Okay take.. the saying "I feel stupid" from the i feel stupid song.. and then take.. "So i lied, are you the now or never kind.." and "here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well, here's to the nights we felt alive, here's to the tears you knew you'd cry, here's to goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come too soon" from the eve 6 song.. and mix in "Summer time and the wind is blowing. Outside in lower Chelsea. And I don't know what I'm doing in this city. The sun is always in my eyes. It crashes through the windows. And I'm sleeping on the couch. When I came to visit you, thats when i knew, I could never have you, I knew that before you did, still i'm feeling stupid. And there's this burning, like there's always been, i've never been so alone, and i've never been so alive" from Motorcycle Drive By by Third Eye Blind and then sprinkle in some "I can see clearly now the rain is gone, i can see all obstacles in my way...." from the oldies and what do you get?
you know, its been an effin long time since one of these. I was just on my friend's page and it had that quote, the really well known one about dance like noone's watching and love like its not going to hurt. and stuff like that. I really needed that cuz for a while i've been not too enthusiastic about a relationship. You go into one and everything's all hunky dory right? Then it ends and all this stress is created and its just not worth it. At least thats what it was like for me. Thing is when i got out of my last relationship i was so happy to be able to like someone and not feel guilty and I could just return to being whatever I was except I'm a lot more tentativeabout the whole girl/boy friend thing. The thought of it makes me want to gag. I'm scared of liking someone, I'm scared of the idea of it, or rather uncomfortable with it. But whats the point, as the quote has said, of doing anything half ass.
i wish i could drive like ms. sarah wolf. that'd be sweet. legal too. but sadly i don't even know how to drive. but i will next semester!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally driver's ed. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. its stupid this stupid segment 2 thing. blah. i just realized that i should change my thoughts and theories, cuz its just me saying everything is stupid. blah. besides i wrote those in 8th and 9th grade.. you know .. way back then.. = ).
I'M STARTING TO GET CALLUSSES ON MY FEET!! YES!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. THIS IS AWESOME. I GET TO HAVE LEATHERY FEET!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why this is a good thing i do not know.
Excerpts from English Journal:
okay, i've noticed that when i feel like saying duh.. i say obviously, its a more sophisticated way of saying duh. like in elementary we said duh all the time, and we still do. and its funny, but somehow in a way its crude too. but crude things are fun. and obviously just sounds snobbish sometimes. so these new peanut butter m&m's are pretty good, but i can't eat too many of them or they make me sick, but they are really cool and yummy. my sister said that the sour skittles were just skittles coated in a sour powder.. hm.. i need to try some of those.. i need to try some more sobe stuff too. i also need to try harder at getting a job. heh. all these things .. i'm such a lazy bum. bum bum bum.
yo, this is a joke told to me by zak:
There's a whole bunch of people in a room waiting for a brain transplant. This doctor comes in and is like "we're testing a new experimental transplant, male brains are worth $5000 and female brains are worth $2000". So then, this woman gets super pissed and asks, "why are the female brains worth so much less?" and the doctor says "because the male brains haven't been used."
bwahahaha, that cracks me up. but yeah.
Reasons why to be single:
you get to not worry whether this dude will hold your hand or not. you can talk to every single guy friend of yours and hug them all w/o having some girl saying you're cheating on your bf, or sure you're a slut, or having your bf be jealous. you gets to not worry about your hair or how you look or worry whether that guy still likes you or not. geez, since i'm cheap, you don't have to buy the dude birthday or other holiday presents. oh yeah, you don't have people constantly asking "so.. how's (fill in the blank)?", or "how far have you guys gone.. wink wink".
well see.. there's tons of reasons why to be single... i mean, you don't have to constrain yourself.. you have more free time w/ your friends.. there's other stuff too, such as if you really wanted to you COULD flirt w/ everyone and noone would care. well maybe some would. but also, there's a bunch of good stuff about having a bf. and you can go read those on kerry's page. cuz ya know how awesome kerry is.
