In half-light

By JP Malig

 

I READ about a Persian creation story, in which the first thing God made was Intellect, a being of light, which was endowed with knowledge of God, knowledge of itself, and knowledge of its transcience.

Knowledge of God, manifested itself in Beauty, knowledge of the self in Love, and knowledge of the transcience in Sadness.

Love always looking at Beauty. But when Beauty smiled, Love felt overwhelmed and wished to run away. The youngest, Sadness, held on to Love and from their embrace were born heaven and earth.

There is an undercurrent sadness in everything, but especially in our experience of the beautiful. A good story, whether told in a book or film, leaves us both joyful and sad -- joyful for having known each other, a warmer and more coherent world, and sad over its having to end.

The same is true of a piece of music, say a Bach fugue or Chopin prelude, as it is of a visit to a place of sanctuary and solitude.

The sadness that underlies joy corresponds to the shadows that make light, and life more dramatic and meaningful.

A Japanese writer once wrote an essay in praise of shadows, and eulogizes the world before electricity, when the nights are lighted with candles and gas lamps.

He values jade, "that strange lump of stone with its faintly muddy light," more than crystal, and dark miso soup for being "the muddy claylike color, quiet in a black lacquer bowl beneath the faint light of a candle."

He laments that we no longer are acquainted with the intimate world of half-lit things, in which people stay in the shadows and talk of whispers or low voices. Life has become too bright and too clearly demarcated.

"We live at great speed in perpetual glare," someone wrote. We need to slow down, come together, value silence, to be attentive to the heart and be acquainted with the worlds beyond life and death.

Why must beauty and joy be always accompanied with sadness? The German poet-philosopher Novalis calls it "this indescribably beloved pain -- this sadness and memory -- this brave longing..."

Because it is only when sadness is woven into joy, when the day is full of the play of light and shade that we are brought to a knowledge of greater reality.

That knowledge comes from feeling the sadness "in the spaces, the voids, between things, and at the edges between appearance and disappearance, something and nothing, sound and silence, where we become subliminally aware of the world's continuous creation" (Christopher Bumford, Burnished Gold).

Once we know this sadness, we are able to love more purely.

 

29 March 1998

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