edges of skin together, Martha looked at Lex
thoughtfully.
“Lex.” She drew his attention. “Lex, did you know that I grew up in
Metropolis?”
Surprised by the question,
the young man answered, “Yes.”
“My family was in the
middle of the social scale, not at the very top like yours, but I remember what
it was like. Money doesn’t mean
happiness, nor does it mean a healthy family or life. That’s one of the reasons I was glad to marry
this wonderful man and move to Smallville.”
Jonathan smiled at her as
she continued.
“I saw self-destructive
behavior with my friends. Lex,” she
paused and then asked, “what was in the pictures, were you trying to hurt
yourself? Like this?” She passed her hand over his bandaged forearm
without touching it.
Lex stared at her for a
moment then blinked a few times.
“How…?” As he processed her
question he must have decided to answer.
“Yes. Sometimes it gets to be too
much and it’s the only thing I can do.
Physical pain I can handle.”
Martha nodded. “Tell us, Lex.”
The young man looked from
her to Jonathan to Clark. They all
returned his gaze kindly, encouraging him to feel safe enough to open up.
He swallowed. “I never wanted to hurt anyone else. Only me.
Some people get off on what they can do to others, and I guess I gave
them a chance to go for it. Most of it
was when I was younger, fourteen to about eighteen. If I was rough with someone it was only
because they wanted me to be, and I was never with anyone younger than
myself. I never….” He was speaking calmly, but his body was
shaking, and Clark tightened his arms around his friend’s torso. “I never did anything to a child.”
Martha caressed the smooth
head gently. “Shhh. We know you didn’t. It’s all right.” After giving him a chance to calm down a bit
she prompted. “Are you talking about
more than sex?”
Jonathan had to stand up
and step back a few paces. This was too
intense for him. Tractors were so much
easier to fix than people. He was
concerned that Clark was hearing all this, but supposed it was for the
best. The boy needed to know.
Lex nodded. “Yes.
Sex, alcohol, drugs, violence.
Whatever.”
He got a distant look on
his face, but kept talking.
“It’s funny.” As though anything about this could be. “My Smallville mutation made it worse. It was like there was no limit, and believe me
I looked for one. How many sex partners
could I have? Could it be too
rough? How high could I get? Could a trip ever be too bad? How much could my body take. Could I ever feel too much pain?” He chuckled sadly. “The hell of it was that I never found a
limit. It was never too much. Eventually I gave up on finding any answers
there. That’s when I started getting
serious about my studies. I’ve learned
to use the darkness, the pain, to further my goals. It never goes away. It’s part of everything I am, and everyone
can see it in me. It’s my destiny.”
This was hard for Jonathan
to hear. In his mind he saw the little
boy lying in a field of flattened corn, tufts of red hair floating away in the
breeze. He remembered how helpless the
boy had been, and how useless the father.
Jonathan had been glad to help get the injured child to the hospital,
but then he’d never given him another thought.
If he had only known what was going to be done to that innocent boy,
maybe he could have intervened somehow.
Instead, the child was left in the power of a man intent on destroying
him.
Jonathan also felt guilty
for everything he had said about Lex.
For how he had assumed the worst, assumed that the boy was just like the
father. Anger over having allowed
himself to be used by Lionel blinded him to the reality of Lex. Without a doubt Lex had his issues, but he
was trying to be a good person.
Kneeling once again by the
young man’s side, he took the thin shoulders in his hands. When Lex turned to him, Jonathan forced
himself to say what was on his mind.
“Lex, a lot of people have
judged you, including me. Especially
me. I want to apologize for that. I was wrong.
You should be proud of the man you’re becoming. Despite the fact that you didn’t have the
love and support that every child deserves, you’ve managed to choose the better
path. To use a farming analogy, you’re a
strong enough plant that the weeds couldn’t choke you, and you’re already
bearing fruit. You’re a credit to
yourself, Lex. If your father can’t see
that, it’s his loss. If other people
can’t see that, it’s their loss. Don’t
believe your father’s lies, he doesn’t know you. And the future isn’t written in stone. You can still be whoever you want.”
Jonathan’s wife rubbed his
back lovingly in approval. Clark beamed
at him over Lex’s shoulder like he was the best father in the world. He wasn’t, but he was trying.
Tears filled Lex’s eyes
but he swallowed them down. “Thank you,
Mr. Kent. I can’t tell you how much…how
much it means to me to hear you say that.”
After hugging her husband,
Martha asked Lex, “Have you eaten today?”
“Uh. No?”
“Well, you will now.”
Clark and Jonathan helped
Lex to his feet and Martha set out to organize sustenance. By the time Lex had changed out of his ruined
clothes, a light meal was spread in the dining room. The housekeeper, Mrs. Gibson, had had a
change of heart about quitting and was glad to be of help.
Martha had to coax each
bite, but managed to get some nutrition into him. It was only late afternoon, yet Lex was
starting to yawn. It had been a stressful
day to say the least.
Jonathan said to him,
“Look, I honestly don’t know what to do about everything that’s happened, but
this family will stand with you. I think
you should come home with us tonight.”
Sounding very sure, Lex
answered, “No. I think it would be
better for all of us if none of you were seen to be associating with me right
now. Not only for your good but for mine
as well. Questions are going to be
raised about my relationship with Clark, and by extension the whole
family. In fact, when you go home
tonight I want you to take the back way through the estate. There are already reporters and cameras at
the front gate, and it would be best if no one knew you were here today. If the police speak to you, you can answer
honestly that I haven’t laid a hand on Clark.”
Clark protested, “I think
I should stay. You shouldn’t be alone
tonight.”
“No, Clark. I want you to go home and do your
chores. Go to school tomorrow and act
like nothing has happened the best you can.
If anyone says anything to you, don’t even answer. I’m serious, Clark, this is important.”
Jonathan was impressed
that Lex could resist Clark’s pouting face.
Strong, indeed.
Clark scowled, but
agreed. “Okay. But I don’t like it.”
They stood to go and
Martha gave Lex a long hug. “Are you
sure you’ll be all right tonight?”
Lex was clearly trying to
be adult, and just as clearly delighting in the motherly attention. After reluctantly releasing Martha from the
embrace, he said, “Yes. I’m just going
to sleep, and figure out what to do about everything tomorrow.” He looked at each of them. “I can’t thank you enough for what you’ve
done today. No one has ever given me the
kind of support you have. I’m beyond
grateful.”
Martha hugged him again
and Clark clapped him on the back. She
insisted, “You call us if you need anything.
Any time of day or night.
Understand?”
“Yes, Mrs. Kent, I
will. Thank you.”
They did as Lex suggested
and took the back way home. As Clark
went off to do chores, Martha pulled Jonathan into her arms.
“My heart just breaks for
that poor boy,” she sighed. “I’ve seen
other kids go through the same kind of thing, and not all of them
survived. I hope he’ll be all right.”
“I do too. For his sake and for Clark’s. In spite of everything, Clark thinks Lex
Luthor hung the moon. If Lex suffers,
Clark suffers, and I would hate to see it change our boy.”
“They’ll both come through
this fine.”
“I’m sure they will.”
As Jonathan went out to do
his own work, he didn’t feel quite as confident as he had been trying to
sound. He was worried about Lex in more
ways than one. Not only about getting
through the current crisis, but about what kind of person he would end up
being. Yes, he was trying to take
another path, but his training at the hands of Lionel Luther had to run
deep. Jonathan hoped that the darkness
wasn’t going to be too strong for him.
They would all be in a lot of trouble if it was.
**~~**
After his parents had gone
to bed, Clark prowled the loft restlessly.
There was no chance of sleeping, tired as he was. Everything he had heard and seen that day
reverberated in his head, making it difficult to sort through.
The photographs had
shocked him, especially the sex ones.
The pictures of Lex with women were bad enough, but when it was men,
Clark hadn’t wanted to look at them and yet hadn’t been able to look away. Images of men and women were everywhere, so
he was used to that. It was accepted and
normal. He hadn’t seen men together,
though, except for a few peeks at posed scenes he’d come across on-line, and
those men weren’t Lex.
Chloe had dragged him into
the Torch office to show them to him.
Except for the one with Clark in it, to her it had been a great news
story. He hated the idea that people all
over town were looking at Lex. Thinking
about his body and what he had done, maybe still did, with it. Clark had wanted to speed everywhere, collect
up all the pictures and burn them.
He’d settled for speeding
to the mansion. Finding Lex totally
unresponsive had scared the hell out of him.
Lex was always so cool, so in control.
The confrontation with Lionel and the things Lex had said later had his
head spinning. It didn’t seem possible
that he had been friends with Lex for so long and hadn’t known any of
that.
