Title: Stay safe tonight  ( Part one of two )

Author: Jessica   ( j_rothen@yahoo.se )

Rating: PG

Category: MSR/RST

Spoiler: All things, Requiem, Within and Without

Summary: 

Disclaimer: The X-files, Mulder and Scully belong to FOX 
and they are not mine. 

Note: English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistake may occur.



He found it hard to breath. His hand was shaking like a leaf
blowing in the wind. She was so beautiful that it sometimes
caused him to forget breathing. She looked like an angel.
She had fallen asleep by his side while he had gone on and on 
talking about something. He reached out and touched her cheek.
Her skin was smooth as silk. Suddenly she opened her eyes and 
starred at him with those eyes that always made him weak in 
the knees. 
- What happened?
He smiled at her and said:
- Nothing, go back to sleep, Scully.
- No, I should go.
He didn't want her to leave. Not now. His whole body screamed 
after her. He wanted her. He wanted to touch her, rap her in
his arms and never let her go. He was tired of waiting, 
hoping for that perfect moment. He was afraid if he didn't
say the words now maybe they would never been said.
- Please, Scully. Stay. Stay with me.
Scully looked at her partner and saw something deep inside
him that she had prayed for to come into her life.
- Mulder, I....
Then he kissed her. His lips was so soft that she felt her
legs become wobbly. 
- Stay with me.
He whispered softly in her ear. As she surrendered herself
to the passion inside her she knew that she would never leave
him. If he only asked she would give up her life if he only
let her love him.
She tasted like heaven. He took her in his arms and carried her
into his bedroom. He had dreamt about this moment. No words was
spoken. He could see it in her eyes that she wanted this as
much as he did. 
The moon came in through the window as he laid her down on his
bed. Her eyes were dark with desire as he kissed her lips. This
kiss was demanding, fed by the passion they both felt. His
hands trembled a bite when he unbuttoned her blouse and touched
the skin above her heart. In that moment he knew he was lost.







His touch was that of an angel. She believed so. She had
wanted this for so long. She reached for him and he kissed her
with those lips. He tangled one of his hands into her lovely 
hair and with the other he unbuttoned his own shirt. When he
felt her hand on his chest he felt his blood starting to boil.
He traced his tongue against the inner edge of her lips and then
slipped deeper. He ran his hand from her buttocks and 
up to her back. 
As the darkness of the night grew stronger in the bedroom she open
herself up totally to him. When they came together he whispered 
words of love into the dark and thanked god for her.

She woke slowly. She was still in his arms. She could hear his 
heartbeat. She slipped from his arms and dressed quickly. She
was afraid of facing him again. She had opened herself up to him
and he had seen ever part of herself that she had been hiding 
away from the worlds eyes. She needed to be alone for a while. 
She needed to get her head clear. Maybe it was fear that clouded
her mind. She didn't know. The only thing she was sure of was
that she would never forget this night.


Three months later
Oregon

How could she act that nothing had happened between them? 
Mulder glanced at his partner that had fallen asleep in
the car seat beside him. They had never talked about what
had happened between them that night. It was like it never
happened. But he still dreamt about that night. He could
still sometimes taste her on his lips. He remembered so
clearly waking up in the morning without her by his side. 
He had been so hurt that she had just left. But he hadn't
said anything afraid that the voices that whispered in his
head was right. She didn't love him. It had just been one
of those nights. But he had been so sure that she felt
the same thing. He had searched her eyes for an answer
to the question that still ate at his soul. Had it all
been a lie? Those words she had whispered to him in the
darkness of the night. But she kept the truth well hidden
behind the wall she had around her heart.

- Wake up, Scully. We are here. 
He leaned over and touched her cheek. She opened her
eyes and sat up. Even though her hair was in a mess
and her clothes was wrinkled she was a beauty.
- I'm going to get the keys to the roomms.
He got out and started to walk to towards the motel.


She watched him go and wondered why he looked so mad.
He was seldom angry, not with her. But now she could
see something in his eyes when he looked at her. He
kept it well hidden but she knew that he was holding
back something. No words were needed. She knew what
it was about. Since that night that she was touched
by the heaven that was Mulder she couldn't forget.
She had tried so hard to shut him out of her heart 
for good. She had promised herself that she would
never fall in love again. She would be strong. She
didn't need anyone.

