Looking through the window blinds at the sunlit grass outside
Searching for solace in my music, but I find none
Painful thoughts course through my mind as my blood is to my veins
I cry for the days when I could run care free in the joy filled yards of my friends
But there is no comfort today, only more misery to fuel my hearts dire unease

Its seems this pain is all I know these days
My friends see me in the halls, in class, or just hanging around
I don't want them to see my hurt, so I try to withdraw and cry inside instead
The bitter tears can never fill the crevice that was once my heart

My body has become weak from all this stress
I cannot get a grip on my sanity as my mind rips apart
I drift in and out as the day turns to night, my life wasting away
Tears fall forming small iridescent puddles of dancing light
Everything turns surreal
Light headed, I wander inside my self
Exactly at what point did all this go bad

All I hear is how I need to pull myself together
That I am the only one who can get myself out of this mess
That this is all just a part of life
But it doesn’t seem that any of this can get better as I lack the strength
Lost in my self pity