It was because he’d never
asked. He’d thought that if he didn’t
ask Lex questions about himself, then he wouldn’t have to answer any
either. Some friend he was. Some secrets were better shared than
protected. Maybe his own was one of
them, he didn’t know.
Although he was confused
about a lot of things, one had become clear over the course of the day. It mattered to him what happened to Lex. It mattered a lot. In fact, it was pretty much the most
important thing he could think of. Lex
had been hurt so much, there had to be something he could do to help.
Clark kept thinking about
how Lionel had emphasized that Lex would be alone, how Helen walked out on
him. He suspected that Lex was probably
pretty used to exactly that, but it triggered one of Clark’s greatest personal
fears. It hurt to imagine his very
special friend alone and abandoned, and he couldn’t allow it.
He had been a good little
boy and gone home when ordered, but he hadn’t promised to stay there. Making up his mind and relieved to finally be
able to take some action, Clark ran to the mansion in a matter of seconds,
skirting the die-hard news vans still parked in front. The house was dark, so he snuck in the side
door and made his way up to Lex’s room.
Pausing in the shadow cast
by moonlight through the window, Clark observed the figure in the bed. Lex actually was sleeping, which was good,
but it wasn’t very peaceful. The bald
head rolled on the pillow as the body shifted beneath the covers.
Clark longed to hold Lex
in his arms so that he would know he was loved.
Yes, loved. What he felt couldn’t
be anything else. He would do anything
for Lex. Anything at all, even hold him
while he slept. In fact, he wouldn’t
mind if it was a little more than holding.
He ached to be near Lex.
Slipping out of his jeans
and checked shirt, Clark approached the bed.
When he reached the side he had to stop and take a few deep
breaths. He was sure that he wanted to
do this, but he was scared. It was a big
step and could change everything between them.
What if Lex didn’t want him there?
What if he got mad? He decided he
would just have to make Lex understand.
Being alone was not an option.
Clark lifted the sheet and
slipped into the bed wearing only his boxers.
Leaning on one elbow, he reached out and gently touched Lex’s shoulder.
“Lex?”
The other man sat straight
up and swung his elbow at Clark’s face, connecting right below his eye.
Putting his hands up
defensively, he called, “Lex! It’s me,
Clark. I’m not going to hurt you.”
Lex froze.
“Clark? What the hell are you doing here?”
“I wanted to be with
you. I wanted to make sure you weren’t
lonely. I wanted to do this.”
He leaned forward and
brought his lips to Lex’s. The first
kiss was tentative, a friendly brushing of skin. Then he tried again, shifting his whole body
closer. This time he cupped Lex’s cheek
in his hand and worked his mouth against the other.
After a stunned moment,
Lex moaned and lunged at Clark, knocking both of them flat on the
mattress. The teenager was a little
stunned himself when Lex kissed like he drove, zero to one hundred and ten in
two seconds flat. The man devoured his
mouth and ran his hands over his body.
Clark felt like he was being touched everywhere at the same time. It felt incredible.
Then he experienced
another shock when he realized that Lex was naked. Completely naked except for the
bandaged arm. He could feel a hard, hot
shaft pushing against his thigh as Lex squirmed beside him. Clark had never even looked closely at a cock
other than his own, much less had one touching him. He liked it.
A lot.
Clark surrendered himself
to the kiss, giving back the passionate attention he was receiving. During the rare moments that his mouth was
free, he murmured Lex’s name. He ran his
hands over the skin of the sturdy male body next to his. It was so good, he wanted more.
Lex grabbed him and lay
back on the bed, pulling Clark on top of him.
Amazingly, that felt even better.
Lex writhed underneath him, his arms locked around Clark’s neck and back
as though he were drowning and Clark a life preserver. Lex thrust up and Clark thrust down, wishing
the boxers weren’t between them. He’d
never been so aroused in his life, blood flowing hot as lava in his veins. Fantasies didn’t even come close to the real
thing. So what if he hadn’t exactly
thought the whole thing through? It was
definitely what he wanted; to get as close to the other man as physically
possible.
He groaned, “God, Lex. Never felt anything like this.”
As though his voice had
flipped a switch, Lex stilled. About the
time Clark’s brain processed that fact, strong arms pushed him off and to the
side. Moving almost as fast as Clark
could, his friend and nearly lover was out of the bed and standing a few feet
away, glaring, of all things.
“Lex? What’s the matter?”
“What’s the matter? What are you…?” He seemed to be panting. “Jesus, Clark! I’m being suspected of molesting minors and
you crawl into my bed with that hot… incredible body? Does this seem like a good idea to you?”
Lex was just standing
there naked. He wasn’t entirely
hairless, laying one topic of public speculation to rest, not that anyone would
be wondering much after studying those photos.
There was a sharp line of auburn hair on his lower belly which fanned
out to form a circular halo at the groin.
Clark was trying really hard to not stare at the erect penis curling
upward. He felt a fool enough without
gawking.
“Oh. Um, I’m sorry. I didn’t think.”
“I guess you didn’t. Seriously, Clark. What got into you?”
“I just…I just wanted to
be close to you. I thought this would be
a way to show you how I feel. I really
screwed up, Lex. I’ll go.”
He started inching toward
the side of the bed, not looking forward to standing up. His own erection would not be hidden in the
least behind thin cotton boxers. The
embarrassment was making him wilt a little, at any rate.
Lex took a step back
toward the bed and held out the uninjured hand.
“Wait, Clark. You didn’t screw anything up. I don’t want you to think I don’t desire
you. I do. It’s just, this isn’t a good time.”
It made him feel better to
hear Lex say that, but he didn’t really understand. They both wanted each other, so what was the
problem? No matter what anyone said, he
wasn’t a child.
He contributed
tentatively, “Okay.”
Lex looked at him and
could probably see that he was still upset.
“Look, Clark, I’ve cared
about you for a long time. I’ve wanted
you for a long time. The thing is, I
need you so much right now I could tear you apart. I need you so much that I could lose control
and hurt you. I don’t want to do that.”
“You can’t hurt me, Lex.”
Shaking his head, the man
insisted, “Whether it’s literally or figuratively doesn’t matter. I don’t want it to be this way.” His voice had softened to the point that it
was almost tender. “I want to be with
you, but I want to do it right. If…when
this is all resolved, when I’m myself, come to me again. I want to treat you the way you deserve to be
treated, and I can’t do that right now.
Do you understand?”
“I think so.” Emotion threatened to burst his heart
open. It wasn’t a sophisticated feeling,
but Lex was so great! “I want it to be
right, too. I love you, Lex.”
Lex slumped and let out a
breath. “I…feel the same. And thank you for coming here tonight. I know you meant well. We’ll talk about this again.”
Maybe all was not
lost. “Do you think, maybe, I could
stay? Just to sleep. Would it be all right if I held you for a while?”
“Against my better
judgment, that sounds wonderful. But
nothing more. Promise?”
“I promise. I just want to be near you.”
“I’d like that.”
As Clark lay down and got
comfortable in the bed, Lex pulled on a pair of silk boxers and climbed back in. Arranging himself carefully so that no
genitals were touching anything pleasant, Lex settled his head onto Clark’s
chest, draping one arm over his torso.
“Is that okay?”
“That’s great, Lex. Go to sleep.”
It took a while, but the
other man finally relaxed, his breathing slowing into sleep. Clark lay awake, amazed at what he was
feeling. The urgency of the sexual
impulse had passed, but holding Lex close was maybe even better. He hadn’t shared a bed with anyone since he got
too big to crawl in with his parents.
He’d never laid with the warm skin of another person touching the whole
length of his body. Here he was, holding
the one he loved close to his heart. It
was incredibly intimate. He began to
understand how much more there was to sleeping together than sex, how much a
relationship could mean. He could get
used to this.
When Clark finally drifted
to sleep, it was with a greater sense of belonging than he had known since
coming to this planet.
**~~**
The sun was just barely
beginning to show itself, but Lex was already wide awake. He felt strung out from the emotional roller
coaster ride of the previous day.
Lex wished he could stay
exactly where he was for the rest of his life.
Clark’s skin was warm beneath his cheek, and he could hear the rhythmic
thump of the boy’s heart. He wondered
yet again how it was that the mere presence of this teenager could make him
feel like everything would be all right, despite all evidence to the
contrary. Clark’s arm around his back
was like a benediction.
His father always said
that he was too emotional, that it was his weakness, and he knew it was
true. How else could he be, though, when
the only example of emotional control he’d had for many years was a father who could
repress anything that wasn’t useful for the manipulation of others? He had tried to emulate that, but not only
had he not been good at it, it didn’t seem to work. He didn’t feel less, it simply became more
concentrated without any pressure release.
