7.24.01
tuesday
ok.
well i went to bible study for the first time at CMC. i think there were like 3 married couples and 2 dating couples and then me and mellanie. gosh. so me and mel were a pair. i think she was my girlfriend. or maybe i was the girlfriend (i was wearing pink) haha.
WARNING - BORING THOUGHT - not really much of a thought. most of it is just me complaining.
take note - philippians 2:14-15 - "do everything without complaining or arguing so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like starts in the universe" ok ok. so paul wasn't talking about annoying parents or icky tutoring but....yeah.
anyways, what i want to talk about today is parents. my mom has been making me do her homework for her and sometimes, it really infuriates me. she'll give it to me last minute and ask me to write things about subjects i don't know about. ok, ok. so i DID take a few music classes at berkeley, but STILL! i don't know the level of a grad student, you know? (my mom is in grad school for organ performance...i would tell you where but i'm scared that she'll get caught...you know, since i'm doing some of her homework) anyways, i know i should do it to help her but i mean...its just annoying because she gives me things to do at the MOST INOPPORTUNE times. in the middle of my tutoring session with a kid, she'll just walk in and say, "hold on a minute, can you just read over this for me? and its still on the other computer. can you go over and make all the corrections? i have to go to class soon" (in korean of course). and of COURSE the ENTIRE thing is RIDICULOUSLY not understandable. so i have to sit there while she explains what she was trying to say and then re-write the entire thing. so basically, its faster if i just read what she's supposed to read or watch what she's supposed to watch and then do the write up stuff myself.
BUT!!!!!!! english is hard for her. she can hardly speak the language or understand it. she should get a medal for all that she's accomplished so far! i don't even understand how she APPLIED to grad school. its bizarre. this is like her 3rd masters. i don't even have ONE. goodness. not only that, she does SOOOOOO much for me, the LEAST i could do is help her with her homework, right?
gosh. she's awesome. i respect and admire her more than any other human. she's freaking admirable. dang. she WHOOPS my butt in the perseverance department. thanks mom! thanks for allowing me to help you with your homework! (i only wish i could HONESTLY HONESTLY HONESTLY say this) aww. just about 20 minutes ago she came in here telling me to hurry with her write up cause its due tomorrow. i kinda got annoyed. who am i kidding? YES. I GOT ANNOYED. but just now...she came in and gave me two gwa-ja's (korean crackers) and told me that there are mango's (my favorite!) and yummy grapes and that i should eat them. see! she always does nice things for me.
and then i'm tutoring 2 kids for free, 6 hours a week (i already tutor 3 other kids - NOT BECAUSE I WANTED TO...but because my mom set it up for me). so i'm loosing at least $150 a week because she wanted me to tutor them for free (i could tutor other kids and GET PAID). their parents did my mom a favor or something. but then, why? why do i have to repay it with my time and effort? sadly, i DO understand why. which is why i'm just sucking it up for now. i didn't ask her to set me up with tutoring jobs. i hate tutoring.
i've been telling all my friends this but...have you ever noticed that the words TUTOR and TORTURE look alike?
well, its because they are the same thing.
don't get me wrong, its not all that bad. but...nevermind. i'll spare you the explainations.
so...i don't get to see my boyfriend that often. haha. where did that come from?
:) maybe because whenever i want to complain about something then i want to talk to him. how sad for him :) but i think he helps me by listening. because in the end, i DO realize that i'm just being a stupid head. so if you're reading, thanks for listening. i appreciate it.
EACH OF YOU SHOULD LOOK NOT ONLY TO YOUR OWN INTERESTS, BUT ALSO TO THE INTERESTS OF OTHERS!
haha. yes sir! phil 2:4.
weird entry, huh? maybe because its been a while.