7.26.01
thursday.
gosh.
today is one of those days where i don't want to write an entry because i have so much to write about. there is so much racing through my mind at this moment that i have no idea where to start.
here's a brief outline of what's on my mind (and i don't mean JUST on my mind, i mean my mind has been utterly CONSUMED by these thoughts):
1. the gift and miracle of life (God giveth...)
2. the heart wrenching pains of death (God taketh away...)
3. the depth of love (i have to stop thinking about this sometimes because my mind feels like its going to burst)
4. hair (i got a hair cut - I LOVE IT - vidal sasson academy in santa monica - $17)
5. outer beauty vs. inner peace (hmm...i feel "outer ugly and inner non-peace". i think i'm doing something wrong, huh?)
6. money. why some have it and others don't. (do you realize how much it can alter your life?)
7. illness. cancer. dementia. aging.
8. working out. (um. hello. it doesn't matter that i don't drink or smoke. i'm gonna die of a fat overdose. 'nough said)
9. skin. (i saw this girl with the most incredibly milky white smooth creamy perfect pore-less touchable skin the other day. i wanted to cry...it was so beautiful. i keep thinking about wanting to fix my skin...like having a skin transplant for my face. a bit drastic, huh?)
10. in some way or another....my bf. i've been thinking about how he's so nice to me. how he does so much for me. how much he cares for me. i can't even begin to say all the things he's done for me because they're so freaking NICE! i don't think any of you can begin to imagine the things he does for me....(you'll be nauseated anyway)...yeah. he's been great :)
11. amazing grace. oh my goodness. the amazingness of the grace. so so amazing, isn't it? dang. amazing grace. how sweet the sound. that saved a freaking, no good, jacker, wretched sinner like me. i once was lost, and i still stray off the path sometimes, but now am found, (thank the Good Lord). was blind, and sometimes my vision gets cloudy again, but now i see (thank the Good Lord).
hi. my name is julia. i have an email address if you ever want to chat - [email protected]