scarlet and fade - i wish.

broken and cherished, knotted and nailed
the script-torn faded sunlight -
cheerless empty mornings
that battle in the smile
empty and breed, scuttle and fall
tulips brushed upon the stair
a willow creaks its burden borrowed
lost in sunsets blazed and weakened

never - this the background of my scheme
blessed are the fortress blessings
blessed is the black
blessed and dark, empty and gone

were you the one who took me to the battles edge?
drove me to the very point of pain
danced with my tomorrows and placed me here to bleed?
you robbed me of the moment
that justified my scar
took me from the point of beauty

and cherished are those few bright moments lonely in the room
warm nights and half-remembered lovers
washed and warm the scarlet dressing
the thin air that i kissed
there wrapped inside your vision
safe and lonely, loved unshamed

and crushed upon the stolen cherry
buried in the gloom - a putrid kiss
bouquet of vomit, buckets and tears
hassle and fade

three wishes for my "lovers"
who scuttled in the hay
stain my promise, rot my wishes,
emptiness and blue
bath-tub scum my promises
the dirt beneath my nails

dead oranges my sunsets now
dead oranges my dreams
a boil my gift, my governance pinned upon the trees
my truth a stack of chemicals
both offered and received
my life a set of lonely walks
my life a scarlet bleed

with you i felt my innocence
i saw my spirit clean
with you i felt my eyes wide open
i felt my hands washed clean
with you i learned of happiness
that distance is the key

and if i stood beside you would i puke upon the rail?
questions and dreams, where will i fall?

with you my moments magnify
my mind an arrowed key
with you my mind a butterfly
a blade a silver stream
with you my life a stale-brush promise
just washed up on the beach
with you i wake up dreaming
close-locked within the mirrors
and the stars look on in envy
and i stand head high within the trees
technicolor kisses hurled before me
passing on the train
the moon my plaything, next to nothing
next to nothing in my failings

scarlet and fade - i wish