7.22.01

Sunday night

so. i am no longer single. i guess i haven't been for about 2 months now. 

i guess since may 22. or june 1. 

why, do you ask, have i not mentioned this? because of gossip.

a wretched thing that has recently plagued the burgeoning relationship of two of my friends (plagued??? burgeoning??? i just read the sequel to bridget jones's diary and i feel like talking all hoity-toity english-like). i saw it happen to them and i didn't want the same thing to happen to me and my fellow. unnecessary discussion of topics that in no way involve outside people's opinions (save close friends/family)

so please...avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly,  and a gossip betrays a confidence; so avoid a man who talks too much...

what on earth am i trying to say you ask? well, i'm not too sure. hmm...yeah. so. if you wanna know who my new fellow is...drop me a line! we have a really cute, romantic story. i'm very happy. its REALLY weird though. today at church some one said, so, do you have a boyfriend? and EWW! it was so bizarre for me to - for the first time in my life - say, yes i do. AAAAHHHHH! haha. its quite an exhilarating feeling.

since i'm going to a new church, i have this weird confidence...its okay if nobody talks to me! its okay if i'm a big fat loner! its okay if i'm the fattest, ugliest, unapproachable girl there! (NO. this is not how i think at church...its just something that FLASHES through my head when i HAVE to meet all new people - you know, typical insecurities when you know nobody). hee hee. besides the fact that i have the loveliest closest girlfriends anyone could possibly want, i also have a boy who is quite fond of me as well!  (oh my goodness, bridget jones has affected my speaking) sadly, i should always have this confidence, after all, Jesus loves me. this i know. for the bible tells me so.

and now - question number two - why have i reinstated my thoughts? because no one else seems to be doing them anymore. i didn't like how people thought it was a fad or the "thing to do"...it just started getting weird. i felt like people started assuming "contemplation" personalities, although probably not to that degree...i have no idea what i'm talking about actually. i'm really entertained by a lot of your thoughts. but i also agree with Grace's thought one day where it gets weird when people start demanding that you update. its like saying, "I command you to think and to type it so i can read it!!!"  also, no one seems to be going to my webpage anymore. so i feel less threatened by the possibility that someone i DON'T know very well will come here. so yeah! ok. bye!

(in case you were wondering...2 tim 2:16, prov 20:19.)