Another Day.

Another day is upon me.
I try to make this day better.
Yet I cannot do so.
I feel restricted in my life.

My life is as mediocre as it gets.
I go, I come, I enter, I leave.
I sleep, I east, I rest, I study.
Why do I do these things?

My soul is sad today.
It feels the pain only loneliness can bring.
A loneliness that doesn't let me free.
Sorrow, Silence, Sadness, Soul Searching.

How long until I get an answer?
How much do I have to bear?
How should I keep living this way?
How do I keep myself from destroying myself?

I do not expect to know it.
I just keep asking myself.
I keep wondering what ifs
I just can't take it anymore

jal 11/4/99