In My Mind
Cut Me Up
Here's Your Sign
Lullaby of Shame
Under My Breath
Silence
Fateful Unwilling
Incubic Wall
My Only Enemy
Misery
Coming Home
Drive
3:32
3:52
3:50
3:46
1:55
4:47
3:45
2:41
6:00
3:03
3:56
3:29
As of April 1st, 2005, the tracklist for Coming home is final, i feel it approprate that since this album means a great deal i go through each song and tell you about the concept that is going through high school as a new age teenager, song by song this concept is brightly influenced by my life from ages 14-18, and how it affects me today.
Under The Sun (2:54)
As in Grade 9, it seemed everyone was telling me that no one can succeed the expression "Under The Sun" is a general one used to downplay the effect an individual of society, this song really shows my early beliefs about prosperity and individualism and making a difference in the world. Of course, expectations lead to dissapointment, and the song is a shout for help for someone to stop me while im ahead, before my optimism eventually brings me down.
In My Mind (3:32)
Grade 10 is now approaching, and my self awareness is increasing, and upcoming are the infamous events of September 11th, 2001. This tragedy opens my eyes to a whole new world of hate and dismay that had yet to affect me. This song reflects my feelings about how the tragedy not only made me think, but tore me apart in alot of ways.
Cut Me Up (3:52)
Im still in grade 10, my ability to conquer fears and just act is limited, this song simply states how important to act instead of sit on the sidelines. How i want everything, and do nothing, leading to constant dissapointment in the near future.
Here's Your Sign (3:50)
This song is a reflection of all the people in my younger high school years complaining, and depressed about whats happened to them in the past. "Histories not nice to you" is the first line of the song. And it states that this teenage depression is a sign for you to get up and do something with your life, and its "Your Sign" your maturing and want more in life, some kind of purpose in life, rather than just another person.
Lullaby Of Shame (3:46)
All this input coming to me from my mind in Grade 10, trying to make major steps towards becoming "popular" and fitting in like i did in junior high. Of course this doesnt always work, it seemed the nicer i got the more i got mistreated. This song states that the transition between happiness and depression can be a sudden and uninviting one.
Under My Breath (1:55)
A Short song yes, but meaningful none the less. Its the summer after Grade 10, still with the frustrations of being single in a world (High School) were everyone seems to be dating someone. The frustrations of holding it in finally get to me, and i explode with rage, thats what this song is all about.
Silence (4:47)
A Somewhat rude awakening. It seems all the music i have in my CD case, Goldfinger, Green Day, The Offspring, is no longer streaming on much music. Instead i see flashes of Britney Spears and the rising starts Good Charlotte. It becomes clear to me the Rock world is diminishing and becoming more and more pathetic, the first strive to make something better, my first try at my music.
Fateful Unwilling (3:45)
Unwilling to do anything about the music in the world, my problems, or any one elses, and the shock of getting my ego lowered and my band ripped apart because of a song "For The Best" which made us try to change, i break down, almost crying, and i wonder if its worth it, if my life is heading somewhere, or if its random bundles of goodness bound to end up as always in denial and depression.
Incubic Wall (2:41)
As in "Lullaby Of Shame" im given the go ahead, life was better, i was changing music, i was in a band. And i finally realise, my friend stole the girl i liked (and introduced him to) ive gone through my first breakup, and nothing seems to be going right, i do, however get out of my mess, only to go back into it, it makes me wonder if i like feeling like this, because i keep putting myself in this terrible place.
My Only Enemy (6:06)
Struggling for an answer to my pain, i try to find a way to cope with it. By now my band has made a few CD's, and its coming up to May 26th, 2004, the time of graduation of Grade 12 is upon us. The drink takes over my life soon enough because of the great time i have with it on this night. I struggle through this addiction for the better part of 5-6 Months. This is all about my struggle to get out of something that seemed so right to me, as if alchohol was my "One loyal friend".
Misery (3:03)
Political? Yes, the summer of Grade 12 is upon us, and after substaining from the drink, i become once again interested in articles posted by politic critic "Matthew Good". Reading these at the start of college gets my interested in this idea of war, and a once happy and potentially willing student (Under The Sun) becomes jaded because of all the hate and grief surrounding him.
Coming Home (3:56)
After all the people ive hurt, the lives ive potentially ruined, i use "Coming Home" as a metaphor for trying to make things how they were in the past, i try to make menses. Like an empty field, no one seems to be left, and im left all alone because of the path ive chosen in life. Its also about how when one group gets boring, we ditch them, and turn our backs on them, and when you turn around, and "Come Home" they are no longer there, the basis of most of my misery, and hence the album's concept.
Drive (3:29)
After all that happened to me, all that could happen to me, one event completely changes my life. On my way to Morgo Uxbridge's house, i get hit and almost killed by a car, i survive, and end up hobbling to my friends house. The near death experience makes me think, and realise thinking to much about your past and the worl around you is pointless when life is so short. I make a promise to live my life how i want to live it, i do care about 9/11 and the Tsunami to this day, but keeping myself happy consumes alot of my life, and to this day i try to keep my motto up.