Lex had on occasion wondered what his father’s inner life was like. He was fairly sure he didn’t want to know.
Clark, on the other hand,
wore his emotions on his face. He could
blow up in a fit of anger one minute and be his usual mild self again the
next. Every time he lied his face showed
how much he hated the prevarication.
The easy expression of his
feelings, however, didn’t seem to relieve his inner pressure. Sometimes it seemed like Clark might explode
from the strain of hiding so much. Would
his inner life mirror the public Clark at all?
Lex was fairly sure he wanted to know.
This little stunt of
climbing into bed with him had come out of the blue. Clark said he wanted to show Lex how he
felt? Lex would have thought they were
no farther along than a friendly hug. He
must have misjudged that a bit. It still
didn’t make complete sense to him.
There was a part of Lex
that couldn’t believe he had put a stop to it the night before. It was inconceivable that when offered an
all-you-can-eat buffet of Clark Kent’s heart and body, he would abstain. A part of him was screaming that he should
take what he could while he had the chance.
He reflected that it was Clark himself that gave him the strength to do
the right thing.
Speaking of which, during the
night his groin had arranged itself to press against Clark’s thigh. The exquisite pain of desire was getting to
the point where he would have to do something about it, one way or another. He carefully shifted his hips to lie flat on
the bed, a relatively more chaste position.
The small movement roused
Clark from slumber, and Lex lifted his head to watch the boy awaken. In sleep Clark’s looks were classical
perfection, but the intelligence, the very Clarkness, in his eyes was the real
prize.
Lex responded to Clark’s
smile with one of his own.
“Good morning, beautiful.”
Clark was a little bit
embarrassed by the situation, and blushed fetchingly.
“Hi, Lex.”
“Did you sleep well?”
“Yeah, great.” He blurted, “I love sleeping with you,” then rushed on. “How are you?
Do you feel any better?”
“As a matter of fact, I
do. You made all the difference, Clark.”
The handsome face took on
a flirtatious leer. “Any time I can be
of assistance, just let me know.”
As Lex lifted his torso on
one elbow, he argued to himself that one little kiss wouldn’t hurt
anything. Must reassure the teenage
virgin, after all. Just one little kiss.
They leaned toward each
other to share the kiss mutually.
Clark’s lips were so sweet and tender, Lex wanted to drown in them. Out of accusations of sexual predation had
arisen the miracle of their mouths on each other. Very ironic, and he approved entirely.
However, questions that
needed answers crowded his head. Lex
pulled away and they shifted so that they were facing each other, only arms and
legs touching.
Lex asked, “Not that I’m
complaining, but wasn’t this a bit sudden?”
Clark shook his head. “No.
I’ve wanted you for a long time, but it took me a while to recognize
what it was. When I realized that I was thinking
about you all the time, counting the minutes until I could see you again, I
finally got it. I’m in love with you.”
Lex closed his eyes and
savored how that felt. After a minute he
continued the interrogation.
“It’s an obvious question,
but I have to ask. What about Lana? Since I’ve know you, you’ve been pining for
her.”
Clark’s face
softened. “Ah, Lana. I really like, Lana. A lot.
She’s so pretty and tiny, and she needs me to take care of her. I’ve had, you know, that kind of dreams about
how it would feel to run my hands over those soft curves. She’s hot.”
Lex’s insides froze a bit,
but he nodded for Clark to continue.
“But Lex, when I think
about Lana it feels sort of unreal. Like
it’s more the idea of her that I’m attracted to. She’s what I grew up expecting to want. With you it’s so different. You’re contradictory and difficult and
frustrating. And sensual and
gorgeous. You challenge me with every
breath you take. I really have to work to keep up with you, Lex. No one could be more real. Lana might need me, but I need you. Um, then, of course, I couldn’t ignore the
fact that I was more jealous of Lucas than I ever was of Whitney.”
Ah, yes. He recalled the basketball incident fondly.
“Do you have ‘that kind’
of dream about me?”
“God, yes! Recently, it’s always you I’m thinking about
when I, you know. Not that I really know
much about, that, with guys.”
Lex chuckled. “I can see we’re going to have to work on
your vocabulary.”
The boy’s sly look returned. “I should tell you that I’m a learn-by-doing
kind of guy.” Then his expression
shifted to troubled. “What about you? Do you really want me? You aren’t just being nice? What about Helen?”
“I really want you,
Clark. I have for a long time. I just never thought it could happen. I cared about Helen. I wanted her to want me. But the truth is that I was going to be with
her to distract myself from you. It was
part of the monumental effort I have been making to keep my hands off you. You’re so young.”
“I’ll be seventeen in a
couple of months!” Clark interrupted.
“In four months. But it’s not just age. Our worlds, our lives, are so diametrically
opposed. It’s hard to imagine you
becoming part of my world without being damaged. Yesterday was a good example of what it can
be like. Why would you expose yourself
to that?”
“If it means I can be with
you, I’ll face anything. Um, you may
have noticed that I’m pretty strong. I
don’t just mean my muscles. I’ll be all
right. We both will.”
“Speaking of strong, I
know there are things about yourself you don’t want to tell me…”
Clark tried to break in,
but Lex kept talking.
“It makes me crazy that I
don’t understand you, what you can do, but I won’t insist that you to tell me
your secrets. I just want you to know
that it hurts me when you refute what I’ve seen with my own eyes. You know I’m not stupid, Clark. I won’t ask you any questions, but in return
please don’t lie to me.”
Clark got that familiar
conflicted, scared look on his face.
“Lex, I want to tell you
everything about me. I want to and I
will. I’m just not ready yet. It’s hard.”
“That’s all right. Trust me, no one knows better than I how
difficult it is to be open with others.”
“There! You see, we have more in common than you
might think.”
“You may be right, Mr.
Kent.”
Clark started in mock
surprise.
“Mr. Kent? Is my father here?”
Lex had to laugh.
“God forbid. About your parents,
do they know where you are?
Now transparent guilt
swept into view.
“Um, no. It was kind of a spur of the moment
decision. I have to get home soon.”
Lex indulged in kissing
Clark for a few minutes and then moved back to sit on the edge of the bed,
pulling the sheet over the inopportune bulge in his boxers.
With utter seriousness,
Clark asked, “Are your really all right?”
With a sigh, he confessed,
“No, not really. But I’m going to try to
be.”
“I could spend the day
with you.”
“The plan hasn’t
changed. You will go home and follow
your normal routine. I have a lot of errands
to run and calls to make today. I should
have started the damage control yesterday, but as you noticed I wasn’t really
up to it. I promise you, I will try my
hardest to survive this in as many ways as I can. I have some serious motivation now, don’t I?”
The teenager climbed out
of bed and very quickly into his jeans, giving Lex only a fleeting
glimpse of endless bare legs. When he
turned, his face still showed concern.
“You’ll call tonight? Or anytime you need me? Just to talk or anything.”
“I’ll call tonight. And Clark, thank you again. For yesterday and for last night. You’ve really gone above and beyond for me.”
Clark walked around the
bed to where Lex still sat. He bent and
cupped Lex’s cheek in the palm of his hand.
“You make it sound like a sacrifice.
I love you, Lex.”
He didn’t think he could
ever hear that enough.
“Me too.”
After a quick kiss, Clark
moved toward the door.
Lex admonished, “Don’t let
the press see you.”
“They didn’t see me last
night, and they won’t see me this morning.
It’s, ah, one of those things.”
“Right. I won’t ask.”
With a, “Bye,” Clark was
gone.
As Lex showered and
dressed, the darkness of the day before began to seep back into him. He was afraid, which was a fairly new
feeling. He had been afraid a lot as a
child, but had trained it out of himself.
It had become easy when he stopped caring what happened to him. Now it was so different. He actually had something to live for. Not just Clark, but his life in Smallville in
general. He wanted to see this through,
to find out if he was capable of creating something good. The next few days, few hours, would show
whether he would have that opportunity.
After spending a lot of
time on the phone with his lawyers and contracting the top PR firm in Kansas,
he climbed into his red Ferrari and proceeded to disregard the lawyers’
advice. He roared through the gate and
past the flashing cameras with the same panache as always. He’d considered taking one of the more sedate
cars, but decided that there was no point in trying to pretend he wasn’t
something that he was. If he didn’t show
that being him was a pretty good thing, as Clark said, then certainly no one
else would believe it.
Lex pulled up outside of
the police station and took several deep breaths, psyching himself for the
coming encounter. He’d charmed and
manipulated some of the wealthiest and most powerful men in the nation, how
much harder could one country sheriff be?
Right?
