I never thought I had the grace of God. I thought I would rot with not one love. I thought he may have another plan for me above. So push came to shove and I just gave way. I did not mean to betray but that day I had nothing I could say that could change the way it hit me and turned my skies gray. All I hear is change, it is strange how it came from all who I knew. I asked what to do� but no reply and when I looked to the sky there was nothing. When I would sing, �give me a sign, just one ring.� Still there was not one thing. I feel so dumb� what is to come? Please, stop the numb. I am feeling lame and all the same I feel antsy. I wish I had a chance to see into the future. But would I only see a loser. I want to see if I chose her� I think I could not bare if I lose her. There is something I need. I have always needed to succeed. Yet I have no greed. I cannot explain, but maybe it seems plain. I just do not know. At times I feel so low. But of late, I can really state that it seems my life may turn around. I love the way that sounds. So I bend to the ground, I look to God, and thank him for bringing Kim. My heart has been torn apart, but it looks like a new start. Now I must confess about how I have been blessed. I made one mess, but she is the greatest. She showed her best and forgave me. I think she saved me. It was fate and now I cannot wait until I get to hold her in my arms. She fell for my charms and I fell for her, but she is more of a cure. One that I am sure I cannot get enough of. So I am going to look up above once more to ask for a lot more. I may be asking for a lot, but I have put in a lot of thought� I know she has sought it out too. So I am just asking him to do for me something that will be done for she and if he could just make her happy� I would not care if he slapped me. If he would see the way I feel I know he would see what was real. I think he would close the deal. It still seems so surreal. It is no stunt and it is exactly what I want. Her and me as I prefer.
Wow! Look at me now. Look at this smile; like I just got off trial, but I just got off the phone. If you had only known how I searched the world and found this girl. No, she is something more. Someone I adore. I never want to sadden her, but satin and fur or a daisy flower if I do, but it�s true I don�t want to. And if I get lazy; here comes another daisy. As I listen to her song, I start missing her all along. But I got to stay strong. When matters start pressing and I start stressing I know I can turn to her. I know she will be the cure. This maybe a mouthful, but it�s truthful. I can�t wait for Crazy Beautiful. At night I dream of you in my arms, but then the clock alarms. I want to cry, but then think why. And then I can�t wait until when I get to see the one I�m falling for and would never ignore. I look into my heart and I see pain each day we wait apart. But let me state things so they stay straight. This pain doesn�t compare to being bare. This one I can bare and once I am there, with you, it will be gone. And from dusk to dawn I will pray for that day to come quicker and for our relationship to grow thicker. I know your favorite color is blue, it�s mine too. It�s true, but believe me only if you want to. We started talking on the 25th, but I can�t wait until December 5th. And each one that I can spend with you under the sun. Each one I can see you rise. Each one we see the sun rise. Each one I give you a surprise. Just recognize these feelings. Just understand these things that I do for you. I think I found something you�ll love. I just hope you don�t shove it back in my face. But I don�t see any trace of that happening. But that�s saddening and I don�t think I need to worry about that. As a matter of fact, I don�t think that I ever will. That�s my biggest thrill. I have great happiness about how I�ve been blessed.
I�m going to bed early so I can surely wake for this sweet girlie. I miss her and just wish to kiss her; everyday and every night. But I swear it�s no fight and it feels right doing things this way. But I better see her by next May and I�ve just got to say that each day I feel her in my heart even though we are so far apart, but really we are not, because I like her a lot and I�ve got her inside so it�s just like she is by my side. Each waking moment there�s no way I couldn�t think about her. Sometimes life seems like a blur, but I�m sure that there is no other girl I would prefer to show me direction. She�s already been my inspiration. Now I want to show the nation the way things can be. I want them all to see how happy she has made me. How happy she will keep my heart which is off the charts. Don�t make me start. I will go on for days about the ways she makes me feel. I desire her more then a meal and if you know me I like to eat. But she�s been a better treat. I don�t hurt or feel burnt. I haven�t had heart burn for a while so I�m going to keep this smile. I want to tell the truth. I�ve got a sweet tooth and she�s what I need, so I�m going to keep the greed.
Oh, my God!! Thank you for what I finally got. For what I thought I would never find. I was going out of my mind looking for what I need. Now I have found it and I�m going to be greedy and keep what I�m needing. I�ve always been thankful and now my life is beautiful. It feels full. I�m always watching movies and wishing them to be of me. I wish I was the one that wakes up to the sun on one side and the love of another on my other side. I�ve lived a life of dreams and it finally seems that one is coming true. But I�m at a loss as what to do. I do know I�m going to go out and be grateful for each and everyday that my life stays full. Nothing cruel and nothing mean can tear me away from this dream. I�m cursed of always falling first, but this time I know we fell together. It makes things better. I�ll put it in a letter. I�ll put it in the mail. I�ll put it in brail. Somehow I know you�ll know what I�m trying to say and I pray the day that we look into each others eyes and recognize what lies beneath and can be told through our teeth. You�ve taught me not to be scared of the things I�ve bared. Thanks for being there� I hope to come soon and can�t wait for the date.
