She Paints her face
Just like all her friends
Hanging out and long walks on the beach are some of her favorite things to do
She listens to the hottest pop songs
Making sure everyone around her hears them when she pulls into parking lots
Friends tell her she is prettier than them
She believes them
She tells that to herself when she looks into the mirror
Sarah doesn't get along with mom and dad
Though she only sees dad on the weekends when she goes to his house
The only thing that keeps her different from the others is the words she writes in her journal
She writes poems about love and feeling lonely
She writes about how she sometimes wants to be somebody else
When Sarah is in her room writing
Pictures of her best friends stay close to her
So many people love her
So many people hate her
Everyone knows her
Sarah writes about how she hates herself
And sometimes wants to die
She hates the name Sarah and wished she'd never been born
Walking in the halls of school
All the people see is her fake smile and expensive clothes that she only wears once
All they see is her laughing at the others kids because they are a little bit different
It's hard to like her sometimes
But all her friends are just like her
One night
She was upstairs sleeping when she was awaken by the heat of the fire in her room
Frightened and sweating
She picked up her journal
Before she left to save her life she wanted to stay pretty so she went to grab her make-up and clothes
All that took too much time and all the windows and doors were blocked off by the flames
She dropped everything except her journal and started to cry
Sarah was trapped and screaming from the burns
She was starting to catch fire, it hurt bad
Desperate for life, the life she hated and wanted to go away
The glare from the moon made the window slightly visible
Without much chance, but her only hope
She ran through the fire and through the window while holding tight to the journal
Sarah was in flames and knocked out from the fall she took
She was quickly sprayed down and taken to the hospital to be saved
Sarah was still alive
But barely
One year after she was in flames
Sarah didn't look the same anymore
Her hair was permanantly burnt off her head and face
Sarahs face was severely scarred
No one knew who she was anymore
Sarah wasn't Sarah anymore
Nothing was the same
She cried everyday and wouldn't go outside to be seen
What made her who she was, was gone
She never went back to school
Never had a boyfriend
All she had was her half-burnt journal that was barely saved from the fire
She wrote a poem on the last page and it said in it...
"Deep down I love everyone
Sometimes it's hard though
I just wish people would love me for more than just the way I put on my make-up and where I shopped
Now that people are forced to love me for who I am, no one will even look at me
No one will talk to me or call me
I wish someone would love me
I wonder if they will notice when I'm gone
I wonder what picture they will remember me by
I wonder"
After she wrote those last words
Sarah went outside into the dark
Mom was inside sleeping
She wasn't afraid or nervous
She had no emotion at all
She said a prayer to God asking Him to please take her when she dies
Sarah walked slowly to the train tracks
For a long time she stared at the tracks without a thought in her head
The train was coming and she layed in the path of the tracks
She said goodbye to the world
Sarah never looked back
Goodbye Sarah
I love you
If only you knew