It was 3:am and he couldn't sleep. It had been so
long since his head been so clear. 
They were back were it all
started. He could still remember that time. 
She had been like a fresh breeze blowing into
his life. 
A knock on the door woke him up from his thoughts.
She was at his door. Her face was pale and she
looked so tired. He let her into his bed and took
her in to his arms. She somehow felt so fragile.
Being close to her again made his heart
melt. As he hold her when she cried he knew that
he had to let her go. Maybe this wasn't the time
and the place for them. Maybe someday it was time
to tell her how much he loved her. How much his
world was better when she was in his life. 

Two days later

He was going to separate them. He didn't want her to 
go. She stood there in the hallway and she wanted
to scream at him that she had to be there by his side.
It was her place in life. 
He would do anything to stop her from going. They
were taken abductees. He was not going to lose
her not again. Not ever.
- It has to end sometime.
- Mulder...
- I'm not going to risk.....losing you..
When she looked into his eyes she knew that he
had her heart. She was deeply and truly in love
with this man. 
- I won't let you go alone.
She took him in her arms and prayed for strength.

Next day

He was gone. They had taken him.
Dana Scully could not sleep. Her hand kept on 
creeping down to her stomach. She couldn't 
believe she had been blessed with his child. 
She wanted desperately to tell him, to share
with him the joy she felt. But she had lost
him in the same time as she gainws another. 
It wasn't fair. She needed him by her side.
He was like the air: she couldn't live without him.






One month later

He came to her in her dreams just before the sun
chased away the darkness. There she could almost
touch him. But he always slipped from her grip.
It had been a while since she didn't 
wake up calling his name.  
Dana Scully walked the halls of FBI 
alone again. She hid herself away from
the world behind the big wall she had
around her heart. She would get through this.

 John Doggett knew her by name. She was 
a beautiful woman. As he sat there by
her side waiting he almost felt pity for
her but he shock that feeling as soon as
he could. 

How could this be happening? She could never
in her wildest dreams believe that this
would happen. He had left her alone with
this aching heart. As she sat there starring
at his tombstone the walls around her heart
crumbled. He had never told her. He had
kept it all a secret. He was going to die
and he never let on. He hadn't trust her enough
to tell her the truth and that hurt like someone
was sticking a knife into her heart.  
He had whispered words of love the night when
they had gotten so close. Was it all lies?
Had he given her his heart without given her his
trust? Or was this all just lies made up by 
the men who had worked for years to break down
the strong man that was Mulder?
Or had they finally succeeded?

So this was pain. Her hands trembled as she
entered his home. How could she survive this?
She was falling apart without him. Her life
was darkness. Everything was so good with him.
He was the purest thing. He was her strength.
She was always on the run for love. He was the
reason she was alive. How could she had let him
slip away? She had let go of the only man she 
ever loved.
His scent was everywhere. She could almost hear
his voice saying her name. Maybe she was finally
losing her mind. She ran her hand over the papers
that still was laying around on his desk. She 
could still remember that night. His taste and touch.
It was like it was branded into her memory, but she
would never let that memory get away. Finally she
entered his bedroom. She could feel him the most
when she stood in that room. Maybe it was just her
imagination. As she stood there in the darkness
she whispered his name and hoped that he would be
there in the morning.


The heat of the sun made her weaker than she ever
had thought. She had never felt so much hope
than this day. They were closer to Mulder than 
ever. Dana Scully starred out of the window
and prayed that this was it. She couldn't take
so much more.
Walter Skinner watched her from the corner
of his eye. She never said anything but he knew
how much it had hurt her. She carried around this
belief that she had to be strong. She didn't trust
anyone. He doubted that she even trusted him completely.
She could feel him. As soon as she got out of the car
in front of the school were Gibson Praise were staying
she knew that they were at the right place. 

Dana Scully stood starring up into the sky. 
She had failed once again. Maybe this was it. 
Maybe her one chance to get him back was lost
forever. She wanted to scream to the heavens 
praying for a sign, just a point in the right 
direction. She needed something to help her get 
through the day. But she knew that she had to be 
strong. For herself, for Mulder, for the baby.
She blew a kiss to the dark sky and said:
- Stay safe tonight, my love.
Then she began to walk towards her car. 

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