hot damn. listening to the same song 18 times is not fun. its annoying in fact. rather. rather rather rather. i wish friendship be damned. well not really. i can't ramble. its not possible anymore. hm.. focusing sucks. geez. i love smoke by natalie imbruglia and and and motorcycle drive by by third eye blind. and i love our lady peace.. they're just awesome. which reminds that i must return cd to jimmy. since when did everything twist around. maybe i should just move. hehe. am i speaking metaphorically or literally? or figuratively which is the same thing as metaphorically. hm.. if i actually remember any vocab words that i memorized this year in five years, i'll be really surprised. i love beautiful day by u2. its such a great song, it makes me happy everytime i hear it. it just makes you want to get up and be happy and dance and its so awesome. i love these old songs too. they're great. i miss them. faster than the speed of flight. adrenaline lets you do stuff that you never thought was possible. well thats what people say. maybe i'll go listen to natalie imbruglia... or should i listen to tori amos.. or third eye blind.. or or or tonic.. or fuel. hot dang.
The all time million dollar question...
Ajan bought corny discs extending from galley holes in jail kittens lying morosely nauseating on pine quills running sideways to usurp vandalizing worrisome xmen yawning z's.
if you didn't get it, the beginning letter of each word is in order w/ the alphabet, you know, a ajan, b bought, c corny, d discs.
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh how's it going???? well i just talked to my parents' friends' daughter who goes to mit and she says that the stress isn't too bad and she does a bunch of other stuff like she's in a sorority and she's secretary of something and other stuff i don't know, she does a bunch of stuff, she's really nice, but hey she might be some superwoman, but if the stress isn't too bad, that was my main thing against mit, but whatever, so i'm pretty sure my first choice is mit, if i can get into it.. agh!!! oh well. my dad gave me that good grades are important in high school lecture on the way back home. its liek "i know, you don't need to tell me" blah. so i went through the i need to get out of my house but noone could do anything, well besides marty, but he wasn't helping, and so i just went and started to read, and i fell asleep, fun eh? oh well. yeah, a bunch of people are gone............. agh. hm.. tyrese's cd is a pretty bad cd. i'm serious. its all about being a macho guy, well most of it, and it kinda pissed me off. but oh well. i have an aerosmith sticker, thanks to jimmy. hm.. what should i do w/ it? i could put it on my wall but my dad would kill me, i could put it on one of my folders, yeah, that's it, too bad i don't really listen to aerosmith... hm... haahhh, that's just too bad. bye.
Hey, its mickey mouse! hm.. to think about it i never saw much of mickey mouse, i used to watch that one show w/ the puppets, the lamb, the donkey and the dog i think, and there was that woman who died of cancer i think, she had red curly hair. i used to love that show. and i also watched reading rainbow and mr. rogers, and i'm sure i watched sesame street. ahhh never watched kid house rock. is that what its called? there was that takeoff from the power rangers, it was called virtual something or other. i watched that too, there were two girls and one guy. hm.. you know the show called two guys and a girl? it used to be called two guys, a girl and a pizza place, i think it was funnier then, but hey, its pretty good now, i guess. i still like malcolm in the middle. you guys like freecell? do you guys know how to play? euchre is pretty fun. of course i don't bet, because ahem, cards aren't allowed at school, and since its summer that doesn't count but i also don't want to lose any money,cuz apparently i'm not too good at it. but its fun to play, i don't understand why cards aren't allowed on school grounds though, kinda stupid. but hey. what'd you expect.
eminem sucks. he bashes gays in his songs, and i don't care if he doesn't mean it because its still wrong. homophobes suck too. i don't give a damn if your religion doesn't believe in it, do you really think that god would want you to mistreat other people just because they feel differently than you do? that's all just bullshit, do unto others as you wish be done to you, or something like that, the bible is a book written by chauvinistic men who were afraid that someone w/ boobs would be smarter, faster, stronger than they were. not saying god doesn't exist, just saying if he wanted the bible to be written, it was interpreted wrong.
i'd like to have callusses on my feet and hands, then i wouldn't be able to feel anything. well, i mean on my feet, i'd like kinda leathery skin cuz then i could walk on pavement and not give a darn, hey, i could even walk on a dirt road and not give a darn, i think that'd be fun.. well maybe i don't want callusses on my hands, would that effect my violin playing? hm.. i wonder what its like to be ambidexterous. that'd be fun too. then i could have those callusses that you get from writing on both hands and look at them and be like, look theres a big bump of skin on my knuckle. yeah, that would be fun. i need a tori amos cd, and i need to listen to ani difranco too. hm.. i'm done.
