By JP
Malig
Sometimes, perhaps I
really wanted to know about the reason why I had to be born and where I am going
and what will be happening when I am dead.
Not in a passive philosophical sense but in a
specific and comprehensive sense. I could imagine hundreds and thousands of
thoughts or guesses about all these. What is that for?
Imagined thoughts
could never persuade me that it actually applies to reality.
I do not have those
answers yet. If I can find any answer which can satisfy my inquisitive soul, I
would already be a Buddhisatva.
Whenever. Whichever.
I think of something for a long time I am
always reminded of the instructions of Buddha.
The world would be
nothing, if your value and thought is nothing. If you truly can realize that you
are nothing, then you are capable of becoming anything.
Then you have no
longer to be involved in this world. You might become one with the world itself.
If you are able to forget you and your everything, you will be able to be the
sky, the earth, the river, or the man you have dreamed to be, and Buddha as well
like he said to people.
All I could give
myself was that everything is flexible and there is no forever except a certain
rule which rules the entire time and Universe.
That is why I am going
to find out the rule, and that is why I live, that might be the answer for the
question I had. Though I am not sure if this truly assures
me.