All heads turned and
conversation stopped as he stepped through the door into the station. He assumed that everybody in that room wanted
to see him locked up for the rest of his life.
No matter, he could handle this.
He said to the wide-eyed
receptionist, “I’d like to speak with Sheriff Adams, please.”
The girl stuttered, “Ah,
er, sure. I’ll let her know.”
Lex waited patiently,
outwardly as calm as if he were there to sell raffle tickets rather than
fighting for his life. After a couple of
minutes the girl asked him to follow her.
Passing through a phalanx of hostile stares, he was led into an office.
Sheriff Adams, the
no-nonsense new-comer to the Smallville beat, sat behind her paper strewn desk
looking formidable. He stood looking
down at her.
“My name is Lex Luthor.”
“I know who you are, Mr.
Luthor. I must say your visit is a
surprise.”
“Well, Sheriff, it seems
to me that we have some things to discuss.”
He opened the manila envelope he had carried in with him and slid the
pictures onto her desktop. “I imagine
you’re familiar with these.”
“Why, yes sir, I am. They do in fact contain depictions of illegal
activities. I understand that while you
have been mixed up in some questionable incidents since you arrived in
Smallville, until now you’ve managed to stay just this side of the law. Now I’m forced to question whether that’s
still the case.”
“Since I’ve been in your
lovely town I have broken no laws.” Not
entirely accurate, but close enough. “I
want to clear this up before it goes any farther. I don’t dispute that many of these photos
incriminate me in illicit acts, but you’ll notice that the majority of them
were taken when I was much younger.
Underage, in fact. Some of them
have already been dealt with through the legal system. That will be reflected in my juvenile
records, which are sealed, but I’m sure you could find a way to confirm what
I’ve said. As such, there is no cause
for any action to be taken at this time.”
He fished out the photos
of Clark and Ryan.
“These are merely innuendo. I never laid a hand on the boy Ryan; I took
him in when he was being pursued by doctors who were torturing him in the name
of science. I have never, nor would I
ever, hurt Clark Kent in any way. I have
the utmost regard for him and for his family.
You can confirm that with the Kents themselves.”
The sheriff listened to
his presentation with one eyebrow raised skeptically, but made no comment.
“As to this last picture,”
with one finger he shoved the photo showing him with the child, “it is a fake.” For the first time his composure started to
crack. He sat down in the chair in front
of the desk and leaned on the arms with his elbows, speaking urgently.
“I assure you that I
didn’t do this. The person responsible
for distributing these photographs was obviously doing it with the intention of
discrediting me. This particular one
goes beyond that. It’s a revolting and
vicious lie. I would never hurt a
child.”
“Why should I believe
you? You’ve admitted these other photos
are real. They certainly give the
impression that there’s little you wouldn’t do.”
“That was the
intention. I don’t know yet how to prove
to you that it’s a fake, but I have experts analyzing the picture now.” He paused to calm the butterflies in his
stomach. “One of my greatest concerns is
that while I was not the one who did this to the child, someone did. I don’t know if they used an already existing
photo or if someone… did it… specifically to create this image. I need to know. I need to find out who this child is and what
happened to her. I have hired a team of
investigators to do that, and have instructed them to cooperate with the police
should you pursue the matter yourselves.
I won’t interfere with any official inquiry, but this is something I
need to do. That photo is as painful for
me to look at as it is for anyone else.
More so.”
Adams was looking at him
speculatively. He thought that he might
be convincing her.
She asked, “Would you
agree to take a polygraph on that?”
Without hesitation he
answered, “Yes.” His lawyers would kill
him.
“Mr. Luthor, who do you
suspect of being behind this whole thing?”
“I know who did it, though
it would be hard to prove. It was Lionel
Luthor.”
That surprised her.
“Your father.”
“Yes. You may be aware of his attempt to close
LutherCorp Plant # 3 last year before I acquired the facility. This is part of his campaign to take it
back.” He refrained from adding that it
would likely be shut down if his father were to succeed, feeling that it might
come across as a threat.
The sheriff leaned
forward.
“I’ll tell you
something. I’ve looked at these pictures
and they’re ugly. You’re life has been
ugly and apparently it runs in the family.
You’d better believe that we’ll be investigating this. I’m not going to place you under arrest at
this time, but you are a suspect in a child molestation case, so don’t leave
town. We’ll need to verify your claims
against available records. You’re going
to have to answer questions about each and every one of these photographs, so
be prepared with names, dates and locations.”
Wouldn’t that be fun.
“Yes, ma’am. I’ll be very busy over the next few days
trying to save my company, but call my secretary to set up a time. I’ll make myself available whenever it’s
needed.”
“You do that.” She sat back and glared, giving the signal
that the interview was over.
As he stood and walked to
the door, Adams called, “Mr. Luthor.” He
turned and she said, “I respect that you came in here of your own free
will. I’m not assuming that you’re
innocent in this, but I’m not assuming that you’re guilty either. You’ll get fair treatment from my
department.”
“I appreciate that,
Sheriff. I couldn’t ask for anything
more.”
Lex had to cross the main
room of the station under continued cold scrutiny, and he hoped that the
sheriff could follow through on her promise.
His next destination was
the fertilizer plant, a place he hadn’t been since the mess started. He received no friendly smiles and only
perfunctory good morning’s as he made his way to the office. There he called his top managers together and
told them basically the same thing he’d told the sheriff.
Then he said to them, “You
remember my father’s attempt to close this facility last year. All of us working together kept it open and
we have been prospering. If you’ve been
unhappy working with me, this is your opportunity to welcome Lionel Luthor back
by supporting his next take-over attempt, which should be underway any moment, if
it isn’t already. If you want to
continue what we’ve started, then I’ll need you to stand by me in every
sense. I’ll need your help explaining
what is happening to the workers. I’ll
need your help convincing them and the rest of the community that I’m not evil
incarnate.
“I know that this must be
difficult for you to accept, and if you feel that you cannot continue to work
with me there’ll be no hard feelings.
However, I hope that you will look to the long term good of this
business and everyone associated with it.
The current situation need not be the end of what we’ve built.”
It was hard for
them. Several of the workers had already
quit, and all of them were being pressured by friends and family. The department heads talked it through,
however, and concluded that between Lex and Lionel, they preferred to work with
Lex. It was decided that they would
speak with the workforce rather than have Lex do it himself, and address the
concerns that had everyone on edge.
As the meeting adjourned,
Travis Perrin, the Personnel manager, approached Lex.
“Mr. Luthor, I honestly
haven’t decided if I can continue working here.
I’m a God fearing Christian man, and what I saw in those pictures goes
against everything I believe. I’ve tried
to ignore rumor in the past, but I can’t turn away from what I’ve now seen with
my own eyes. I preferred to believe that
you weren’t one of them, a homosexual, but you just admitted it to us
outright. The Bible tells me it’s an
abomination, and I don’t know if I can see my way clear to associate with
someone like that.”
That was hard to hear, but
Lex had been prepared for much worse.
“Travis, I know you’re a
man of conviction and I respect that. I
would be sorry to see you go, but if you decide to leave my employ you need
fear no repercussions from me. After
your years of service you would be eligible for a generous severance package,
which will not be endangered. Please let
me know your decision by tomorrow so that I can replace you if necessary.”
The last person to leave
was Gabe Sullivan, his second in command.
“Mr. Luthor, Lex, this is
a hell of a thing.”
“It certainly is. I hope you’ll see it through with me.”
“I will. Regardless of anything that was in those pictures,
since you’ve been in Smallville you’ve worked hard to improve this plant and
the community. I prefer to judge you by
what you’ve shown me, rather than things that happened in the past. It’s just…”
He trailed off.
Lex took a guess. “You’re concerned about my acquaintance with
your daughter.”
“I’d be a bad father if I
wasn’t, Lex. You can understand
that. But I trust my Chloe enough to
know that if anything improper had happened around her, she would have told me. I just don’t want her exposed to things like
that. I was hoping to get away from it
when I accepted the transfer here in the first place. I’ll just ask you to take care with her and
the other young people you associate with.”
“Fair enough, Gabe. I’ll make sure your confidence in me isn’t
misplaced.”
Retreating to his office,
Lex took a minute to just breathe. It
was all going better than expected.
Maybe his life wasn’t completely over just yet. He was nowhere near out of the woods, though,
and had to resist an urge to crawl under the desk and hide. Instead, he picked up the phone and faced the
next list of challenges.
One of his calls was to
Lana at the Talon. He couldn’t blame her
for being nearly speechless, not knowing what to say to him, nor for her
evident relief when he assured her that he wouldn’t be visiting the coffee
house any time soon. Lex had to consider
every occasion in which someone didn’t run away from him screaming to be a
victory.
