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I got bored sitting still and made a fast fifty bucks off a couple guys who had no idea how to play pool. I wandered back to Tara�s room, and I sat on her bed while I leafed through a dog-eared volume of poetry. The cracks on the spine and her notes in the margins showed me what she liked best. �Beautiful�, she wrote in her tiny hand. �Perfect.� Her favorites seemed to be ones about the beauty of the outdoors. She liked Frost; every poem of his was underlined, and the pages were worn smooth from use.

The door opened and she was back. I smiled, happy to see her. She sat down next to me and peered over my shoulder. �Nature's first green is gold,� she read softly, �Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf's a flower. But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, so dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay.� She looked away from me. The room was so still and quiet. Silence extended for a minute, and the only sound was her quiet breath.

�Tara?� I asked. I reached out and touched her shoulder. Her muscles were tight.

�Nothing gold can stay,� she repeated. �I think that I must have done something wrong when I healed you,� she said quietly.

I stroked her hair. �Why do you think that?�

�The way that I feel,� she said. �The way that we are together. It happened during the spell.�

Understanding dawned and I dropped my hand away, stung. �You think the way we feel is just a�� I grasped for the right words. �A mistake,� I said, my voice hard and cold.

�You love Buffy,� she said adamantly. �You were with her. You never even looked at me twice. And I don�t even��

�You don�t even like men.� It came out harder than I intended, and she flinched. I stood up and walked away from her. She turned to face me, and her eyes were bright with tears. �You don�t really want me.� I sounded stiff and unnatural, and I felt like my heart had been pulled out of my chest.

�Spike, you�re wrong. I want you so much,� she said passionately. �I�m falling in love with you.�

�What do you think is happening to me?� I asked her, hurt. �What we said last night, what we did, you think that was all a lie?�

�It has to be magic,� she said as she stared at me. �It�s just too good to be true.�

I walked to the bed and kneeled in front of her. �I�ve never been so happy, ever. I couldn�t bear to be away from you for a few hours. You�re the one that I want,� I said hoarsely. I held her hand in mine and looked into her eyes. They were full of love, and pulled me like a magnet. I pulled off her sweater and undid her bra. I cradled the fullness of her breasts in my hands, as I ran my thumbs over her pebbled nipples.

She made breathy little noises. �Please,� she said quietly.

�Please, what?� I said. I slowly slipped off her skirt and her panties. My hand ran up the long white length of her thigh and I slipped my fingers inside her.

�You feel so good,� she said breathlessly. I pumped my fingers in and out as I played with her soft pink nipple. She came suddenly, and she bit down hard on her lip.

�Don�t hold back,� I said. �I want to hear it.�

�I want to feel you inside me,� she panted. �I want to know all of you.� The feel of her, the need on her face, it was too powerful. I stood up and pulled off my clothes.

�Tell me you want me,� I said raggedly as I leaned her back on the softness of her quilt.

She looked up at me. �I want you,� she said, her eyes raw with lust.

�I won�t ever let you go,� I said to her, needing her to understand.

�Please don�t,� she said sincerely. The ruby heart that I�d given her blazed against the white of her skin.
I sucked her fingers into my mouth and bit them lightly. I held the head of my cock and rubbed it up and down her slit. I traced circles over and around her clit, until we were both slick with arousal. I slipped in slightly, the head just inside her. The feel of her warmth was amazing and I thrust my hips forward. I stilled, awed by how warm and tight and good she felt. �Do it. Don�t stop. Make love to me,� she asked, her voice full of desire.