Man, ever just go through a dry spell that you thought would never end? Well, I'm in one and I don't intend to leave anytime soon...For about two weeks now I've been going go through a season in my life where I feel that God is just around another corner, but the corner seems to go on forever. Frutration is what has been pouring from my heart. Frustration because I seem to be doing all the right things, yet getting nowhere. Frustration because I know I'm paying all the right prices, yet receiving nothing. Frustration because I have sung every song and said every word I possibly could to make things "right," and my mind feels soo right, but my heart still feels soo wrong. It' not the fact that I'm not taking time to listen cause Lord knows that for two weeks I've gone to my quiet time with an open notebook, open heart, pen at side, and a silent mouth and spirit, yet nothin'...I have decided tonight to give up. No, not on God, never...but on fighting this winless fight of trying to will against His will. I told God tonight that if He wants me to be in the valley of silence and emotional death, then so be it. If this is the place where His presence has lead me, then this is where I will stay. If this is the place where I am the closest, not "feel" the closest, but am the closest, I have no squabble. BUT if all this is a lie and I'm not supposed to be here, then you have only but to whisper to me my Lord, and I will savagely fight to be where you are.