The day passed in a blur
of crisis management, and eventually he found himself back at the castle
watching the glow of the sunset filter through the expanse of windows in his
office. He had survived the day,
literally still alive at the end of it, something that had seemed unlikely only
twenty-four hours before.
He decided to swim some
laps before calling Clark, his reward for enduring. Lex couldn’t wait to hear his friend’s voice;
it gave him strength just to think of him.
This would all be worth it if Clark was still there at the end.
~~**~~
Clark did as he was asked and
went to school, but the day could hardly be considered normal. It was impossible to miss what people were
saying about Lex and him. Rumors about
their relationship were nothing new, but the other kids were scandalized and
titillated the way only sheltered, moralistic teenagers can be. They didn’t hold back going for the
jugular. It was especially difficult to
handle for someone who had made a career of blending into the background.
At mid-day Clark stormed
into the Torch office to escape from yet another ‘fairy’ comment. Chloe was there at her computer, but didn’t
have a chance to say anything before Clark started venting.
“I can’t believe how
people are acting! I’ve never done
anything to deserve being treated this way and neither has Lex. God, in Smallville of all places, where half
the school is hiding something, they act like a bunch of rabid vultures. I swear, the next time someone says something
about Lex I’m going to take their head off.”
Chloe jumped as Clark
slammed a fist into his palm with enough force to sound like he’d put a hole
through the wall.
“Uh, Clark? Settle down, okay? They’re just kids, it doesn’t matter what
they think. And violence is really not
the answer.”
Clark sagged a bit. “I know, it just makes me sick. They don’t know Lex. They don’t know how good he’s been to me and
to a lot of people in this town. He’s
worth more than all of them put together.
Lex is the best person I know!”
Chloe looked at him
speculatively and Clark realized that he may have said too much.
“So, Kent, is there
something you want to tell me?”
“No. Well.
It’s just that everyone assumes that certain things have been happening
between Lex and me, but they haven’t.
Not that, I guess, I would mind if they were. It’s just no one’s fucking business!”
The blonde girl’s mouth
flapped a couple of times as she searched for a response to that bombshell and
the un-Clarklike language, but she was saved by the arrival of two more of
their friends.
With Lana beside him, Pete
strode up to Clark and slapped him on the back.
“How you doin’ buddy? If you need anyone to run interference
between you and the ravening hoards, you can count on us, man. As if anyone could really believe that crap
about you and Luthor.”
Lana concurred,
“Yeah. We know that you would never do
anything disgusting like they’re saying.
You have our total support, Clark.”
Chloe began rather
obviously shaking her head and making ‘stop talking’ signals, but the two
friends were clearly on a mission. As Clark grew still and straightened to his
full height, Pete went on.
“I knew it was going to
come to no good hanging around with Luthor.
At least now he’ll probably be leaving town. I know you’re disappointed, Clarkbar, but
it’s probably for the best. The guy was
seriously deranged.”
Frowning prettily, Lana
worried, “I just hope that all this won’t affect the Talon. There was no way I could have known what Lex
was really like. I mean, I knew he used
to be kind of wild with girls, but there was so much more. He seems so normal when you talk to him.”
Clearly trying to avoid a
Clark-explosion, Chloe interrupted before Pete could start again.
“Guys! Hey, maybe we should change the subject. Clark’s been having a tough enough day
without talking about it any more. What
about that history quiz, huh? That
Jefferson Davis question really came out of left field. That was only in the book, we didn’t talk
about it in class.”
Lana seemed to really look
at Clark for the first time.
“Clark, are you all
right? Is there anything I can do?”
When he answered, Clark’s
voice was unusually tight and controlled, making his three friends take note.
“You can stop talking
about Lex like that. He’s my best
friend,” he glared at each of them meaningfully, “and anything you say about
him you say about me.”
Pete just couldn’t take a
hint.
“Man, I know you were
tight with Luthor, but we’ve been your friends since, like, forever. We’re just worried about you.”
“Lex. His name is Lex, not Luthor, and I’m standing
by him. You don’t know anything about
what’s been happening, so if you want to remain my friends you should just shut
up.”
Chloe ventured
tentatively, “Clark, you have to admit, it looks bad.”
“Looks can be
deceiving. And besides, if someone was
spreading lies about any of you, would you want me to turn my back on you? No, so don’t expect it now.”
Lana looked confused. “Are you saying that what was in those
pictures wasn’t true?”
“Some of it was, but it
happened a long time ago. Other parts
were just lies invented by Lex’s father to try to get LexCorp away from
him. But you had to jump on the
bandwagon and judge him right along with everyone else. And after everything he’s done for each of
you.”
Pete’s worried expression
deepened. “We saw the pictures. That was
some seriously scary stuff.”
Clark challenged, “Who are
you going to believe, them or me? You’re
going to have to decide whether you trust me or not. Let me know when you do.”
He walked out of the room
feeling sad and empty. Chloe ran after
him calling, “Clark! Wait!” but he
outdistanced her easily heading for the gym.
He hoped his friends would come around; he didn’t want to lose them. There was no way to explain how important Lex
was to him, would be for the rest of his life.
He wanted to tell the whole world how he felt, but it was yet another
thing he had to hide.
He hoped Lex was having a
good day. Clark thought about the older
boy’s eyes, the sexy cords of muscle where his neck met the irregular surface
of his scull, and blocked out everything else.
For the moment, it was enough.
~~*~~
A couple of days later, it
was about eleven in the evening when Lex locked the door to the Talon behind
him. Things were still tense and he
spent all his waking hours dealing with one crisis after another, and even his
coffee shop ‘hobby’ business had its pressing needs. He could only put off signing checks so long
before suppliers started complaining.
The last thing he needed to hear was, ‘Yeah, and he doesn’t pay his
bills, either.’ Thus the undignified
sneaking in after hours.
Smallville was generally
home and in bed by 10pm, so the dark street was empty. He knew he was going to have to start showing
his face in town soon, but another couple days of discretion wouldn’t hurt.
Lex pressed the button on
his keychain to unlock the doors of his silver Porsche, then stopped abruptly
when he got a look at the driver’s side door.
Scrawled in black spray paint was the word, ‘PERVERT.’ Cold fury tightened his chest and he cursed
the vandal.
Looking around sharply,
Lex caught a movement down the street, a figure darting around the corner into
the alley. Even as part of him knew it
was stupid, he took off running. Several
steps into the alley he stopped, seeing no one.
Lex called, “If you have
something to say to me, say it to my face.
Or are you too much of a coward?”
A man stepped out of the
shadows. He was of average height and
slight. Lex thought he might have seen
him before, but couldn’t place the face.
Judging by the way he was dressed in business casual, he could have been
a bank teller or grocery store manager.
The man said, “You’re the
coward, hiding behind your money instead of paying for what you’ve done.”
“I haven’t done anything.”
The man walked slowly
toward Lex, looking angry but unthreatening, empty hands in plain sight.
“You would think
that sexually abusing children is nothing.
You aren’t going to get away with it.
I’ll see to that personally.”
“I never hurt a child. That was a false…”
The stranger cut him off,
“I don’t want to hear your lies!”
He reached out a hand and
touched Lex’s chest, and his whole body exploded in pain. He’d forgotten how deceiving looks could be
in Smallville.
~~**~~
Clark was glad to see
Lex’s car there when he parked in front of the Talon. He hadn’t wanted to miss this chance to see
his friend. The shop was dark, though. He quickly checked the building with his
x-ray vision and confirmed that nobody was inside.
Scanning the street, he
spotted two skeletons in the alley, standing close together. He’d checked Lex out so many times that he
could pick that particular frame out of a lineup.
He sped around the corner
to find a small man holding Lex against the wall with one hand on his chest, a
faint green glow outlining the fingers.
Lex was writhing in agony, unable to defend himself.
It was almost a
relief. Clark had felt like a bumbling
incompetent trying to help Lex through his personal and emotional wreckage. Now, a mutant, on the other hand, that was
his area of expertise!
Clark shouted, “Stop! Let him go!”
The attacker took his hand
away and Lex collapsed to the ground, panting for breath.
The man, whom Clark
recognized as Mr. Lincoln, said, “Stay out of this, son. This man is going to get what he deserves for
hurting children.”
“Lex is innocent, Mr.
Lincoln. You have to believe me.”
“I know about your
relationship with him, Clark, and you don’t have to lie any more. He won’t hurt you again. Any threats he made toward you or your family
to keep you from talking are meaningless.”
“No, Lex never threatened
me! I mean it, he didn’t do anything
wrong.”
Lincoln shook his head
sadly. “We’ll get you help when this is
all over. I’m doing this for you and
everyone else he’s molested.”