I never want to tease you. I only want to please you as much as I can. I want to give you a hand when you�re in trouble. I want to pick you up when you stumble. I never want to hurt you. I never want you to be in pain. The second you complain I want to be the one to fix things. I want to buy you things. I want to take care of you. I want to make everything fair for you. I want to tell you everyday the way you make me feel. It�s working to stop the hurting. You fill a hole that�s been missing. I hope you�re really listening. I am knowing that the way things are going I will be the happiest man forever. I know things have gotten a lot better and I�ve still got the best part coming. You want to know something? The best part of me is you. You�re my glue keeping me true. You help me get through a lot more then you knew. Please, just agree to stay with me and see who I and we can be. You make me happy. You make me feel free. You give me what I need and I want to do you the same. It�s going to be my only aim. I want to turn your crappiest days into your happiest days. In many ways I want to make you feel your worth. I want to unearth your every desire. I want to bring you all you require. I hope I can fulfill them all. On your every call I want to be there for you. I completely adore you. I will never ignore you. I want to open every door for you. I want to always look toward you. I want to stop all wars for you. I want more of you.
Ok, another day that�s going the same kind of way. It�s the usual; I get to talk to the same someone special. It�s crucial that I get my nightly conversation. They help me against aggression. They help me against irritation. She helps me. Gee golly. She makes me pretty happy. I like that. She likes that. People are starting to notice that. So how about that? But to be exact, it�s a fact that I don�t care what they really think. It would stink if I really cared. I wouldn�t dare to give this up for another�s disagreement. They�ve got me bent if they think all I�ve sent was wrong. I don�t care how long they think this will last. I think it will last past all when they call it to fall. I think it will last long and we grow strong with each passing day in each passing way with all we say. I want us and you once said believe in us� I do for sure. I think we got something pure. You�ve got an allure that I can�t deny and if I ever tried I would only cry, because I couldn�t bare what I was doing. It wouldn�t be fair what I was doing. It would scare me what I was doing. And I would only be screwing my own desires. I would only grow tired of missing what I wish I was I still had. I�d only feel bad. I would only feel sad. But I�m glad that�s not how it�s had to be. You are still with me. I wish it we can leave it to be always. I like you more and more in so many ways all the days that I have known you. I�ve grown closer to you. I need to get closer to you. I need more of you too. The things you say just yesterday I already feel. I�m positive it�s real. I�m going to reel you into my heart. This is only a start, but every part I hope to keep us from splitting apart.
I wish you could look into my eyes right now, so that you could realize things are alright now. It�s ok, I�m still going to love you today. It�s my way. It takes a lot to bring me down. I don�t bare the frown. Even when I�ve lost my crown, but since you came around I�ve been even higher. I never tire of you. It�s too true that I need you. The things you do make me go crazy. My heart�s been hazy but you cleared things up and I can�t say enough to let you know how good you make me feel. We both reeled in and now I feel real inside. It�s hard to hide. It�s hard to believe with the things I achieve the way I�ve been treated, but I wasn�t defeated and none of it mattered once you came to see who I could be. You know me and you like what you see. I have to agree that I like what I see in this woman that did something common. Forgive and forget are the words that fit. It�s ok baby, you are still the best lady. Don�t cry baby and try maybe to forgive yourself and I will help. Think twice and realize how nice you�ve been and again, how great you are. I would be far from right if this very night I didn�t try with little might to forgive you for this little thing. If I didn�t I�m not being that guy you�ve been seeing. From above you came like a lovely dove. I love you and you love too. I trust you and you must too.
Belief is to be seen and things aren�t as they seem. But my dreams have come true. I found them all in you; in everything you do. I wish I once knew that things would go how I know them now. I would�ve been happy because lately I found the one I�ve come to love, over everyone I�ve thought of. Never will I shove. If it�s all fake then for goodness sake I still won�t wake. Nothing can break the way I feel. This will always be real. Everyday in everyway I wouldn�t change the way everyday went because then when I need you it wouldn�t do. Nothing I knew would go the way I want it now and oh how I would be sad, but this way I�m glad.
I love you and need more of you. I miss you and kiss you. Don�t hate me for things I plea. Don�t rate me for things I don�t see. I wouldn�t to you. I love everything you do. I want to take it one step at a time, but not like mine. I�m slow, but you know? I want to run. It�s fun with you as the one that�s by my side. In you I confide. With you there�s nothing I hide. Happiness is a bless, after all the mess you come out clean. Need to know what I mean? You make pain go away. When I complain your way, you actually listen. When I�m with you there is nothing I�m missing, when away you�re all I�m missing. Except maybe some kissing. Now before I tell you some more, let me repeat, let me beat this in that you�re the one I�m lovin� and the only one I�m needin�. Through thick and thin, you are the one thing I never want to lose. You�re who I choose and please don�t confuse it with something else or me with someone else. My heart has been shred apart, but you put it together. Tell me never that you will put them back. Tell me the way you act will stay a fact. Keep things smooth and keep me with the truth. Every tooth, every toe, you must know I will love on your body. Everything naughty I think with you in mind. There�s something kind that you do. It�s true I�m so in love with you. Maybe I never understood, but if I could, just tell you now about how I truly am. I mean damn, it�s a constant flutter. I need you as my lover and to never take cover. Everything within I need to be hearin�. I love you and there is nothing anyone can do to make that untrue.
As I talk with you I want to walk with you. Is it cool if we hit the pool? I wish I could see you each day at school. It�s so cruel how I find what I�m looking for, but I can only see on tour. I need her more, more then anything I�ve ever needed. I�m growing conceded, because I know she is the only one worth my time. Stay mine, keep me happy. Keep loving me fully. I do you. I do need you. I do want you. I�ll be blunt with you, you�re who I want the rest of my life with. You�re who would be best to wife with. You�re so nice, I want to see you at every rise. I want to rise with you by my side as my one and only bride. Please don�t hide, put all other matters aside. Please confide all matters in me. I want to be the one to see all of your feelings. I want to feel these things. I want to buy you rings and many things. I love you and only think of you. My heart and mind is full of you.
