Hello All!! My name is Tabitha. On August 25,1995, I married the man of my dreams Jason. He, at the time was 20 yrs. old & I was 19. Kinda young, I know, but we loved eachother very much and could not wait to spend each and every day together. We hated leaving eachother. ~ We have had a pretty wonderful marriage. Of course there were those hard times that everyone goes through the first few years, but we made it through them and have grown and learned.
After being married for 5 years we became pregnant with our first baby. That was the most exciting time of our lives. After I had my bloodwork done - a few days later - the nurse called me and told me that I had a low blood platelet count (that is what makes your blood clot). A normal count is 140 thousand and up and mine was at the time 49 thousand. I had to go and be retested to find out that is was true. They sent me to a specialist throughout my pregnancy. I was classified with having "Thrombocytopenia" or ITP. The lowest my platelet count got was 6 thousand. I had to go and get my blood tested 2 or 3 times a week. Had to take steroids and IVG treatments. AWFUL!! ~ That is not all, I also found out that I had gestational diabeties and had to stay on a diet and prick my finger 4 times a day.
Well, thanks to many answered prayers I was able to have a normal delivery and a very healthy baby girl. Haley Anne born November 25, 2000, 6lb 8oz. She is our dream come true. I had always dreamed of having a little girl. God truly blessed us with a wonderful marriage and a daughter!!
When Haley was 6 months old, I had to have my spleen removed because it was eating my platets - causing the problem. As of now, my plates are normal.
Seven months later (December), I became pregnant again. (The due date was to be September 11, 2002) I was kinda scared to go through all that I went through with Haley. I was assured by the doctors that everything should be O.K. When I was about 9 weeks, I had a sonar for the first time. We got to see our little peanut's heart just a beating. It was so sweet and exciting. I was going to have another baby!! The next appointment was a month later. I was going to get to hear the heart this time but, it just didn't happen that way. When the doctor put the doppler on my tummy he could not find the heart beat. He keep moving it around, mashing on my tummy - I was getting really nervous. He said the baby is probably just playing with us, but lets go next door to see because I know that you will not rest until you know for sure. We went and he done the sonar. I was watching. When I saw the baby on the screen, I knew that the baby was gone and so was all our dreams for our new baby. (This was on March 7,2002). I was 13 weeks pregnant.
I had to have a DNC the next day (3/8/02). The doctor ended up cutting an artery and I lost almost half of my blood. I had to stay in the hospital over night to be monitored because of my blood level and blood pressure which kept dropping. So not only did I lose my baby, I had to also deal with this. The doctor went in and told my Husband and Grandmother that the baby had been gone for about 3 weeks. So it happened right after the appointment that I had the sonogram.
I have had a hard time dealing with the loss of our baby. I just can't understand why this happened to us. I still have times where I blame myself, is there something that I did or didn't do?
It has been 6 years since we lost our second child. We have since had a son, Jacob Alexander, born September 26, 2003. We now have 2 Angels on earth and 1 in heaven. God has really blessed our family.
Everyone always says that everything happens for a reason. All I know is that God has all the answers and all we need to do is trust in Him. |