When he reached toward Lex
again, Clark sprang forward. “I won’t
let you hurt him!”
Grabbing the man, Clark
expected to fling him across the alley like he usually did. This time, however, Lincoln’s hand on his
shoulder sent him to his knees.
“I don’t want to hurt you,
Clark. Don’t interfere.”
Feeling like every cell in
his body was exploding, like what happened to his blood around meteor rocks but
worse, he managed to moan, “No!”
A car’s headlights cut
into the alley and Lincoln stepped back.
Turning, he ran into the shadows, calling, “This isn’t over!”
As the light faded Clark
dropped forward onto his hands, then lowered his head to the ground fighting
back nausea. The pain and weakness were
receding, but only slowly. After a
moment, he became aware of a comforting hand stroking his back and hair.
“Clark, are you all
right? Babe, talk to me.”
He lifted his head. “Babe?”
Lex chuckled. “Sweetheart, stud muffin, whatever. Are you okay?”
Finally able to sit up,
Clark looked at Lex. The other man was
pale and shaken, but seemed a lot better than Clark felt.
“I’m okay. I’m just not used to… Things don’t usually hurt me.”
Lex nodded. He helped Clark walk a few steps and then
they sat with their backs against the brick wall, shoulders touching.
“I know I should have
expected you to show up in the nick of time to save me once again from a
homicidal maniac, but what are you doing here?”
“Lana told me you were
coming in to the Talon late. I haven’t
seen you in a couple of days and wanted to catch you alone. I wish you had been alone.”
“Who was that guy?”
“Mr. Lincoln. He runs the local child abuse prevention
agency. He gave a talk to my fifth grade
class.”
“I guess he does more than
talk.”
It made sense. It seemed like anyone even suspected of child
abuse moved away from Smallville.
Apparently it was more than good karma.
“Lex, we have to call the
police. He could come after you again,
and…this time, I don’t know if I can protect you.”
Lex rubbed a hand up and
down Clark’s thigh, which seemed to make him feel totally better almost
instantly, or at least forget about the lingering discomfort.
“Yeah, we should call the
police. While I don’t disagree with the
man’s sentiments, I do object when they’re applied in error and to me. And I don’t want you caught in the middle.”
Clark felt fine now, but
was in no hurry to go. It was so good to
just sit there next to Lex for a while.
Judging by his lack of movement, it seemed that Lex had the same idea.
After a moment Lex asked,
“So how is Ms. Lang? Is she mortified
to have a known deviant for a business partner?”
Clark shifted a bit
uneasily. “She was not very
understanding at first, but she’s coming around. I guess she knows that you wouldn’t hurt me,
at least.”
“You’re the best PR I
could have. No one could doubt your
sincerity. I’m lucky to have you, and
not just for that.”
Feeling warm and happy
that Lex still liked him, Clark threaded his finger’s through the ones on his
thigh. They sat in the alley for several
more minutes before forcing themselves to get up and go to the police station
to report yet another dangerous mutant on the loose.
~~**~~
The next day was Saturday,
and Clark’s parents were wise enough not to object when he insisted on going to
Lex’s house after his chores were done.
Their attacker from the night before had yet to be found, and this
threat along with everything else had him worried beyond his ability to stay
away. He was pleased to notice extra
security at the gate and in the house.
Clark found Lex in the
office, as usual, looking more like his old self. Confident, smoothly sensual and
determined. The way the black slacks and
lavender shirt clung to his body made Clark itch to see what was
underneath. He joined his friend by the
windows.
“Lex! How are things?”
“Hi, Clark. Everything’s under control for the time
being.”
“The business stuff?”
“Holding its own. I had several resignations at the plant, but
no one I couldn’t replace. I’ve offered
our customers substantial discounts for their continued patronage, and money
seems to be a greater motivator than morality in most cases. What a surprise.” Lex’s mouth quirked into his normal
understated grin. “It’s going to be
tough for a while, but LexCorp may just pull though.”
That was good news. Lex had even more to share.
“I’ve answered questions
for the police until I’m blue in the face and they so far agree that there’s
nothing they can press charges on. All
but the most disreputable tabloid press have moved on to other things. My father has been conspicuous in his
absence, which is in itself worrying, but I won’t look a gift horse in the
mouth. Maybe he realized that he went a
little bit too far this time.”
“That’s great. I’m glad things are working out.” Clark didn’t really want to ask, but he did
really want to know, “And what about Helen?
Will she be coming back?”
Lex’s face darkened and
then blanked into an impassive mask.
“Things were never easy between Helen and myself, Clark. We were constantly in a state of negotiating
our relationship and the recent public revelations were something of a
deal-breaker. I’m not sorry,
though. It isn’t really Helen that I
want. You know that now.”
Clark struggled to keep a
smile from taking over his entire face and took a step toward Lex.
“Lex,…”
The other man stopped him
with a raised hand. “Not yet,
Clark. Not yet.”
“But soon, right?”
Lex’s face softened into
open affection and he touched Clark’s chest gently. “Yes, soon.”
The moment was broken by a
strangled cry of alarm in the hallway.
Both young men looked toward the door, instantly on guard. Hurrying over, they stepped into the hall to
find Lincoln down the corridor holding a writhing guard by the throat.
Clark gasped, “How did he
get in here?”
As the man dropped the
guard and started toward them Lex answered, “I don’t know, but let’s get out of
here!”
They sprinted around the
corner and out a door into the garden. Lex
clutched Clark’s shirt sleeve briefly and tugged.
“This way!”
Just as Lincoln banged the
door open, they took off running along the same path they had followed that
clear night before all this had started.
Looking back, one moment the mutant was there and the next he was
gone. Since they didn’t know if the man
was still after them, they kept running.
When they reached the
pond, Clark noticed that the ice was melted around the edges. He spared a moment to wonder if the mutant
freezing effects had lingered after Sean’s death, but were now starting to
weaken. One less reminder of the
devastation wrought by the meteor fall that had accompanied his arrival on
Earth would be welcome.
As Lex jogged backward to
see if anyone was following them, Clark eyed him surreptitiously, weighing the
pros and cons of picking Lex up and speeding him to safety.
Perhaps his thoughts
weren’t as hidden as he intended, because Lex glanced at him and then did a
double-take. Pointing a finger at Clark,
he warned, “Don’t even think it. Just
keep running. We’ll lose him in the
forest.”
He could go with that plan
for the time being, but he wouldn’t let Lex get hurt, even if it meant
revealing more than he wanted to. His
secret wasn’t worth Lex’s life, especially now that he was allowing Clark
farther into it.
As they climbed the hill
toward the access road, Lex veered off into the trees with Clark right behind
him. They continued ascending carefully,
not wanting to leave an easy trail to follow.
Near the top they squatted down to rest and to listen for pursuit.
Not hearing anything,
Clark relaxed a little bit. Mr. Lincoln
was no athlete, so he may have given up.
Someone at the mansion was bound to have called the police by now, so
they only had to wait a while and head back to the house.
He knew he’d jumped the
gun with that assumption when Lex, who had been in the process of dialing his
cell phone, suddenly looked over Clark’s shoulder, eyes widening. Clark stood and spun around, but the mutant
was right behind him and shoved him before he could react.
Stunned by the flash of
pain, Clark flew across the glade and impacted with a solid tree trunk. When his vision cleared, Lex was struggling
with Lincoln, the two men grasping each other’s arms and wrestling desperately. Lex was clearly in agony, but he wouldn’t
give up. Not Lex. He would fight until the last scrap of life
had left his body, and then some.
Clark staggered to his
feet, then shouted, “Mr. Lincoln! I’m
warning you to let him go.”
The smaller man flung Lex
to the ground and turned on Clark.
“Enough! You have to stop
interfering.”
When Lincoln started
toward him, Clark tried to use his speed to avoid the touch, but found his
reactions lethargic. He stumbled over a
root and sprawled onto the ground, where he was pressed into the soil with one
hand on his back.
The pain was beyond
anything he could comprehend. He
couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t think or
move. It felt like his body was
disintegrating while his consciousness looked on impotently. He was dying, there was no doubt about
that. As even his awareness began to
darken, he was filled with regret. He
didn’t want to die this way. He didn’t
want to leave his parents or Lana, Pete and Chloe. Or Lex.
Lex…
~~**~~
Lex pulled himself to his
knees shakily and looked up to see Lincoln crouching beside Clark’s prone
body. The boy was trembling violently as
if in a seizure, and it scared Lex to death.
Clark was the strong one, the heroic protector, but more than that, Lex
loved him. He wouldn’t allow anyone to
hurt his friend. Lex knew he couldn’t
live without him, not in any meaningful way, and he wasn’t about to try.
