A Life In the Shadows!
(Domestic Violance & Rape)
All my life i've seen pepole be hurt... I don't mean hurt like the first time u take off ur training wheels and fall down, or even your first broken hart.
Yes many things can hurt a person but the worst are when pepole hurt pepole!!!
Let me start by telling you my story(s)...
Grandpa Bernie
(My Dad's Dad)
An eight year old girl gose to see grandpa for the summer every year she had looked forward to all the things they would do. Amusment parks and shoping sprees vidio tapes and the swiming pool. She knew grandpa was always the most excided each summer (well besides her) about her new swimsuite. And she couldn't wate to show him as soon as she got thare she went in kissed his cheek and changed his smile when he saw her new 2 piece with the pretty flowers will haunt her forever. It wasn't untill almost the end of summer when grandpa made her a deal he said he wanted to make a vidio tape of her. She thought it was for her pagent she had evry summer in his town so she volinteered quickly. That night grandpa came to her bed in the basment and removed her cloths she woke and saw him thare and her small body trembled she began to scream for help but he hit her and taped her mouth needless to say she lived but with many harsh and haunting memories.

This was only my first BAD exsperiance the only with him thow soon after i left and told my family i didn't feel like seeing him when i was 10 i told my mom the truth my dad knew to they both helped me stay away from him he passes away this past december (2003) That was the first time i did not cry when someone i knew died!

My Father
(Bernard J.)
My 13th birthday had arived finally a teenager things would change now for sure no more of pepole treating me like a child... the party was awsom i couldn't have had more fun and when it ended a few friends helped to clean up. Dad came out with the trash bags and i saw that look again the one that lets u know to run but i didnt this time i am invinsable forsure i thought to myself. I soon changed my mind when my step mom and dad left and as soon as she was in the car he came back in pretending to forget something hed slam the door and stomp the stairs i would turn up the music and continue what i was doing untill this time my door swung open and fowl words flew across my room along with evrything he could reach from the doorway. i told him i hadnt seen whatever it was he wanted and to leave me alone! He got real close to beating my ass all the way down the stairs when my step mom yelled for him i cryed and cryed and reasured myself it wouldn't happen again well after i turned 16 i couldn't take it anymore and i ploted to run away he had beten and raped me one to many times to count (i refrain from details of this due to the pain) i went to a friends and we decided to leave i had gotten in alot of troble liveing with him and was on probation at the time i stayed with a friend sis, at my ex alberts house we had planed to call for a ride from her boyfriend but couldn't get ahold of him. We called amillion pepole and  no one could help. I got ahold of my grandma and had her come get me after being gone a week, i had court the next day. My dad showd up and after a big fight he let me stay with my mom and agreed to enroll me in school thare but would not give up custody. He was arested on his way home frome work a month before my 17th birthday. I was upset but after finding out i was not the only one i found releafe.  He's now serving his plee of 12 years in a max security prison and we just don't talk, he dosen't write and sometimes i think it to be best this way thow it still hurts not to have a father to walk me down the isle and do all that stuff fathers should do...
Helpfull Links
Natinol Domestic Violance Hotline
Domestic Violance & Rape
Rape, Abuse, & Insest Natinal Network RAINN
Rape Recovery
Hope fro Healing
Suicide Help
(All, for you your friends or if u know someone who has commited suicide)
Help Lines
Toll Free Numbers
The Nine Line: Suicide Help
1-800-999-9999
This is in Ashtabula Ohio  
Homesafe Domestic Violance & Rape Crisis Center
(Help and Safe Home)
1-888-492-7233
Suicide
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