okay, equality is a great thing isn't it? ahem. yes, it is. oh well, okay so in The Chosen by someone whose a really good writer, but yeah, there's a proverb or quote or something that says that it isn't the amount of friends you have that's important its the worth and value of them, or something that results in that meaning, and i was thinking of that, and i was like, isn't it strange that all the people who are supposedly non popular think that all the popular people think the opposite? i mean, i used to have that stuck in my head, and sometimes its true, some people just want to have a bunch of friends just to show off that they can, and it isn't limited only in the popular section, but everywhere else too. i know some awesome people who are the most down to earth people and know who their friends are, and they're popular, i know people who think the opposite of the quote who aren't. i just wish there was someway to stop this ordering of classes.
HEYHEYHEY, i got some pretty cool pictures of cars, but i'm not uploading them to my server, cuz i don't want to and i'm too lazy. but they're really really cool, msn has some pretty cool pictures!!! and yeah yeah yeah, when's steven coming back? hm.. okay so i went through this whole thing about worrying about my friends doing drugs and drinking and stuff today, it was kinda weird. its stupid, kev and i talked about it, and we agreed that its understandable if you just want to try it, out of curiousity and stuff, but to do it continously or want to start, its stupid, i mean why would you want to purposely destroy your brain cells which you really need... its just stupid. so yeah, i got the californication cd by rhcp, its a really cool cd, and i'm borrowing a bush cd from alan cuz he was borrowing my no doubt cd and he didn't have anywhere else to put it. yeah. Live's a really good band too, no matter what you say steven. yeahhhhhhhhh i think i'll go away now.
HEY!! LOOKY YOU GUYS!!! IT'S A PONTIAC FIREBIRD (thanks to msn) isn't it soooo cool? i like the dodge viper too but i can't find a good picture. oh well. I mean i've got this picture of it 
but it's not too great. hm.... i'm happy you guys, i'm really actually happy. this is too awesome. hm, do you know how long a thing can be when you just type and you don't pay attention or actually stop and think about what to write? its so awesome cuz you just keep typing and typing and typing and when you're done, you scroll up and you're like, wow, i wrote all that? you guys should try it sometime. Bugs are hm... well they're cute, its just that i'd never want to own one you know? i don't even want to drive one. hm... i'm scared of driving, i'm so clumsy in the first place so what's going to happen when someone sits me behind a wheel??? yes, you guys should be scared when i get on the road, my sis already is. but hey, maybe w/ the right teaching.... who knows? Australia's doing some really cool stuff to their environment there was even a group of loggers and a group of environmentalists who sat down and wrote out an agreement, it's kinda cool, and then they're shutting off this entire peninsula to let the original species/fauna/etc. come back and stuff, (source: national geographic), its pretty awesome. I wish they would do that in south america, i mean look at all that rainforest. We are killing ourselves by ruining our environment. some person thinks we're dying out. but our population is booming, something's wrong w/ that picture, eh?
hey guys, what's up? i'm hm.. nevermind about that. punkrocker. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm do you guys like the word blah? i think its pretty cool, you know? pretty cool, eh? shoop de yoop shoop de yoop de yoop, salt n' pepa's cool too. hm, i really have nothing to talk about so i'll just keep typing, how about that? run lola run is such a cool movie, there's this part where she's like i'll just keep running okay? plz show me a sign and then a truck almost runs her over and she wins a million deutschmark at a casino, awesome, its spoken in german and there's english subtitles, its basically her bf is in trouble and he needs a million dollars because a tramp stole it from him, and its three different versions of how she would react, and the whole movie lasts 90 minutes. its such a cool movie, i love it. you should rent it. I've been trying to get "monty python and the holy grail" or actually my friends have, i've just been , um.. encouraging them, i really need to get that movie and see all of it, cuz i only saw the beginning in german class, all the good things happen in german class. "it's just a flesh wound" "come back and i'll bite your legs off" ahhh i need to find that movie, fast.
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