Stumbling to his feet, he
scanned the area for a weapon, nearly tripping over a fallen branch. Lex grabbed the branch and lurched toward the
enemy. With a roar of anger that boiled
up from deep in his chest, he swung the heavy end toward Lincoln with perhaps
more force than strictly necessary. The
wood contacted the side of the man’s head and knocked him several feet.
After making sure the
mutant would stay down, including noting the small pool of blood forming under
the man’s head, Lex dropped beside Clark and pulled him over onto his
back. His hands on the beloved face and
solid chest, he nearly panicked to find the boy not breathing.
“Clark! Come on, Clark! Don’t do this. Not now!”
Force of will battling
hysteria, he ran through first-aid basics.
Position head and neck. Check
airway. Pinch nostrils. Open mouth.
Breathe deep. Press lips to form
seal. Blow. He added prayer and pleading for Clark to
revive.
After three breaths Clark
gasped and groaned, and Lex collapsed onto his chest, shaking with relief. He wrapped the larger body in his arms as
firmly as he was able, and rocked gently.
Rocking them both for comfort and connection.
“God, Clark, you scared
me. You’re a fucking idiot, you know
that? Don’t ever put yourself at risk
for me. Don’t ever put me through this
again.”
Clark moaned slightly
against his neck, and when Lex pulled back to look at his face, the eyelids
were barely fluttering. Clark was still
sick.
Straightening up and
taking a deep breath, Lex got himself under control again. No time to fall apart yet. He located his cell phone under some
disturbed leaves and began to dial 911, then stopped and hit the speed-dial
button for the Kent farmhouse. It seemed
to ring forever.
“Come on, answer the
goddamn phone!”
Finally, Jonathan Kent’s
voice, sounding out of breath, come on the line.
“Kent residence.”
“Mr. Kent, it’s Lex
Luthor.”
“Hello, Lex. Isn’t…”
“Listen, Mr. Kent. Clark and I were attacked by someone with
special abilities.”
“The guy from last night?”
“Yes, please listen. Clark is hurt. I need you to come and get him. Drive on the access road in the state park
behind my estate. I’ll try to get him to
the road or leave a signal where to stop.”
“Good god. Lex, is Clark all right?”
“I think he will be, but
he’s in bad shape. Hurry.”
He snapped the phone shut
and tried to rouse Clark.
“Wake up, my friend. Daddy’s coming to take you home.”
Clark could barely slur,
“Lex?”
“I’m here. It’s going to be all right. I need to get you up.”
It wasn’t easy for Lex to
get a groggy six foot three of solid muscle onto its feet, and ended up
carrying most of Clark’s weight himself.
He struggled up the hill under the back-breaking load, with the
determination that he had to do this. He
had to get Clark to safety if it was the last thing he did.
Finally the gravel surface
came into sight. He practically dropped
Clark into the grass behind a bush and collapsed next to him, panting. Clark’s eyes were focusing on him now, but
the boy still couldn’t seem to speak or move much on his own.
“It’s going to be okay,
Clark. Everything’s going to be fine, I
promise.”
Those big green eyes held
him, and the tousled head nodded. Lex
couldn’t stop himself from leaning down to plant a quick kiss on the perfect
nose.
Hearing a rumbling, Lex
looked up to see the Kent’s red truck trundling along the road. With a last pat on Clark’s shoulder, Lex
staggered onto the road just as the truck came abreast.
The doors opened and
Jonathan and Martha Kent poured out with a speed that rivaled Clark’s own. Lex didn’t wait for them to greet him or
fuss.
“He’s over here.”
After leading the pair to
their son, Lex stood back as they checked over his body and prodded him with
questions. Clark was able to say a few
reassuring words and move his arms and legs on command. The parents between them hoisted the tall boy
to his feet and maneuvered him to the truck.
When Clark and Martha were
safely settled in the cab, Jonathan closed the door and moved toward the
driver’s side. He suddenly stopped and
looked at Lex, who was still standing somewhat forlornly in the weeds.
Jonathan said, “We saw that
there were police at the mansion when we drove by.”
“Good. Once you’ve gone I’ll call and they can be
here within minutes. I’m sure they’ll
want to speak to Clark, but I didn’t want them to see him like this. They might have insisted he go to the hospital.”
Lex met Jonathan’s eyes
and saw several emotions pass across the older man’s face. Fear, anger, astonishment, and finally
something like acceptance.
Jonathan nodded. He started for the truck and turned back once
again.
“That guy really hurt Clark. What about you? Are you all right?”
“He got me too, but it
seems to be much worse for Clark for some reason. I’ll be fine.”
“Thank you for taking care
of my son.”
Lex didn’t have a lot of
experience responding to sincere gratitude.
He nodded and said, “I’m…happy to.”
As he watched the truck
pull away, knocking small puffs of dust into the air, he dialed the
police. Soon he was leading the sheriff
into the woods, back to an unconscious body and some serious explaining.
~~**~~
Things had been quiet
lately. Seeing their son incapacitated
again so soon after the spoor illness had shaken Jonathan and his wife to the
core, but true to form the boy had recovered completely within an hour. They speculated that something about Lincoln’s
meteor rock induced mutation interacted especially intensely with Clark’s
physiology. That was as close to losing
him as Jonathan ever wanted to come.
Now, several days later,
things seemed to be getting back to normal.
It was with trepidation that Jonathan had entered the feed store,
prepared to endure more looks and comments.
Instead, Gordy had barely spared a, “Mornin’, Jonathan,” for him. He and several other men had their heads
together over the counter. Jonathan
didn’t need special hearing to learn that Phil Berber’s wife had run away with
a waiter from the Wild Coyote, and that the pair were now living in sin in
Metropolis.
Apparently Lex Luthor was
old news. Jonathan shook his head and
speculated that in Smallville attention deficit disorder was probably a
survival skill.
Driving home, his thoughts
led him again to Lex Luthor. He still
had an uneasy feeling about his association with Clark. All he had to do was remember them sitting on
the floor of mansion office, Clark’s arms around a bleeding Lex, to know
exactly why. The billionaire had been
important to his son since they met, but he was afraid that lately it had
become something more. While Jonathan
was ready to admit that Lex wasn’t such a bad guy, he was certainly not ready
for any kind of, he shuddered, intimate relationship between them. He, at least, had not forgotten those
disturbing photos.
Clark had never been easy,
and it would be unreasonable to expect that to change now, but darn it,
couldn’t the boy have stuck with his fixation on Lana Lang? There was no one safer in the world than her,
especially since they never seemed to get past first base.
Jonathan would just have
to be vigilant, reasonable, fatherly. If
only he were more confident of being able to protect Clark from himself. He wasn’t a little boy anymore.
~~**~~
With his parents at an
auction for the rest of the day, Clark was spending his time brooding in the
Fortress of Solitude. He was lying on
the couch thinking about his favorite subject, a young man with the initials
L.L. Lex had told him to come back when
things were resolved and returned to normal, but how the heck was he supposed
to recognize normal? There wasn’t even
one thing in Clark’s life that approached normal, especially not the person who
had his heart.
There wasn’t anyone he
could ask, either. Chloe was starting to
get that look she used to have about Lana every time he mentioned Lex. Lana was going out of her way to say nice
things about their mutual friend and casting him nervous glances, as though she
wanted to see if it would make Clark like her more. Girls were so strange.
Pete had never cared for
Lex, and that hadn’t changed, but he did seem to get it that something was
different. Clark wasn’t looking forward
to telling his oldest friend just how true that was. How much weirdness could he expect Pete to be
able to handle?
And Lex himself? What if his admission of attraction to Clark
had been part of his temporary vulnerability?
It was so hard to tell what he really meant. Lex used the same slightly bemused, aloof
tone for just about everything, which made it difficult to get all the subtext
of his words. What if he’d thought
about it and decided it wasn’t worth the hassle of trying to have a
relationship with a teenage kid?
Clark pursed his lips and
scowled at the ceiling in irritation.
“Why the sour face,
Clark? Have dairy futures dropped?”
Clark leapt to his feet, a
wide smile now stretching his cheeks.
“Lex! You came!”
“So I have. I thought maybe it was time we had a talk
about where our friendship might go from here.”
Lex was wearing that
gorgeous long-sleeved gray wool sweater that made Clark want to rub his face
against it.
“You haven’t changed your
mind, have you? I still want what we
said, to be together.”
“I haven’t changed my
mind.” Lex looked slightly sad. “I just don’t want to ruin everything between
us. Your friendship is that important to
me.”
“I’m glad, and I don’t
think anything will get ruined. I think
it’ll be great.”
Especially when he got a
chance to trace those shoulder blades and collarbones with his tongue.
