7/14/03: rightio, so I was supposed to be camping right now but no. People had to drop out, and amazingly I am in the best mood ever. I love will. Ari and I are going to go on a rampage sometime, and even though Mike says that I would never do anything bad like egg someone's house, one never knows eh? I could get filthy stinkin ... um inebriated. The only type of golf that I ever found fun was mini golf or putt putt, although I've never tried real golf, I don't think it'll be that fun. i want to go play putt putt. LET'S GO PLAY PUTT PUTT!!! wait that costs money... We'll figure something out eh? So i just finished reading this book called God-Shaped Hole and it's very interesting. Crude in the sex department but it's filled with a lot of sadness and discovering stuff and what not, some of it is bullshit but the main character is a jewelry maker girl and she makes rockin jewelry, she puts really expensive gems in rough settings so they juxtapose each other. It sounds cool. And she really enjoys it and she's able to express herself through this medium, I wish I could do that for my future job. Maybe I shall, eh? maybe i'll just quit engineering and go into jewelry making. Who knows. LET'S GO PLAY PUTT PUTT!!!
7/5/03 YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone's back!!!!!!!!!! Ari babari you know you had fun and blah blah blah. MIKE'S BACK!!! yea happy me!! well david left again but he'll come back later. I actually started working and i'm almost done with all the people names... Indexing a history book is actually quite interesting. I'm so happy people are back, very very very happy. I hope everyone had a jolly fourth of july. Mine was actually quite nice although nothing was planned until two minutes before. Chatted with Sam and Miriam for a couple hours, it was nice, I didn't expect to be able to talk with them so easily especially since usually i'm quite reserved. I probably still was, come to think about it. meh, what can one do. I think that I don't eat when I get sad. It's not that i'm not hungry it's that i don't feel like eating, but then I eat and i feel better... very very odd... Food = happiness? meh. = ).
7/2/03: BAHHHHH men are really stupid. Or i'm just too weird. i give up trying to get to know them better, at least some of them. I really give up. I have succeeded in becoming even more annoying. I swear i'm not paranoid, really. but if I think people are cool I like to hang out with them but no these crazy people are like ... crazy and unsocial like. BISHYBOO TO THEM ALL. silly folks.
7/1/03: men are stupid. women too. we're all damned. although apparently i'm going to valhalla, i am a WARRIOR PRINCESS. okay to explain: i took an online test w/ ari cuz we were bored and it was to answer the question of whether i was damned or not and apparently i'm going to valhalla, the viking heaven. JOY = WARRIOR PRINCESS. woohoo!!! four more days before mike gets back. I wish, that people would just be happy, very stupid wish, but I think that if you're happy with someone in a romantic sense and you're leaving for college in a couple months, don't dwell on the whole you need to part ways bit, although i am guilty of that from time to time, but just enjoy the time you have. You should just be thankful that you have someone for whom you feel so strongly, and who feels the same way about you. It's hard, I know, to think about the end, but it's going to happen and i dunno. Why bring more misery on yourself than you need to? Besides when you break up, this will sound very very very unemotional and harsh, but you will have a new life to lead and you will be busy so you'll have more things to push that hurt away. bah, i'm tired, i'm rambling, this is nonsense. ari have fun in chicago, no that one kid does not think you are that one thing you think he thinks you are. cuz really, you are just wonderful, and everyone knows it. much love.
6/28/03: okay so I'm tired and I only put up two poems but there are more to come... everyone boos, yes i know. Anyways. Sorry.
6/28/03: sometime between last semester till now, I had forgotten how great it was to write.
6/28/03: oh yes, I have put new poems up I do believe, or I will have once this night is over. Well not necessarily new poems, I guess just my portfolio from last last semester... Maybe i'll just revamp this entire thing. what ho! Hey it's Shakespeare!
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6/28/03: Yes. I miss mike. Unbelievably so cuz I mean I just start hanging out w/ him a lot and then bam he's gone to Europe and I'm stuck here feeling this urge to call him but hey he's NOT HERE. but he'll be back in a week and yea camping trip!!! ach so, i'm going on a road trip I don't care who says I'm not but I will drive to seattle down the californian coast and then all the way back. i think. Mark better come with me or else he's dead for ditching me all the time. Yes, so not terribly excited about going to U of M but what can I do, I need to learn to live with it some day but I'm really not through bitching about parents not letting me go to Berkeley. Hell man, I wanna get out of this place, though I love it very much so. and okay so we had soccer today right, and all these people said they would come but who showed up? Seven people. Righto good job guys, I mean it's really one of the things I really don't like about people our age, we're the most unreliable people I know. It's hard to find people, including myself a lot of the times, that are less than half an hour late. I mean we were done playing soccer after an hour or so and then people show up half an hour after that expecting us to still be playing?!?! I'm so confused... It's just that there seems to be a lack of respect for that person when you're late, it's very frustrating and sad to be that person whose waiting for an hour or so to hang out w/ someone. ALSO i realize that I'm a very sensitive person but it's not necessarily a bad thing all the time, i mean realizing it is half the battle but who the hell wants to be an insensitive bitch ho? I don't want to be a bastard whose self centered and can not realize that doing such and such will hurt what's his/her face and then once realizing it not give a damn! there's too many of those already. i swear. I need people to come back to Ann Arbor so I can chill out already. much love and kisses to the people i love. - Joy
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