This is a poem about suicidal thoughts. The author and I would both like to say that it in no way condones suicide and if anyone has these thoughts, talk to someone immediately. Don't wait, because whatever it is this too shall pass.

 

So what

 

stumble up the stairs in the dark

and

bang your head against the wall

and

pretend that you're dead.

Drink until you pass out

or until you've had enough.

 

so what, who cares? sitting

all alone in bed

stale cigarettes and

beer and

memories of friends-so what,

who cares?

 

single, solitary, silent in my

room

swallow something new

to make the pain

go away

another day I don't have to feel.

 

so what, who cares?

sitting all alone in bed

stale cigarettes

and beer

and memories of

friends-

so what, who cares?

 

A single mistake, made

years ago

such a child that haunts me,

that hurts me so-

"its not your fault" and yet it is

there are just a few

that can really know.

 

So what

who cares?

sitting all alone in bed,

stale cigarettes

and beer

and memories of friends

so what,

who cares?

 

hold the blade in your hand

and test the pain

against your thumb

that pain is less

than what is inside-

weigh the options,

only one way to win

 

so what ,

who cares?

sitting all alone

in bed

stale cigarettes

and beer

and memories

of friends

so what.........

Kim Alisson

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