“In that case,” he assumed
his executive persona and strode toward the window, “let’s establish the
acceptable parameters.”
“Lex,” Clark whined, “this
is just us, not a multi-million dollar contract.”
“We are much more valuable
than a big business deal. I meant what I
said about wanting to do this right.
Please understand, Clark. You saw
the pictures of what it was like for me when I was young, and there’s more you
don’t know. I’ve never been with anyone
when it wasn’t about one of us using the other.
I even married a woman who was already plotting to kill me, and wouldn’t
be that surprised if Helen had planned something similar. I don’t have great experience with having the
type of relationship I want to have with you.
I need to take it slowly.”
Clark could understand
that. For him it would be a new and
wonderful adventure, but for Lex it must be like crossing a mine field.
“Okay. That’s all right with me as long as you’re
honest about what’s going on.”
“I plan to be. And with your parents as well.”
“My parents?” Clark gulped.
“What do they have to do with it?”
“Doing it right means no
secrets from your parents. They deserve
better than that. I’m going to sit down
with them and ask for permission to date you.
Discreetly, of course.”
This didn’t sound so good.
“Are you serious? Nobody does that anymore.”
“This isn’t a normal
situation. For one thing they know quite
a bit more about me than parents usually would.
They’re bound to have concerns and I want to assuage that. There’s also the age difference and the fact
that we’re the same sex. If I wanted to
go out with a sixteen year old girl, I would need her parents’ permission. The fact that you’re a boy makes it even more
complicated.”
“I see what you mean, and
I don’t want to lie to them either, but they’re not going to be easy to
convince. The ironic thing that came out
of this whole mess, though, is that my father seems to have developed new
respect for you.”
“That is bizarre,” but Lex
looked pleased. “They will agree
eventually, I can be very persuasive. I
want to reassure them that sexually, we’re going to take it slowly.”
Clark couldn’t quite swallow.
“You’re going to talk to
my parents about our sex life?”
“In general terms,
yes. They need to know that I won’t be
rushing you into anything.”
“But Lex, what if I want
to rush?” He stepped into Lex’s space so
that he could feel his new boyfriend’s body heat. The erection that just being around this man
provoked was becoming painful.
Laughing, Lex embraced
Clark and pulled him close.
“I said slow, not
stop. I don’t want your raging teenage
hormones to torture you needlessly.
There will be limits to how far we go, though.”
Clinging to Lex, Clark was
secretly relieved. While he knew he
wanted some kind of sex, he wasn’t ready for the whole having a cock up his
butt thing just yet. Might be something
to work up to.
Then Lex moved against him
and his body responded with driving need.
It occurred to him that there was no time like the present for testing
those limits.
Clark took a step back,
and stripped off restrictive clothes until he stood naked. Lex’s eyes threatened to pop out of his head
as he looked Clark up and down. That
reaction helped mitigate the extreme embarrassment of having another person
actually look at his body. He withstood
it because, he thought, no guts no glory.
“Holy
sweet mother of mercy. You’re so
beautiful, Clark. You’re perfect.”
“I’m
not perfect, but I want you so much. Do
you want me?”
Lex
met his eyes. “How the hell am I
supposed to resist this? Yes, I want
you. You wouldn’t, by any chance, be
having a small problem with your teenage hormones? I did say I would help with that.”
The
older man leaned forward and brushed his lips over Clark’s, then across his
cheek. He shivered when Lex whispered
into his ear, “I want you.”
Fists
clenched in restrained desire, he stood still and let Lex run smooth palms over
his exposed skin. He felt like such a
kid, but totally trusted Lex to take care of him. This was his first real, mutual sexual experience,
and he was in the hands of a master.
Lost in the sensation of
touch, Clark followed the path of the talented mouth as it worked its way down
his neck and across his chest. A light
touch to his left nipple shot a bolt of fire to his groin, and he arched
forward for more.
Warm breath caressed his
ear again as Lex murmured, “I’m going to make you feel so good, Clark.”
Oh, god. Oh, yes.
Please!
“Look at me, Clark.”
Opening eyes that he
hadn’t been aware of squeezing shut, he gasped at the look on Lex’s face,
cheeks flushed and pupil’s dilated with desire.
This was really happening. Lex
Luthor was making love to him.
Then Lex began to lower
himself to his knees, drawing Clark’s eyes down with his own. He thought he was going to explode with
excitement just to see Lex’s face near his upright erection. It got impossibly more intense when the other
man grasped Clark’s hips and sucked the head of his cock into a warm, wet
mouth.
Now all Clark’s need was
concentrated into that one place, a throbbing, pulsing pleasure beyond anything
he’d imagined. Lex bobbed forward and
back, taking his organ further in each time.
It was so good, so hot.
But Clark wanted more of
him involved than just that one place, amazing as it was. He wanted to touch Lex, feel their bodies
together. Like it had been that first
night in Lex’s bed. With a growl, he
pushed Lex’s shoulders away and flung him onto the couch, immediately followed
by himself.
Wasting no time, he
started to pull the sweater up the slender torso, but was stopped by firm
hands.
“No, Clark. Limits.
This is one of them.”
“But I want to touch you.”
“In time. Your wanton nudity is enough for now. Kiss me.”
Clark happily devoured
Lex’s mouth and began to rub himself against every bit of body he could
reach. The texture of fine wool and
linen against his sensitized skin was amazing.
And when he felt Lex’s erection beneath the cloth barrier, it nearly
blew his mind.
He wanted his own cock to
meet that hardness, and rocked his hips with firm thrusts along Lex’s
length. He moaned and pushed and bit and
writhed, needing so much. He took more
than he ever had from anyone, more than he was really comfortable with. He knew he should be gentler, but he felt
reckless and selfish and so fucking good.
Lex urged him on with
voice and hands, sounding free and open in his arousal.
“Clark! Yes!”
The sound vibrated into
Clark and with one final thrust he was coming.
As heat exploded behind his closed eyelids, he felt Lex grasp his hips
and pull him closer, just before he heard the strangled shout that accompanied
his lover’s orgasm. He nearly crowed
with triumph at having had sex with Lex and making the more experienced man cry
out loud.
The intensity of the
moment began to soften and Clark relaxed, half on top of the other man’s body
and half on the couch. He nuzzled Lex’s
cheek and was rewarded with a pair of warm lips on which to nibble. So good.
So right. He smiled as fingers
carded through his hair, trying to memorize every sensation in his body.
After a minute he raised
his head to look down at his lover.
Stroking Lex’s slightly sticky hip, Clark asked tentatively, “Are you
all right? Down here?”
“I may be a little bit
bruised.” At Clark’s wince, Lex
reassured, “But just a little bit. It’s
fine, really.” Then Lex teased, “Geez,
Clark, I don’t think I’ve ever felt anyone that hard. You’re like a steel bar.”
This was not heartening
for Clark to hear. “My body, Lex, it’s
different from other people’s. I could
hurt someone.”
“My lovely boy, hard is
not a bad thing. It’s very much a turn-on,
actually.”
“I’m serious! It’s one of the reason’s I’ve never been with
a girl. Just the thought of the damage I
could do to her internally. I was worried
just now, about you.”
Lex searched Clark’s
face. “Well, the male organ can be
used as a weapon to inflict pain. But
you would never do that.”
Clark whispered, “I
wouldn’t mean to.”
His friend touched his
cheek and asked thoughtfully, “This is something you’ve had to worry about all
your life, isn’t it? That you might hurt
someone without intending to?”
Scared to be talking about
this, Clark could only nod.
“And you’re not sure you
can maintain enough control during sex?”
Another nod.
“How about this,
then? We’ll work on it. We can practice and find out just how much
control you need to make love to someone safely, then practice some more until
it becomes second nature and you can relax.
It’s safe to do this with me, you know.
Robust constitution and all.”
Clark had to smile. “A guy doesn’t get an offer like that every
day! That would really be great.”
Lex went on, “And then
when you have more confidence, if you want to be with a woman, you can.”
Now smirking openly, Clark
teased, “Uh, hello? That isn’t going to
be an issue any more.”
Lex smiled back, seemingly
glad for the affirmation, but cautioned.
“You’re young still. You may
change your mind.”
“And I may not. Don’t teach me how to make love to a woman,
Lex. Teach me how to make love to you.”
The sort of melting, dazed
expression on Lex’s face made everything they’d been through to get there worth
it. The fact that Lex’s voice was choked
with emotion, happy emotion, as he managed to say, “Okay,” was equally
cherished.
Clark settled within a
strong embrace and Lex began to pet him tenderly, love flowing through his
fingertips. He felt there was nothing
that could happen that was so bad they couldn’t get through it together. And that was very good.
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